Companion

 I woke up with a freaking bad face. Everyday it just keeps getting worse. I don't know what's the reason behind it, honestly. I think it has something related to my menses. My menses for this month is only a short 2 and a half days. HOW IS THAT POSSIBLE!!!! So i guess all the bad blood went to my face. Wtf. I have no idea what logic that is but somehow or rather, it kinda makes sense....... 

My mother saw my face, and made a fuss about it. As if i'm not insecured enough, she had to just rub salt into my wound. Hello? Don't you have days when your face just erupts like a volcano too? No? I just couldnt stand it. I didn't even want to step out of my room because my face was in major terrible condition. I was even hiding my face when i went down because i knew my mother would make noise. Sigh. Spoilt my mood. Then i asked her about my guitar too. I really forgot that she asked me for the school's number so she could cancel my lessons over there. For that i admit it's my fault. But she had to make a big deal out of it. I think the whole house was gonna collapse for that moment. (lol obviously i'm joking. just trying to exaggerate things, like how my mom always does.) 

Went out of the house, feeling unhappy. The sun wasnt helping either. Bloody hot.... I felt like i could melt anytime, or rather, my skin would be on fire anytime. When i reached the MRT station, i felt so good... Just like a vampire, i hate the sun to the core of the core. 

Reached Bugis at about 12.45pm. Saw Fion at Guardian. It's been months since i last saw her but it didn't felt like it, i don't even know why. Had lunch at Yoshinoya. Then went to street to shop. I bought too many things... All nonsense. Really going street equals to spending money on nonsense. To me, things from bugis street are just toooooo wear-and-tear. It spoils tooooo easily. So yeah i spent about 100 bucks on nonsense. 

There was nothing else to shop after afew hours so we headed to Iluma's Coffee Bean to slack. I suddenly became mad hyper because i bought Double Chocolate ice blended.... Guessed i was kinda noisy >< HAHA! Camwhored quite alot over there. Then we went to some other ulu place to sit down, and camwhored even more. Talked about random stuff too. 

Everytime i think about our friendship, i think about how amazing we are. Seriously... We only get to meet up with each other twice a year, and i'm talking about festive seasons like CNY or Christmas. At most four times if we're free. Yet we can still find topics to talk about. We can still be this close for friends who only meet up afew times per year. 16 years. Somehow i felt like i only knew Fion in my Childcare years. (oh i didn't go nursery. I went childcare instead.) There isnt anyone that i could think of in childcare. Yes we were in different classes, but still i felt like i only knew her. I hated childcare. Always being separated from my parents every morning till night. The feeling sucks. I cried everyday i went there. Fion was the only consolation. "Yes i know someone there. I know Fion. Ok stop crying now." K whatever i shall stop beating around the bush. I just can't believe time passed so fast. My memory is still able to date all the way back to 3 years old. I'm so cool please. LOL. 

Major spams alert.

 

Tomorrow's Sunday. No i'm not gonna go guitar no matter what. I think i need to see my face doctor in the morning. & i need to go trekking again. I need to exercise!!!! Haven't exercise this whole week!!! Ok i did but it's seriously not enough. 

Sigh I honestly think i'm insane. I care for someone who doesn't even bother if i die, who insults me like i'm the worse female on earth, who hurts my feelings like i'm supposed to have none. Ok actually i thought i'm over this shit. Well, you can tell from my posts I havent been posting anything related to "crushes" "infatuations" or anything related. I force myself to think that i've got no feelings too. Is it helping? Fuck no. I still see your twitter. For fuck!?!?!? -.- I'm just invisible. Literally invisible. 

"You can't see me wanting you the way you want her. You just see through me. If only you knew me, we'd be a beautiful miracle." 

- Invisible, Taylor Swift