Hopeless person in a hopeless town

Time check: 1:43 A.M.

I think something's seriously wrong with my body system. I wake up early everyday and i sleep late every night. What the hell? Doesnt make sense. It's not like i'm having school and i've got homework to rush. I'm just too "busy" up all night thinking about stuff that i shouldnt be thinking of. I don't get why i have all these fucked up emotions every night. No let me rephrase. I don't get why all girls have these kind of lame emotions every night. IT'S DAMN STUPID. I know it's damn stupid but i can't control it. That's what's pissing me off so much. It just comes and goes like it has a soul of it's own.

I'm annoyed with all the clothes that's in my closet. WHAT KIND OF CLOTHES ARE THOSE?! I feel like ripping all of them. Wait a sec. It's probably not the clothes. It's just ME. If it's on someone who's a UK size 6, she'd probably look good. Fml. Everyday I just dig my closet for new things to wear. I just don't understand my body at all. How can i embrace it when i can't even understand it? I hate it. I really don't get why i can't take critisisms. I don't get it. I can't even take the smallest setbacks. Fucking loser. A small negative comment which probably didnt mean much can make me go crazy.

Everything listed in the photo is true. Except for falling out of love, duh. I've got no one to even fall in love with -_-. These fucking feelings who fucks me every night. Go die.

Judgemental world. Who doesn't want to be attractive? Who doesn't wanna be sexy? Who doesn't wanna have flawless skin? WHO!?!?!??! Unfortunately not everyone has that luck to be pretty, to be sexy, to have flawless skin. So why always judge us......................... WHYYYYY!!!!! Guys who dreams of pretty sexy girlfriends especially. HEY can you snap out of your bloody dream world? Please i can guarantee you in Singapore, there so many more pretty girls than handsome guys. We girls fall for guys cuz of their character, you guys CHOOSE girls based on their looks FIRST. What the shit? Can y'all just bang your head on the wall and die?! <- (I know i'll look back at this portion of the post and go like w-t-f-did-i-just-type but whatever.)

I just wanna keep ranting on and on but argh. Why should I? It's 2AM right now. I'm seriously abnormal. Why am i not sleeping? -_-

I'm not trying to be thick skinned but yeah. I hate how i'm easily taken advantage of. <- NOT IN THE SICK WAY. Ok serious talk here. Why? People don't appreciate what i do. People don't feel my heart. Some of them are just too realistic. I can't understand overly realistic people because just so you know, i live in a partial self-delusional world. I believe in fairytales. I believe that in this fucking realistic world, there's still at least 1% chance that i can find my prince. I believe in fate. I believe in soulmates. I believe that people will love me for who i am. I believe that there are people who's as dumb and innocent as me. I don't understand what's wrong with being innocent. WHY MUST I KNOW SO MUCH? It's just brain pollution. Ok i'm not as innocent now because it's just all part of growing up but i'm still not catching up with most of the 17 year olds out there.

SIGH. HOPELESS.