Yesterday night i was so determined to sleep early. I switched off my computer before 11pm. Head to bed and all those results related thoughts started running through my mind. I was on da bed for 2 whole hours thinking of nonsensical things. So yes, i didnt sleep early last night. Sigh. I'm dying silently inside i swear. Why. I'm so sad that i'm not smart enough. I won't say that if i have a chance, i'd retake o's because the end result will still be the same. I'm just not smart enough and that's a fact. I visited SP and TP today. I really wanna get into a course in SP/NP. Why are their points sooooooo low.... T_T I've been calculating so many times and its not going any lower than 14... I'm so gonna end up in the pathetic, sad, dull looking NYP... It was a rather lethargic day. Guess too many thoughts in my mind and of course i do not have enough sleep..
Went to dance today with Liqian. I kinda wished the teacher was straight :( He's so hot in a way and he dances and i think he's my type of guy la. Sadly he's gay hahaha. Nevermind still as cute. I lost my wallet. All my cards, my photos, my money ALL GONE. Sigh... I wonder if that's a sign of bad o level results. Previously i prayed. I told god to give me like some sign to make me feel better. I didnt know it'd be this... T_T Then i told liqian. & she was so optimistic. She told me that i'll gain something if i lose something. So in other words, since i lost my wallet, it means my results would be quite good. Arrrrghhhhhh i can't switch my mentality T_T sigh.
I really hope tomorrow will be a better day. This photo makes me feel so warm. Dogs are the best. I love them.
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