Gotta brace up

I woke up so early this morning just to shit. Oh my god this shitting issue has to stop. Why does it always shit at such a freaking odd timing!!!! I used my phone for awhile, and then fell back to sleep. My hands were too weak to hold my phone so it just landed on my bed. Woke up at about 12. Had lunch. My mom kinda pissed me off because of some stupid issue. Don't wanna mention about it. Whole family went idk where and until now they are still not back. Winnie and I went to Kovan to get my ballet flats sewed. Told her about the happenings at school.

It's almost 5pm. I've been looking through videos of people doing song covers on Youtube. Someone tell me why i'm so not talented. Seriously... I've learnt piano but i gave up halfway. I seriously can't remember any piano piece that i've played in the past. I've learnt guitar. But i'm just not as good as those who strum like they've been playing guitar their entire life. I can't sing because my god damn voice sounds like a frog. I can't exactly dance either HONESTLY. What the hell. I still can't believe I'm in Lasalle. I still don't know why Melissa chose me. Sigh I feel so.......... I feel like everyone in Lasalle is so professional-ish and is on their way to become professional artists. I can't see myself in that light. I can't even dance properly. I'm so scared of everything. It's still not hitting me yet. I'm not proud of myself. I feel like a loser. How do losers feel? Go check it up and you'll understand. For some reason I feel like Melissa kinda regretted letting me into Dance. I JUST FEEL SO OUT OF PLACEEEEE. I hate this feeling i hate this i hate this. I don't wanna be emotional. I wanna be strong. I wanna feel like i'm able to do it. I wanna be cheerful. I can only be cheerful when i'm high on sugar!!! Then Melissa told us that we gotta control our intake of sugar. . . Oh god haha. No use feeling like this all the time. Afterall the only person that I gotta overcome is myself. So yeah.... Shanette! Buck up be happy and just smile.

Here are some photos Ashley posted on Facebook. It was taken on the Pink day!

Gotta feel some love. I feel unloved. My true feelings.