Melancholy

".......... Why da sexy italiano never tweet today?" this freaking question was stuck in my head the whole damn day.

& I honestly want to go on a holiday so badly right now. I wanna escape reality for at least 2weeks. There is seriously nothing to look forward to. Infront of my brain right now, are countdowns to the numbers of days to guitar exam which im doomed for, and lasalle audition. These 2 "activities" is stressing me inside, not yet out.

I woke up before 10.30am this morning and i was shocked myself when i saw the time on my phone. I freaking slept at almost 5am. How could i possibly wake up at 10.30? I still don't get it somehow but let's just put that aside. I laid on my bed till 12 because i had nothing on today and I wanted to just DIE.

However 30minutes later, i received a text from Geraldine asking if i had any plans in the afternoon. So i said no and we decided to head to amk to play pool. I suck at it so bad the cue ball just loves jumping around. Out of so many rounds that we've played, i've only won 2, but i'm very happy. Haha at least i won something~ The music played was just freaking making my mood up down left right center i also dont know. Suddenly club songs suddenly heavy bass suddenly sad songs suddenly slow songs. GOD YO CHOOSE ONE GENRE OF MUSIC.

Had dinner together at mac and i felt so full after that. Toured around amk again as usual until our stomachs feel normal and went to her house to watch 2ne1 nolza concert. She had the DVD that i wanted to buy months ago... I just cannot find it anywhere now. Aw sad. Took photos and she was crazy. Everytime we stared at the poloroid, she starts laughing non stop and say she can't stop laughing.. LOL.

Left her house at 9.30 because mother suddenly tell me that i should be back home before 10. So i quickly took the bus and went home. Ha exceeded 10pm. I reached home at 10.30pm. & while walking home, she told me she should give me a curfew. WHAT THE FUCK. I'm like WHY and she said that i was inconsiderate. Then i remembered my freaking family falls asleep at 10pm sharp like robots. So i told her to give me the keys to the house if shes finding so many excuses to give me a curfew. SHE TOLD ME I WAS CARELESS. Ok fair enough.. So what the hell. I don't care i'm not gonna accept any curfew that she's gonna give me.

The moment i stepped onto the bus after i left Geraldine's house, my mood changed 360degrees. I honestly don't know why and im still feeling the gloominess in me.

Wished i had fun family.. Wished i had a family that would stop thinking about fishes for awhile and think about what we can do as a family of FOUR not THREE. Wished my family would mingle around with more people and not stay home like some vampires. I need more excitement in my life. I need to try different things. I keep staying on the same spot, doing the same thing everyday. It's boring the fuck out of me. I feel so restricted and i don't know why.