Yesterday night, or should i say morning since it was already 3am, i wrote my mom a text in advance which i was gonna send in the morning when i wake up, telling her about my plans for the afternoon, WITH HER. I purposely set my alarm at 9.30 so that i wouldnt oversleep. I texted her, and this was the reply that i got back:
REALLY? All you can think of is FETCHING SPENCER? Doesn't he have legs to come home himself? You spend 24/7 talking to Spencer and your husband about fucking FISHES that i can never understand in my entire life and all i'm asking for is not even 12hours of our life. IS THAT SO HARD?
Both my parents love saying how i always love to hide in my room and not talk to them. Everytime i try talking, they always say they have no idea what the heck im talking about. YOU WANNA KNOW WHY? BECAUSE ALL YOUR LIFE ALL YOU'VE BEEN CONCERNED ABOUT OF ME, IS MY FUCKING STUDIES. & Now that i'm not studying, THERE IS NOTHING TO TALK ABOUT. Everytime i try starting up a conversation, they are either busy or just ignore me. WHAT? I'm gonna stop trying already. Fuck your lives. Either you talk to me about dance or whatever that i like, or i'll just zip my mouth and let you guys blabber about your smelly disgusting fishes.
My mother came into my room and saw that i bought a new dress and asked me how much was it. I told her, and of course she said the same old line, "I'm gonna be bankrupt soon." I'M LIKE TOO BAD. C'mon, she doesnt spend time with me, doesnt wanna even try fitting in with me, and the only thing i can get out of her is money. SO I'LL JUST SPEND IT. They earn, i spend. End of story.
Can you imagine what life will be if i dont even spend their money? If i start working?
IT MEANS I CAN TOTALLY SURVIVE BY MYSELF BECAUSE I GET NOTHING FROM MY PARENTS EXCEPT MONEY.
God. I know no one understands me. I just needed to rant. So yeah i'm terribly sorry my mood is really bad today. & it just gets worse.
I saw Charlotte's post on facebook, saying that she wants to go bowling. I told her i wanted too. Thus, we had last minute plannings to bowl in the afternoon. Initially, we were supposed to meet at 4.30pm. Ok, my mom needed to fetch my brother at 3.30pm. & i needed to get contact lens solution and a cup of coffee before i fall asleep. So i had a lift from my mom to MyVillage and she told me too, that she'll fetch me to Kovan because it was on the way. I planned my route. & as i was about to reach MyVillage, a bloody irritating message came.
"Andrea, Jai, Liqian and me go Sengkang first. While they eat I need settle some bank stuff with my mom. So probably, we bowl at 5plus? )="
Fucking gay sad face which made me even more angrier. That was from Charlotte. I'm like GOD CAN MY DAY GET ANY WORSER THAN THIS? My angsty cells and blood and everything that is in my body right now is so hot i'm about to explode man. Thank the lord i was in a freaking car and transport was so easy back home. IF NOT, GOD I'LL NOT GO BOWLING AT ALL.
I hate it when people make me mad man. REALLY. People who don't reply my messages, people who does last minute changes, people who DONT FUCKING PLAN THEIR DAY, people who just, IDK, CAN'T THINK?
SO!!!!!! After all the drama mama, we met up at 5.30pm. I was just playing. Won the 1st round but lost the second round. Guessed i used up all my luck in the first round. Then after the game, the peeps went to buy some food. Yvonne and Andrea left first, leaving Liqian, Jai and Charlotte. Went to MCD and slacked there till 8plus. There was nothing to do....
Went home with food. Yes i ate alot today. Tomorrow i swear my upon my life i'll not eat. Had a really long talk with dad.
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Fine. Enough of the damn angsty and sad and full of profanities rant. Let's talk about happier things like, fashion.
You know i've been look at those girly sexy dresses etc for so many days and stuff like that. I decided i should go back to my previous style, WOOHOO BAGGY CLOTHES FTW. Maybe it doesn't appeal to alot of people but it attracts me, so much!!! My body is too long, and everytime i buy a clothing that is supposedly baggy or long, it just looks like its a normal blouse on me. I've already planned on what to buy on my next shopping spree. & i can't wait. I.CANNOT.WAIT.
& all i'm asking for right now, is for my week to get better, because i'm really feeling down right now.
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