Hey there~
Spent my Friday doing nothing~ I just kept walking around the house and looking at the hip hop video that we recorded and yeah! LOL Even though I had like animal work to complete but yeah..... WHO CARES. Slept really late that day. BOOHOO I think I slept at like 5am. Mad, or mad? Holiday mood obviously coming back. All the holiday bad habits all coming back.
What did I do on Saturday? Lol can't remember. I only remember I attended Lavanya's birthday party at night at Grand park city hall! The food there was heavenly!! I ate so many sashimi AND I STILL WANT MORE!!! & they had SUPER TINY MACARONS!!!! It was super duper cute! A pity I didn't took a photo of it. It was a size of a coin. SUPER CUTE, AND TASTY~ After cutting cake, we all had like 1 glass of champagne! Haha to celebrate Lavanya's 18!
Had a short after party. Went to boat quay with Luvenia, Sonia, Andrea and birthday girl. My wedges was killing me. It's not even wedges lol stupid shit it was super uncomfortable. So we walked past these group of guys, apparently it was Luvenia's friends. Haha popular gurl is popular. Got hugged and cheek kissed by people idk hmmm. Oh well they seemed friendly anyway~ Settled at this place that looked kinda cozy on the inside but we sat outside cuz there were no spaces inside. Well Luv knew the owner too. Ok I thought she does LOL. We had shots! The sad thing was I felt nothing even though I had 2 glasses. Weird or weird. I even downed my champagne but nothing happened. I really don't know why my alcoholic tolerance was so high. I remember that time I drank 2 bottles of wine and I was still so sane. Like I wasn't even high. -_- & they say if you drink and talk and laugh, the faster you'll get high. NOPE not working for me LOL. Yeah yeah yeah I'm abnormal....
Went back home and I wasn't even tired... Ended up sleeping at like 3am what the heck. Woke up at like 1pm the next day and attempted doing animal work. Did a little bit but I went off track and little while so I decided to go to school. Had danzpeople rehearsal from 7-11 but I think we only danced for like less than 5minutes LOL. It was actually from 7-10 but because we had to be in the first part of the whole act scene so we were held back till 11. Didn't ate anything for the whole day till dinner! Tsk tsk holiday habits holiday habits
Monday, April 29, 2013
Friday, April 26, 2013
Time flying away
Another week has passed and yeah it's just down with 2 more exams to go! I feel retarded when I do animal work. I can't wait for it to be over. Went back to school on Monday for animal work and anatomy. Anatomy test was on Tuesday! & CAN YOU BELIEVE I WOKE UP AT 12.48PM WHEN MY ANATOMY EXAM WAS AT 1PM?!!?! I was so shocked I didn't know what to do. I swear I woke up at 10. But I thought it was too early so I decided to sleep again. AND MY BRAIN HAD TO START DREAMING AT THAT MOMENT. At 12.48 I was still dreaming but my phone was so noisy so I woke up. THANK LORD OR ELSE I WOUD'VE FLUNK MY PAPER!? I called for a taxi and at 1.05pm, I was already in the taxi. The amazing things you do when you're late..... Yes I bathed and changed in 10minutes. Amazing shit.
I reached school and sat outside the lecture room for like a minute and decided to try my luck. Our doors need to be tapped to go in. The room that they used for the test that day, I couldn't access it with my card. So I just attempted to open it, hoping Dayal would come rescue me. LOL AND HE DID!!!! YAY THANKS DAYAL THANKS A MILLION. If you know him, he wouldn't let anyone take exams he/she's late. I'm so lucky. Yeah there'll be a few marks deducted but I studied enough so I don't care!!!! LOL
Didn't go for any danzpeople classes that night because we used up our 8 lessons and none of them wanted to renew it... Sigh. So we just stood outside of Mycs' class. After her class, we continued blocking her piece. Argh felt so zoned out during the whole practice. Because the whole thing's so messy and I feel like we dance very little. Meh I don't know la.
On Wednesday, went back to school just to have a 10minute feedback session with Miss Leia. Well it was supposed to be at school, but venue changed to Wilkie Edge's starbucks HAHA. Aw she made me feel so good. Yeah of course there are bad points too but yeah she noticed so many little things some teachers wouldn't even bother to see. I love feedback sessions!!!! We should have it with every teacher!!!! (especially Miss Melissa. Although she doesn't really teach us, I wanna know how she think of me hmm...)
Went town with Jingwen to fix her laptop. Walked around and chilled abit while waiting for 2.5hours to pass... Haha quite fruitful~ Bought my shampoo bar, new socks and my body mist~ I can't wait to go shopping with mummy again (HEHEHE)
Reached home at about 6.30pm. Quickly changed and went for a 30minute jog. Alright alright I think I slacked for like 5minutes or something. My energy died. After I reached home, showered and watched the Final 1!!!! Gosh for the first time ever, there are people that I personally know in a tv show. Amirul rocked the show!!!! Amazing guy is amazing. Guys support them okay!!!
Went back to school for hip hop lesson on Thursday. Sigh Mycs remixed the songs, AGAIN. It was horrible, especially the first remix. The only dances that I liked in the piece was No diggity and Sean Paul's song. The rest all...... BLUEK. I was so shocked when everyone chose that song because I thought everyone loved the 3 newest choreographies.... I was so sad for awhile and then~~~~~ EVERYONE DECIDED TO CHANGE WOOHOO. I'm so happy but I'm like digging for my grave too. The whole song's like 4minutes long and it's pure hip hop. Meaning the energy must be very high. I...... don't get to rest at all. I'm performing for the whole 4minutes. Ok maybe like I have 6 seconds rest then after that go all out again. WHO CARES I LOVE IT. How sad I'm losing my feel for "One minute man". Can't even get steps right LOL. OH and we're also performing our FIRST EVER hip hop dance that we learnt from Mycs! Even though it's not really our favorite, but there's this attachment to this dance because well, IT'S OUR FIRST!
We videoed down our full-out runs yesterday and really, I'm amazed. I can't believe we've improved so much as a whole. We can look so good when we are not fully polished. I can't imagine how awesome we'll be after full polishing. I thought that I was very distracting though.... Screwed up one minute man's dance. BOOHOO. I'll not screw it up the next rehearsal. NO SHANETTE YOU CANNOT.
Here's a few random photos that we took after each last lesson of the semester last week!!!
After the last dance history class!!!
Last viewpoints class with Adam!!!
We all wore read to support this little girl who died in the Boston marathon.
Yay to Adam!
IT'S MYCS YAWWWW (No this is not our last class but we have a photo with her now!!!!)
Asian dance with Gigi!!!
Charlie's Angels~
LASTLY, BALLET
Saturday, April 20, 2013
Ahhhhh!!!! The week is finally over!!!
Yesterday's hip hop class was awesome~ We finally blocked finished the whole song~~~ Nope I'm not prepared for hip hop exam yet even though I know all of us will be amazing!!!! Went back to school to bathe after class. Then trained to somerset to have Din tai fung for lunch!!!! You won't believe how expensive I was yesterday. After din tai fung, Andrea and I went to Smoothie King for a smoothie. Been so long since I last talked to her. So yeah we talked till my smoothie ran out. Went back to school to meet Miss Melissa for some surveys that we need to fill up.
I was supposed to watch part 2 of level 1 performance's story telling. But the wait was tooooo long so I decided not to go. Edem and Jingwen didn't wanna go too so we ended up slacking at Starbucks. Went to Wilkie Edge's starbucks but it was filled with people boohoo. So we went to Cathay's Starbucks. Talked about a lot of things for 3 over hours. I even broke down infront of them. HOW FUCKING RARE IS THAT?! I'm so thankful to have Edem in my life. I wished I knew the real him earlier. I really pray for him with my heart and soul that he's able to continue year 2 with us. Without him, class wouldn't be the same :(
After sitting until our butts hurt, we decided to walk around. Edem suggested we go Esplanade. At freaking 9pm. LOL. So we did. Gosh the sweat smell was soooooo damn strong. I felt like we entered Edem's World of BBOY. Everyone there was a break dancer. Me and Jingwen felt so odd. Well, we left at 10. Though it was boring, I'm glad Edem found his bboy passion back~ I can't believe he actually thought of giving it up!!!!!
Reached home before 11 and I felt SOOOO tired. I don't even know why. I was so tired that I couldn't even go down to get something to eat. Slept till 11 this morning and here I am blogging my life away. Hahahaha I have animal work choreo to come up with and Anatomy to study. Boohoo. Nevermind it's all gonna be over. Wheeeee
Yesterday's hip hop class was awesome~ We finally blocked finished the whole song~~~ Nope I'm not prepared for hip hop exam yet even though I know all of us will be amazing!!!! Went back to school to bathe after class. Then trained to somerset to have Din tai fung for lunch!!!! You won't believe how expensive I was yesterday. After din tai fung, Andrea and I went to Smoothie King for a smoothie. Been so long since I last talked to her. So yeah we talked till my smoothie ran out. Went back to school to meet Miss Melissa for some surveys that we need to fill up.
I was supposed to watch part 2 of level 1 performance's story telling. But the wait was tooooo long so I decided not to go. Edem and Jingwen didn't wanna go too so we ended up slacking at Starbucks. Went to Wilkie Edge's starbucks but it was filled with people boohoo. So we went to Cathay's Starbucks. Talked about a lot of things for 3 over hours. I even broke down infront of them. HOW FUCKING RARE IS THAT?! I'm so thankful to have Edem in my life. I wished I knew the real him earlier. I really pray for him with my heart and soul that he's able to continue year 2 with us. Without him, class wouldn't be the same :(
After sitting until our butts hurt, we decided to walk around. Edem suggested we go Esplanade. At freaking 9pm. LOL. So we did. Gosh the sweat smell was soooooo damn strong. I felt like we entered Edem's World of BBOY. Everyone there was a break dancer. Me and Jingwen felt so odd. Well, we left at 10. Though it was boring, I'm glad Edem found his bboy passion back~ I can't believe he actually thought of giving it up!!!!!
Reached home before 11 and I felt SOOOO tired. I don't even know why. I was so tired that I couldn't even go down to get something to eat. Slept till 11 this morning and here I am blogging my life away. Hahahaha I have animal work choreo to come up with and Anatomy to study. Boohoo. Nevermind it's all gonna be over. Wheeeee
Thursday, April 18, 2013
Last day of torturing sch
Ballet exam's over!!!! REP is over!!!!!! -crying face- I'm so happy... Now I'm left with 3 more assessments to go; animal work, anatomy and arts history!!!!
I was so out during hip hop... :( Felt so sad. I suddenly remember what Joey told me yesterday and it kinda affected me. We did blocking for the new song and bew I just felt sad throughout the entire class. Then I messed up our 9minute dance too because we haven't practiced it in so long and I was just out of class really. No :(
Sat in the first row for arts history this afternoon. Tried so hard not to fall asleep.... Cuz I know if I did, it'd affect the person presenting cuz I'm right infront. Lol I would. I mean if I was presenting and the person infront of me fell asleep, I'd be so affected by it. I told Jingwen about how she affected me so much when my group was doing the trial presentation for rep. Gosh the moment I see her 'omg no I wanna sleep' face, I immediately blank out and forgot everything I wanted to say. Today I didn't pull it through too cuz I saw Miss Melissa yawning. That's the one reason why I can never look at the audience T_T
When I see Miss Melissa today after our rep presentation, I suddenly thought of the vivid dream I had of her the other time. Nooooo school's ending I'm scared it'll come true :( If I really cannot make it to dip 2 I really don't know where to go... Sigh
Ate dinner with Jingwen and went back to school to have our class talk. I didn't say anything at all even though I had things to say. Because Yaqi knew I had things to say so she asked why I didn't say. Lol I don't know la blah. Then we chat texted and you have no idea how touched I am by how concerned she was.. Or how shocked I was to know that she knows me so much. Sad how the people around me daily doesn't know me well enough compared to a person whom I barely even hang out with. Yeah all those assumptions they make. Can't change their mind about me anyway.
Watched half of the dip 1 performance's show today; Storytelling. Haha I enjoyed Afiq's piece so much. He's so entertaining and amazing!!!! Amesh's too. Gosh they are just an awesome bunch of amazing talented people, really :)
After the show we stood outside for so long. I didn't even know what I was waiting for or maybe, WHY I was waiting for them lol. Retarded so I went home. "Sometimes you have to give up on people. Not because you don't care anymore, but because they don't." Yup that basically describes what I feel while I was waiting. I was just like "errrrrr no I shouldn't be doing this."
Yup texted Yaqi all the way back home until afew minutes ago.... I was training my Chinese while talking to her and yeah awesome me is still awesome in Chinese. LOL. Yeah but really, when people show you concern I just really melt lol. Sorry that I'm such an... emotional person but every little tiny thing a person do for me I just get touched easily.
Alright today marks the last torturing day for the semester and it's officially the last day of classes for Year 1! So technically, year 1 has ended!!!! 3 more assessments to go, I CAN DO IT!!!! GOODNIGHT
I was so out during hip hop... :( Felt so sad. I suddenly remember what Joey told me yesterday and it kinda affected me. We did blocking for the new song and bew I just felt sad throughout the entire class. Then I messed up our 9minute dance too because we haven't practiced it in so long and I was just out of class really. No :(
Sat in the first row for arts history this afternoon. Tried so hard not to fall asleep.... Cuz I know if I did, it'd affect the person presenting cuz I'm right infront. Lol I would. I mean if I was presenting and the person infront of me fell asleep, I'd be so affected by it. I told Jingwen about how she affected me so much when my group was doing the trial presentation for rep. Gosh the moment I see her 'omg no I wanna sleep' face, I immediately blank out and forgot everything I wanted to say. Today I didn't pull it through too cuz I saw Miss Melissa yawning. That's the one reason why I can never look at the audience T_T
When I see Miss Melissa today after our rep presentation, I suddenly thought of the vivid dream I had of her the other time. Nooooo school's ending I'm scared it'll come true :( If I really cannot make it to dip 2 I really don't know where to go... Sigh
Ate dinner with Jingwen and went back to school to have our class talk. I didn't say anything at all even though I had things to say. Because Yaqi knew I had things to say so she asked why I didn't say. Lol I don't know la blah. Then we chat texted and you have no idea how touched I am by how concerned she was.. Or how shocked I was to know that she knows me so much. Sad how the people around me daily doesn't know me well enough compared to a person whom I barely even hang out with. Yeah all those assumptions they make. Can't change their mind about me anyway.
Watched half of the dip 1 performance's show today; Storytelling. Haha I enjoyed Afiq's piece so much. He's so entertaining and amazing!!!! Amesh's too. Gosh they are just an awesome bunch of amazing talented people, really :)
After the show we stood outside for so long. I didn't even know what I was waiting for or maybe, WHY I was waiting for them lol. Retarded so I went home. "Sometimes you have to give up on people. Not because you don't care anymore, but because they don't." Yup that basically describes what I feel while I was waiting. I was just like "errrrrr no I shouldn't be doing this."
Yup texted Yaqi all the way back home until afew minutes ago.... I was training my Chinese while talking to her and yeah awesome me is still awesome in Chinese. LOL. Yeah but really, when people show you concern I just really melt lol. Sorry that I'm such an... emotional person but every little tiny thing a person do for me I just get touched easily.
Alright today marks the last torturing day for the semester and it's officially the last day of classes for Year 1! So technically, year 1 has ended!!!! 3 more assessments to go, I CAN DO IT!!!! GOODNIGHT
Wednesday, April 17, 2013
Reaching the end
Alright I have one more tedious day to go then it's end of extreme exhausting torture. Yes there's still torture for the next 2 weeks cuz I have assessments going on but it's split up so I have a lot of time. I can chill alil~
Got over and done with Rhythm ensemble and Asian dance assessment on Mon, Dance history presentation and Credo In Us on Tues and today's just over! Tomorrow's Ballet exam and our Rep presentation..... Alright alright I can do it I can do it!!!!!
Yesterday's recital's rehearsal was not fun :( Firstly, we didn't went for Andreas' class... Secondly, I was near this stupid lady that really piss me off. Don't know how to dance don't know her space awareness.. Gosh how do people stand her lol. Nah so sad, Mycs' blocking for Pon de replay's so nice but it's ruined by this woman.
I slept at 2am talking to the kodomo dragon last night. I lost track of time because of him! PIAK! Didn't really woke up late this morning but I still woke up later than usual. Because it was raining heavily, the roads were all jammed and I was late for school. Damn...
Don't really wanna talk about what happened to our class today. I really don't get why people's so dramatic lol. Hopefully we settle the shit tomorrow. & then one of the messages sent to me was so hurtful I bet she doesn't even know. Lol not even the first time idgaf anymore.
We had some workshop that made me sooooo sleepy today. It's called Dance Movement Therapy or something. Gosh LOL. She told us to move when our body tells us to on the horizontal level (means lying on the floor) I really slept. But I felt bad so I woke up and started moving alil like a worm. 3 hours of that man. How did I survive LOL
Bought dinner and chatted with Yaqi while I was eating. I like to talk serious things with Yaqi muahaha. Went up to F202 to do our rep. But Cheryl and Joey were not there yet. Only Cher was there. Plus 3 other guys, Shawn, Mus and Jonathan. LOL SO FUNNY. They made my night really sigh :') Idk why Shawn was there but Jonathan was there to practice his art history presentation for tomorrow and Mus was there to help Jonathan out with his pronunciation and presentation skills. Super funny!!!! It was my first time talking to Shawn and I thought he was quite a nice person. Haha. Jonathan's just plain funny. Gosh he and his Malaysian accent. & it's even funnier when he tries to speak Chinese without the Malaysian accent.
They left when Cheryl and Joey came. Aw no more fun :( Finished up our rep and went home. Can't wait for tomorrow to be over. Tomorrow have to quickly fly pass!!!!
Got over and done with Rhythm ensemble and Asian dance assessment on Mon, Dance history presentation and Credo In Us on Tues and today's just over! Tomorrow's Ballet exam and our Rep presentation..... Alright alright I can do it I can do it!!!!!
Yesterday's recital's rehearsal was not fun :( Firstly, we didn't went for Andreas' class... Secondly, I was near this stupid lady that really piss me off. Don't know how to dance don't know her space awareness.. Gosh how do people stand her lol. Nah so sad, Mycs' blocking for Pon de replay's so nice but it's ruined by this woman.
I slept at 2am talking to the kodomo dragon last night. I lost track of time because of him! PIAK! Didn't really woke up late this morning but I still woke up later than usual. Because it was raining heavily, the roads were all jammed and I was late for school. Damn...
Don't really wanna talk about what happened to our class today. I really don't get why people's so dramatic lol. Hopefully we settle the shit tomorrow. & then one of the messages sent to me was so hurtful I bet she doesn't even know. Lol not even the first time idgaf anymore.
But I'm cool. I'm gonna endure.
We had some workshop that made me sooooo sleepy today. It's called Dance Movement Therapy or something. Gosh LOL. She told us to move when our body tells us to on the horizontal level (means lying on the floor) I really slept. But I felt bad so I woke up and started moving alil like a worm. 3 hours of that man. How did I survive LOL
Bought dinner and chatted with Yaqi while I was eating. I like to talk serious things with Yaqi muahaha. Went up to F202 to do our rep. But Cheryl and Joey were not there yet. Only Cher was there. Plus 3 other guys, Shawn, Mus and Jonathan. LOL SO FUNNY. They made my night really sigh :') Idk why Shawn was there but Jonathan was there to practice his art history presentation for tomorrow and Mus was there to help Jonathan out with his pronunciation and presentation skills. Super funny!!!! It was my first time talking to Shawn and I thought he was quite a nice person. Haha. Jonathan's just plain funny. Gosh he and his Malaysian accent. & it's even funnier when he tries to speak Chinese without the Malaysian accent.
They left when Cheryl and Joey came. Aw no more fun :( Finished up our rep and went home. Can't wait for tomorrow to be over. Tomorrow have to quickly fly pass!!!!
Sunday, April 14, 2013
ANOTHER HECTIC WEEK AHEAD! But fret not, cuz after next week, I'm only gonna have 3 more exams to conquer AND I'M DONE WITH SCHOOL. Feel my happiness guys feel it. I'm gonna have bloody 3 MONTHS of holidays. I'm so excited.
Spent my afternoon at school and spent my evening watching the last 2 episodes of The Carrie Diaries. Love that show so much why did it have to end at episode 13?! Gosh I need my season 2.
Next week really needs to be over. Like really. I hate credo in us and it's gonna end next week. Rhythm ensem is gonna end next week. Rep and dance history presentations are gonna be over. BALLET IS GONNA BE OVER TOO. GOSH AMAZING I'M FEELING SO GOOD JUST THINKING ABOUT HOW FAST NEXT WEEK IS GONNA FLY BY. Though the last exam that will haunt all of us again, is Art history, but after that all I'm gonna concentrate on is Recital!!!! Wow exciting exciting exciting~
Sad though..... We're no longer gonna have hip hop classes cuz year 1 has ended. We're moving on to Jazz sigh :'( Not like jazz is not fun but..... Nothing can beat hip hop.. Nooooooo I'm gonna attend hip hop classes outside, right right right right Charlie's angels? I'm gonna be so sad when Mycs leaves...
4 months of school is enough per sem. Can't take it I'll die so yeah. We need a break. Goodbye
Spent my afternoon at school and spent my evening watching the last 2 episodes of The Carrie Diaries. Love that show so much why did it have to end at episode 13?! Gosh I need my season 2.
Next week really needs to be over. Like really. I hate credo in us and it's gonna end next week. Rhythm ensem is gonna end next week. Rep and dance history presentations are gonna be over. BALLET IS GONNA BE OVER TOO. GOSH AMAZING I'M FEELING SO GOOD JUST THINKING ABOUT HOW FAST NEXT WEEK IS GONNA FLY BY. Though the last exam that will haunt all of us again, is Art history, but after that all I'm gonna concentrate on is Recital!!!! Wow exciting exciting exciting~
Sad though..... We're no longer gonna have hip hop classes cuz year 1 has ended. We're moving on to Jazz sigh :'( Not like jazz is not fun but..... Nothing can beat hip hop.. Nooooooo I'm gonna attend hip hop classes outside, right right right right Charlie's angels? I'm gonna be so sad when Mycs leaves...
4 months of school is enough per sem. Can't take it I'll die so yeah. We need a break. Goodbye
Actually I was preparing to go to bed early today but turns out I have a lot to say so I'm here. Yeap you can just ignore this post because you most likely won't even understand what I'm ranting about.
What a bloody hectic week. I hate school. No wait I hate the people in school. I hate this week so much. Everything is due and this and that. So messed up. I hate how there are so many group works going on. WHY CAN'T WE JUST DO IT OURSELVES. FUCKING GROUP WORK. Fucking shit.
Broke down extremely badly on Friday because yeah people that I fucking hate went over limits, all in a day. Well all's well. I love Jai I LOVE JAI I LOVE MUMMY I LOVE DADDY I LOVE Y'ALL. The best human beings living on earth. I love you. It's times like this that you know who are your real friends. & to the monkeys that all belong to the mental hospital, YEAH FUCK YOU.
I was so mad I even told my dad a little bit about what happened during supper. Then in the middle of the night I was stomping around the house like some fucking fat ass because some fucking unreasonable asshole made me mad. Daddy came down and see if I was alright but I couldn't control so I didn't answer him. He just called me in the morning to make sure I was alright. Mummy made me cry this morning. So she knows that I was super upset on Fri but I didn't manage to talk to her until this morning. So I told her everything and she told me about her stories too. Yeah we basically had a heart to heart talk in the car while she was driving me to school. Sobs wanna hug her so badly sigh my mummy I love you.
Spent the day with people that made me mad and yeah the day didn't went well. So drama I can't stand it. No I don't care about any one of them so yeah. Reached home with subway awaiting me and taohuey!!!!! Sigh so much love I can't even express my gratitude. Thanks for being here :') so touched.
Sigh I don't like everything in school right now. My presence is like unimportant to the people who I thought was important. Whether I die or whether I am there or not, not important. They don't even fucking care. Just know la people. Never ever make a group of 3. Or 5. Or 7. Or 9. AND THE LIST GOES ON.
Though the whole week is so fucking annoying, I really enjoyed my Tuesday night... Of course right.. I love the times I spend at Danzpeople. I really love it. Even if it's learning repeated choreos, or repeated steps, I still enjoy. Cherishing every moment that I spend over there~~~~ I also enjoyed Thurs' hip hop lesson. LOVE YOU MYCS LOVE HIP HOP
Fuck yeah holidays are coming and yeah I can't wait to stop seeing all the god damn faces I see everyday. If I survive through next week, everything's gonna be okay. Yay shanny go go
What a bloody hectic week. I hate school. No wait I hate the people in school. I hate this week so much. Everything is due and this and that. So messed up. I hate how there are so many group works going on. WHY CAN'T WE JUST DO IT OURSELVES. FUCKING GROUP WORK. Fucking shit.
Broke down extremely badly on Friday because yeah people that I fucking hate went over limits, all in a day. Well all's well. I love Jai I LOVE JAI I LOVE MUMMY I LOVE DADDY I LOVE Y'ALL. The best human beings living on earth. I love you. It's times like this that you know who are your real friends. & to the monkeys that all belong to the mental hospital, YEAH FUCK YOU.
I was so mad I even told my dad a little bit about what happened during supper. Then in the middle of the night I was stomping around the house like some fucking fat ass because some fucking unreasonable asshole made me mad. Daddy came down and see if I was alright but I couldn't control so I didn't answer him. He just called me in the morning to make sure I was alright. Mummy made me cry this morning. So she knows that I was super upset on Fri but I didn't manage to talk to her until this morning. So I told her everything and she told me about her stories too. Yeah we basically had a heart to heart talk in the car while she was driving me to school. Sobs wanna hug her so badly sigh my mummy I love you.
Spent the day with people that made me mad and yeah the day didn't went well. So drama I can't stand it. No I don't care about any one of them so yeah. Reached home with subway awaiting me and taohuey!!!!! Sigh so much love I can't even express my gratitude. Thanks for being here :') so touched.
Sigh I don't like everything in school right now. My presence is like unimportant to the people who I thought was important. Whether I die or whether I am there or not, not important. They don't even fucking care. Just know la people. Never ever make a group of 3. Or 5. Or 7. Or 9. AND THE LIST GOES ON.
Though the whole week is so fucking annoying, I really enjoyed my Tuesday night... Of course right.. I love the times I spend at Danzpeople. I really love it. Even if it's learning repeated choreos, or repeated steps, I still enjoy. Cherishing every moment that I spend over there~~~~ I also enjoyed Thurs' hip hop lesson. LOVE YOU MYCS LOVE HIP HOP
Fuck yeah holidays are coming and yeah I can't wait to stop seeing all the god damn faces I see everyday. If I survive through next week, everything's gonna be okay. Yay shanny go go
Sunday, April 7, 2013
Bew
"Everybody loses it.. Everybody wants to throw it all away sometimes. Here's to the damned, to the lost and forgotten. It's hard to get high when you're living on the bottom. We are all misfits living in a world on fire. Just wait, everything will be okay even when you're feeling like it's going down in flames. They can't do nothing to you. They can't do nothing to me. This is the life that we chose, this is the life that we bleed."
- People like Us, Kelly Clarkson
Guys, I slept at 9 yesterday. FREAKING 9PM. Can you believe it? Lol I think I could've slept earlier if I didn't ate an apple. On Thursday and yesterday, I reached home before 6. So by 7.30, I was already prepared to sleep. LOL. It's all my fan's fault. It has some hypnotizing feel that makes me wanna sleep so badly. Those who sleep with extremely strong fans should know how I feel. My aircon has been retarded recently so I use both aircon and fan to sleep better. Shiokness..
School's been.... ok? I thought I'd do better for ballet on Thursday but it was the total opposite. Sigh I really need to get motivation for Ballet. Lol We learnt another new hip hop routine on Thursday~ & Mycs blocked us on Friday~ Sad how we are only left with 4 more hip hop classes :'( I am loving all the routines that we're learning!!!!!! But I don't like the atmosphere my class gives out. I don't know what's wrong with them. I really don't know. It has reached the state where maybe the quietest person in the class has this urge to shout their brains awake. But whatever it is, I don't care no more. What class dynamic what shit I leave it to them to settle themselves. As long as I know that I'm not the cause of this shit and I'm doing what I'm supposed to do, good enough.
Went back to school yesterday for Credo In us. Went back like 2 hours earlier to do Rep. SIGH WHY DID WE CHOOSE THAT DANCE.... Sigh we were actually choosing between the Umbrella dance from "Make it happen" and Evol's We are abit different. OBVIOUSLY WE ARE ABIT DIFFERENT WAS WAY EASIER.... I already knew like half the song. Sobs. But most of them, in fact all of them wanted the umbrella dance. So what can I do? Sigh the use of the god damn umbrella's so hard. Ever since Miss Shining made us use umbrellas for "All that Jazz", I've sworn to never use umbrella as a prop again. & now I've got to.... :'(
After rep, we went to the frass for Credo In Us. We freaking rolled on the god damn WET frass for 2 over hours.... Some of us didn't even bring extra clothes. Sigh went home after that cuz everyone else had plans except me. Damn I've got no life. I should create one myself lol
Mother told me to clear up all the unwanted and spoilt shoes since forever & up till now, I still haven't clear. I don't want to!!!! :( Can't bare to throw it away. I was looking at my purple converse and went like "Oh my why do you look so haggard and old :(" It's like my fave cuz it's one of the most.... unseen colours. Like it's rare to see people wear that colour. & on the OTHER HAND, I found a Navy converse that's been kept for IDK HOW LONG.... Lol yeah I have quite a number of shoes inside the shoe cupboard that I've not worn or maybe worn once or twice.. I spent awhile trying to soften the navy converse BECAUSE IT'S SO HARD compared to my worn out converses.. Haha.
Tomorrow's Monday again. 3 more weeks till end of school term. Of course the last exam to haunt us is stupid art history. It's one freaking 2nd of May. WHAT THE HELL. By then we're supposed to have our holidays already... Urgh. I really can't wait to say I'm 50 shades of done with this semester.
Wednesday, April 3, 2013
Fairness
As I mentioned in my previous post.... TUESDAY WAS AWESOME!!! Sigh yesterday gave me another reason to love Tuesday even more. I kinda guessed it but you know.... Guessing and being psychic are 2 different things. Even though I guessed it, I wouldn't knew that it'd be true. HA life rocks.
Today was not a bad day~~ Ballet classes currently, are not as draggy anymore because we just keep doing assessment enchainments everyday and time passes really fast! Contemp was not bad either... Except when I got mistaken. Today's mistake is such a good example of what I've mentioned before. I said this in my post afew weeks back. "& I can't stand how there's this obvious level of difference. Like it's already stuck in everybody's brains. Like whatever that one particular person says is always correct because he/she is usually quite good in remember her steps and stuff. & when I try to say or correct something, nobody listens because I feel like people's thinking "Nah I don't think she's right she's not good enough to tell me this"."
TODAY. We were doing rolls. So we all know Melissa is always getting the steps fast and stuff. That doesn't mean she's perfect and doesn't make a mistake. So I was actually rolling on the correct side. & just because Melissa and Joey did on the same side, WHICH WAS ACTUALLY THE WRONG SIDE, Miss Leia said that I did wrongly and made me redo. When I redo, I was actually doing the same side that I did. Wtf. So we did it the second time. The second time, Melissa did it wrong AGAIN. & because of that Miss Leia pointed me out again. G o d. I bloody know I suck at bloody contemp but I when I say I know my bloody steps, I really bloody know it k. Stop it k. Give me some justice in the small effort that I put in to remember my steps can or not. Sigh. Just know that I'm not pissed cuz of this. It's just accumulated.
Sometimes I think I know too much for a 17 year old. What's up with me. Need to grow with time.. I don't know if you get what I mean but things I hear my friends say, they get shocking expressions and shit like that but to me, I'm just like oh isn't that normal or erm that's not very WAA. Hm well I guess everything has it's plus and minus points.
Gonna end off this post with this whole chunk of words that I saw and could relate to it immediately. I think it's soooooo me. I should've came up with this LOL
Today was not a bad day~~ Ballet classes currently, are not as draggy anymore because we just keep doing assessment enchainments everyday and time passes really fast! Contemp was not bad either... Except when I got mistaken. Today's mistake is such a good example of what I've mentioned before. I said this in my post afew weeks back. "& I can't stand how there's this obvious level of difference. Like it's already stuck in everybody's brains. Like whatever that one particular person says is always correct because he/she is usually quite good in remember her steps and stuff. & when I try to say or correct something, nobody listens because I feel like people's thinking "Nah I don't think she's right she's not good enough to tell me this"."
TODAY. We were doing rolls. So we all know Melissa is always getting the steps fast and stuff. That doesn't mean she's perfect and doesn't make a mistake. So I was actually rolling on the correct side. & just because Melissa and Joey did on the same side, WHICH WAS ACTUALLY THE WRONG SIDE, Miss Leia said that I did wrongly and made me redo. When I redo, I was actually doing the same side that I did. Wtf. So we did it the second time. The second time, Melissa did it wrong AGAIN. & because of that Miss Leia pointed me out again. G o d. I bloody know I suck at bloody contemp but I when I say I know my bloody steps, I really bloody know it k. Stop it k. Give me some justice in the small effort that I put in to remember my steps can or not. Sigh. Just know that I'm not pissed cuz of this. It's just accumulated.
Sometimes I think I know too much for a 17 year old. What's up with me. Need to grow with time.. I don't know if you get what I mean but things I hear my friends say, they get shocking expressions and shit like that but to me, I'm just like oh isn't that normal or erm that's not very WAA. Hm well I guess everything has it's plus and minus points.
Gonna end off this post with this whole chunk of words that I saw and could relate to it immediately. I think it's soooooo me. I should've came up with this LOL
"I'm an introvert. That means that when I'm feeling down, chances are that I won't actually go to you for help. In fact, I won't go to anyone for help. You'll have to actually check on me. I don't feel that I should burden others with my problems but if you come to me, and show me that you really do care, I might just trust you enough to let you help."
Monday, April 1, 2013
Happy happy
I'm quoting my teachers a lot recently. Hahaha. Today I'm gonna quote what coach ling told me this morning while he was checking up on my right leg. So he said.... "If you all come here and just learn technique, you might as well not come to school. Because no matter how technical you are, you will never be able to dance anything out without feeling it. (Feeling it as in... Feeling the dance.)" He also said something like sometimes the teacher also must be able to inspire the students, which is also very true... LOL~ Maybe that's why I cannot do well in Ballet... Nor contemp.... I'm thinking toooooooo much about technique. Actually Miss Elizabeth said something similar during ballet today too. She said "Technique wise... You need a lot of time. But performance quality you are able to train it and you can do it even without good technique."
Aw coach ling was so fatherly just now. LOL. He was checking my leg.... & then he was pressing on my shin and realized how horrible the shin splints were on my shin area. & he was pressing and giving the OMG this is unbelievable face. After that he told me, "If I was your father my heart would be so pain. Aiyo my poor daughter why like that" LOL SO CUTE!!! I can't believe this. I really didn't know I had shin splints. Like it was hurting and shit la. God i'm hurting every single day of my life. To the point where I don't even know what is good or bad pain anymore. I just go with it.... I guess I'm so used to pain that it no longer bothers me anymore. K it still does but, compared to last sem, my pain tolerance level increased by a lot. Even if it hurts I can still dance. FORCE IT THROUGH
Today was such a slacky day for me!!! Coach ling told me not to dance today, so I didn't. Even though I was well enough to dance, I didn't. HMM? LOL -guilty but happy- Wanted to sit out for Asian dance but I was too guilty cuz I'm not even that in pain. Like maybe something's wrong internally but externally I'm doing quite well. So I still did class anyway. Not entirely full out but enough. If I sit out, it'd be a big loss to me too... Haha.
Had strictly pancakes with Amanda and Charlotte today. IT'S BE 1239587 YEARS SINCE I SAW CHARLOTTE... She didn't changed much and WEEEEE LONG TIME NO SEE CHARLOTTEH. Walked around plaza sing after that and went home. Short impromptu meet up BUT I WAS GLAD~ Yay
Excited for tomorrow night. K i'm always looking forward to Tuesday nights now cuz I get to spend the whole night dancing my fave genres with the funniest people. How can I not be happy, right? Yay baby <3
Aw coach ling was so fatherly just now. LOL. He was checking my leg.... & then he was pressing on my shin and realized how horrible the shin splints were on my shin area. & he was pressing and giving the OMG this is unbelievable face. After that he told me, "If I was your father my heart would be so pain. Aiyo my poor daughter why like that" LOL SO CUTE!!! I can't believe this. I really didn't know I had shin splints. Like it was hurting and shit la. God i'm hurting every single day of my life. To the point where I don't even know what is good or bad pain anymore. I just go with it.... I guess I'm so used to pain that it no longer bothers me anymore. K it still does but, compared to last sem, my pain tolerance level increased by a lot. Even if it hurts I can still dance. FORCE IT THROUGH
Today was such a slacky day for me!!! Coach ling told me not to dance today, so I didn't. Even though I was well enough to dance, I didn't. HMM? LOL -guilty but happy- Wanted to sit out for Asian dance but I was too guilty cuz I'm not even that in pain. Like maybe something's wrong internally but externally I'm doing quite well. So I still did class anyway. Not entirely full out but enough. If I sit out, it'd be a big loss to me too... Haha.
Had strictly pancakes with Amanda and Charlotte today. IT'S BE 1239587 YEARS SINCE I SAW CHARLOTTE... She didn't changed much and WEEEEE LONG TIME NO SEE CHARLOTTEH. Walked around plaza sing after that and went home. Short impromptu meet up BUT I WAS GLAD~ Yay
Excited for tomorrow night. K i'm always looking forward to Tuesday nights now cuz I get to spend the whole night dancing my fave genres with the funniest people. How can I not be happy, right? Yay baby <3
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