I need some charm in me.

Hello~~~~~ I've bought my Gossip Girl seasons 3 and 4 yesterday and hopefully i don't shock you, because i'm gonna be done with Season 3 soon. I'm left with 4 episodes. Gosh it's just so addictiveee.

So i submitted my documents at Lasalle yesterday too and sigh.... I've been thinking alot about it even though i've been keeping my eyes on the screen cuz of Gossip Girl. I feel like i dont make the cut. I'm just a girl with passion, not talent. I think i've said something about this before so i shall not crap too much here. I just hope i get chosen somehow.. I really wish i do.

Yesterday, i saw Instagram and saw a dance junior of mine posted a picture of her flexibility. & i remembered taking a photo with the same pose. Didn't wanna post it up because............ :( sigh i'm a plus sized -_- Well.... I think it's kinda disturbing to some people to see a plus sized girl doing such moves BUT lol, probably proves that girls of my size also can have such flexibility?

Alright, actually i've got nothing much i can write about. Tomorrow's Chinese New Year's Eve and i'm sure i'm gonna get bombed by all those ridiculous questions on Monday and stuff.... Yeah -_- Not really looking forward to that honestly.

I really wished i was from a freaking rich family. Like seriously rich? The kind of rich where i can just fly off to anywhere and be back in a day without planning, go into a shop and buy anything that pleases my eye without thinking, wear beautiful dresses and be a lady where other rich families judges you <- IN A GOOD WAY? (LOL RIDICULOUS BUT YEAH?) I wonder how that feels. I live in a middle class. I'm neither here NOR there. God why must i be born in Singapore....? WHY????? You know what? I will TRY not to criticise myself anymore. I think i can write a book about how imperfect i am, in EVERY and ANY way you can EVER think of.

I need to find where i belong. I want to be myself but i also wanna be someone whom the world accepts. Guess it's really hard to live a life I want.