My dream is too far away from me.

An extract from Crash Test Love - Ted Michael

WASSUPP! I went Lasalle today!!! If y'all dont know what's that, it's an Art College in Singapore. I've been actually searching up on this school alot since the beginning of Secondary 3.. I have this dream in my mind that i could actually be in an art school when i was 15. However, i dare not told anyone lol...  

Reason being, I'm a passionate dancer, not a good dancer. I was afraid of how others would think of me. Based on facts, only slim and talented people gets Dance diplomas and BA Hons. I'm not born with a performing arts background. I just love to see how people move to the beat since young. I do not have any talents when it comes to dancing and that i can guarantee you. I dance like a freaking duck. -_- Of course my body size is another problem. I'm always like the plus size in a dance group. ALWAYS. I don't care.. I still like to dance...

  

I asked alot of questions through email in the past 2 years and it didnt built up my confidence at all.. The genres Contemporary and Ballet aren't my thing even though i love to see their presise movements. One of the requirements was to go for a one and a half hour Ballet and Contemp. lesson and then you'll go for the audition. I'm scared. I'm not confident at all.. :( I badly want to enter the school.

During the June holidays last year, my academic grades were horrible. So my mom asked what plans do i have for the future. I couldn't answer. I loved dance. If i could persue dance as a career, i definitely would. However from my parents point of view, i'm sure they'd want me to take up a diploma that is able to secure me a more stable job. I still end up telling them i would wish to take a shot for the audition. They agreed and i told them i needed some dance moves to make a DVD that i thought was needed for the audition initially. So i went dance lessons here and there, hoping to come up with a 3min long solo performance. But i failed.. Demoralised me even further... :( So i gave up that thought..

A few days back, my friend from Lasalle knew that i wanted to try out the auditions told me that there was an openhouse at Lasalle. I wanted to go :( but i couldnt think of anyone that would go with me.. Hence, gave up on that hope again. Sigh. Feeling despondent because after so long, he reminded me of how much i wanted to get into the dance diploma course.

This morning, i got a message from Andrea, asking if i wanted to go for the Laslle Openhouse. I agreed! Couldnt believed that i actually went. I don't know if it's god will for me to go for the audition but yes. I toured the school somewhat and i really loved everything. Unexpectedly, i applied for the dance course. AND I'VE GOT A REAL AUDITION. Like seriously, no joke. Oh my god. Sorry for making a big deal out of this, but just in case you dont know, IT MEANS ALOT TO ME.

THERE IS MY NAME. I'm not dreaming. It's real.

Even though chances are low, i really do hope i get accepted... I don't mind the long training hours. Even though I hate history but if it's a must to learn it for dance i don't mind.. Just accept me in :(  

Reached home at about 5. Wanted to head back to TPY to meet W but.... the moment i jumped onto my bed, i didnt want to get up already.. Hahaha stupid bed. So i ended up watching TvN for the whole night till now. Stupid Kpop hunt. I think it's a stupid show and stuff. I dont think ALL the selected ones have talent. From the first episode i can already tell who would win. So what's the point? LOL.

Overall i've been quite happy today. :) Yay me! Now i shall continue watching Master of Study~ Cya around!