Happiness doesn't stay for good.

Day started out really bad from the moment i woke up. I just laid on my bed thinking where did all my happy cells from last night went. After i bathed, i couldnt decide what to wear out. Argh. After i decided, i realised my EZlink was missing once again. I seriously don't get it. I never even take it out of my bag yesterday. WHERE COULD IT HAVE GONE?! So i turned my whole room upside down just for that stupid card. Obviously, i couldnt find it and i started getting really mad. Then my mother kinda felt my angsty vibe and kept telling me to go to her, obviously gonna lecture me about how many times i've lost my EZlink. It's just annoying!! I dont need to listen to her crap. I KNOW I'VE LOST IT. End of story.

Went to NYP to drop off my withdrawal letter. Took so long... Headed to AMK to meet Jai. Aw she looks pretty hehehe *winks to Jai if you're reading this* Went to The Cathay. Initially wanted to watch Mirror Mirror but there was no timeslot available other than 3pm and 10pm. The Vow as well. We couldnt watch the ones at 3pm because Sasha haven't reached! Headed back to Plaza sing and there was a 4.55pm timeslot for The Vow, so we bought tickets for that.

Had Burger King for brunch. It was sooooo filling. Walked around the boring Plaza sing while waiting for Sasha to come. BUT! It was already 4.55pm and she still havent reached! Me and Jai went into the theater first, leaving her ticket with the person. Hmmm the movie was just so-so.... I thoought it'd be better.

Slacked outside Plaza sing till about 8pm and went back home. My father was angry with me. WHY ARE THEY ALWAYS ANGRY WITH ME WHY WHY WHY. I don't know what to say. I want a happy family. I want it so badly. I wished my parents had the ability to make me happy when i'm sad. They don't. When i'm sad, they can't expect me to say everything out right?! All i need is a companion, someone to make me smile. Is that so hard?

One of my newly made friends knew that i was sad and he was so sweeeeet. -Dies of diabetes NAH JK- It's something I hardly get from guys. Feels so good. Thanks new friend.

I'm gonna keep practicing my dance routine till i get it perfect by tomorrow, even if it means having my whole body aching like mad. I have to dance. MUST DANCEEEEE.

Why don't i feel like a girl? I feel like my sex appeal is damn low. I don't know why. I feel like i dont know how to act like a girl. I FEEL SO LOSER-ISH. I can't seem to do anything right. Nothing that i'm particularly good at and people be amazed of.... Sigh. I hate this. Hate the feeling of not knowing how to express my own emotions, own feeling. Why do i always get such irritating emotions!!