Living in Self-Denial

Wassup everyone. I've gotten my 2days pay. 110bucks. Ha actually i kinda think i should've stayed till today but, the thought of that stinky place makes me really scared, no joke.

So i woke up at 1pm today. Watched Flower Boy Ramyun Shop. Sometimes i really wished i could be a lead role of some love drama. I've been thinking too much about love today, hahaha. I think many of my friends claim that they're in love, but do they really know what's love? Lol, I really dont know what's love. How does it feel like to be in love? How does it feel like to be loved? After a day's thought, I think i'm a coward when it comes to such things. I don't want to give it a try, don't want to face up to my feelings, don't want to accept anyone's feeling. Living in self-denial. Thinking that i'll never fall in love, no one will ever like me, i'll die an old virgin.

Someone told me, when you like someone, you'll constantly think about that certain someone. Well....... I think about many people in a day. When i chat up with someone for awhile, i'll think of that someone. Does THAT mean i'm in love? I don't think so yeah? I'm really curious to how real love is.

Someone's been missing in action today. Don't know what happen to that person. Feels kinda funny because of your absence.