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"They say the second before you die, your life flashes before your eyes. I hope so much that it's true, that you get a photo album of every moment, so you know you were here, that you loved, that you existed. You must need that second to prepare, because you don't think, you won't know when you'll die. So that one second between life and death, is all the time we got, to say goodbye."

So hello everyone. I'm here, boring Monday. I woke up at 10, wanting to spend my afternoon over at Myvillage's Coffeebean. Then i remembered today's the Youth Day school holiday. Many O lvl candidates probably already took all the seats available at the cafe. So i decided to sleep in and go tomorrow instead.

Woke up at 2pm, went around hunting for food, but nothing. No food. I settled for 2 loafs of toasted bread and a large cup of coffee. Before that i was so lame. I did this and posted it on instagram:

I'm sorry. LOL!

 Watched a couple of shows throughout the afternoon. I was so bored. Seriously. I can't believe i actually wished my phone would suddenly ring and someone would ask me out. Like am i outta my mind? Hardly anyone rings me up and asks me out on random. Ha ha.

Exactly 3 more weeks till my birthday, and 1 year 3 weeks till i'm officially legal. God I don't know whether to say i'm young or old. I feel like time is passing a little TOO fast don't you think? I honestly feel like i'm still 15. Of course my maturity level isnt of that age. I think i'm mentally 19. LOL. Can't believe i only have 2 more years of teenage years to go till i'm officially an adult. Speaking of this, when i was younger there were so many parties going on, here there everywhere. What happened to parties? When i was younger i wished to be older to go to parties because I figured it'd be more fun and exciting. Ok i think there still are parties going around, i'm just not invited to any -_- Wanna. Have. Fun. Fuck this shit. Sigh so bored.

Remember i said i'd probably go buy ballet basics with Aglin today? Ha i was right. Plans did change. Sometimes i don't understand her. I don't understand how she can say something and not mean it. Or not put it to heart. Am i that unimportant? She totally didn't even tell me she couldnt make it. She just assumed i know she can't make it. She make plans right after she told me we'd go out on Monday. I don't like to start fights, or quarrels or arguements, especially not with her. She once said before that she hate girl dramas. K fine i hate it too that's why i'm always keeping things to myself and stuff like that. But i seriously think this is abit too much. This is not the first time she's flying kite on me. It's already been countless of times! If you can't make it to a certain event or so, shouldnt you have the least courtesy to say you can't go? Is it so hard to just send a text? God. Just makes me angry sometimes. No not sometimes. EVERYTIME. I'm just not that close to her to tell her how i feel. Not close enough to say anything to her. I know her well, because she have always been telling me her problems, i've always been trying to be there for her. Oh but what about me? Tsk fucking friendship shit issues i hate such things. I shall just stop right here. No point going on. It just irks me, alot. & Since i can't tell this to anyone, i choose to write it down.