Work was just blah whatever. Left the place at 1.30 because I was gonna meet Andrea first then the rest. Haha she somewhat reminds me of Sitifarah.. Met the rest and then we were pacing back and fourth thinking if we should go Costumes Connection first or wait for Joey, who whatsapped us saying that she'd be late. Ended up going to that place first. Bought 2 more leotards and this contemp socks thingy. $70 fly~~~~ Went to get Koi after that. Wow fyi i survived on only drinks for the whole day.
Class was not very good... Teacher kinda made us do the 1 thing i suck at the most; Jumps. I really don't know how to jump sigh. I feel so heavy like an elephant and that makes me fucking depressed. Well technically i'm kinda the biggest in class but STILL?! Why can't i bloody jump like a dancer. Makes me so mad. Boohoo when will i ever be graceful like the others...
We were supposed to have dinner after class but somehow everyone else had like stuff going on and I, didn't feel like eating so we went separate ways. Cher, Andrea, Joey, Luvenia and I walked to Dhoby. Talked about heights and boobs and the typical girl stuff. Yes i still hate my boobs. Yes i still can't understand why guys in Singapore are so SHORT. Hahaha...
That feeling. That feeling of lonliness even though you're surrounded by so many people. Yes i've been feeling that the whole day. It's like i just can't fit in and i feel so ................... 1. Size issue is really making me mad. 2. My un-flawless skin is making me even madder. 3. The fact that i look ugly with my fringe up makes me even even even EVEN madder. I feel like i don't look like a dancer. Maybe because i'm not a ballet dancer and i don't have that graceful feel to my body. I just don't know. Everyone's so girly and pretty-ish and i'm just wtf. Need to learn how to feel pretty, how to be confident, how to be brave. My lack of self-esteem is really killing me, bit by bit.
(Left to right)
Sonia, Joey, Jingwen, Andrea, Me, Louisa, Luvenia.
This is so unglam for me but owell the rest looked good.
Yay beautiful!
This is so random but I saw some photos of 2NE1 at their concert and i'm sooooooooo starstrucked. Hahaha pretty girls i just love them.
Oh my beautiful girl idols oh so beautiful
To end off the post, i shall post some of my August wishes. Yes it's 1st Aug tomorrow. How time flies like crazy fast. In a blink of an eye, i'd be having holidays again. LOL.
1. To freaking be more graceful.
2. To slim down 5kg (i swear idk how but i'll try)
3. SLIM DOWN
4. SLIM DOWN
5-10. ALL SLIM DOWN
End of story :B
No comments:
Post a Comment