I was feeling so awake for ballet on Wednesday. I literally knew what i was doing. But my energy died down during Viewpoints... Salutations, runs, 12/6/4s... I was so sick of it. My leg injury was ringing so badly because of the grand jetes that the runs and 12/6/4s almost killed me. Had lunch and contemp after that. Told Susan about my leg cuz I knew she'd do grand jete at the end of the lesson. With my leg like that, i obviously cannot take the impact the floor is gonna give to my leg. She told me i should see a physiotherapist if not the injury will never go away. SIGH I REALLY WANT IT TO GO AWAY I REALLY DO T_T
Had Art History extra class at 4.30.. Felt so cold cuz we were in the super cold room and it was raining outside... After class, Dayal told us that we were not going to have another anatomy test for the finals and the test that we took last week would be our final grade for this semester. He said that majority of us got above 80. I was SOOOOO happy when i heard about it!
Spent about 2 hours at the frass figuring out the blocking for our new hip hop choreographies. Not everybody was focusing and it was just everywhere. Sigh i hate doing shit like this without a teacher. There's no team work in our class at all. Really none. So many people were trying to lead. This kind of situations really turns me off. Even if i had something to say, no one would listen because everybody's too bothered about themselves. That's one freaking reason why i always shut up. I genuinely hate the blocking. I'm blocked all the way. I'm not saying that I'm a good dancer and i don't mind being at the back. BUT AT LEAST LET ME BE SEEN?
Went to eat chicken rice for dinner. It was so satisfying!!! Went home after that and bought Afiq Mcd's Mudpie icecream cuz he was feeling so moody. Oh my god he almost rejected me i almost got pissed. If i purposely buy something for somebody and that person rejects it, i'll really go crazy.
Stayed up till 2am plus doing improv journal. Oh man i almost couldn't open my eyes during Ballet. & I felt so dead during Hip hop. Mycs gave us the whole class to clean up our steps. She was there, she could've cleaned us up... Why did she tell Cheryl to clean us up? I mean it's Mycs' steps.... She should know better if our moves are right or wrong. Cheryl kinda did one step wrong in our 2nd choreography and everybody just followed her thinking that she's right. Oh my god. Not like me saying it will make a difference cuz I'm not a good dancer and people will just think I'M WRONG. -_- Sickening. Sometimes I have so much to say but i feel like my words mean nothing at all. I've got no stand, no place.
Arts History ended early. Jingwen totally forgot to bring her Improv journal and we needed to hand it in on Friday and we were sleeping over at Andrea's house. So she had no choice but to go all the way back home to get it. I went to Andrea's house to put down my bags and showered. Fell asleep for 2 over hours. Woke up, had spaghetti for dinner. WOOOOO SO DELICIOUS~ Before we left the house for swaggout 3, Andrea was giving me a private mini concert of herself singing. AHAHA BE JEALOUS cuz she'll never ever sing infront of most of you people out there :B It's this karaoke app on her phone that she used. Sang sang sang until we were late.
Reached Bayfront at about 8.35pm and we totally had no clue where Avalon was. After a hard time finding our way there, we finally reached. The queue was insanely long!!!! But then...... WE GOT INTO THE EXPRESS QUEUE CUZ BOTH OF US DIDN'T BRING BAGS!!!! HAHA we were the last 2 to reach in our class but the first 2 to get into the club. LOL omg first time in a freaking club.... HOW DO PEOPLE SEE MAN?! I ALMOST TRIPPED LIKE TWICE. Waited for a little while and the next thing we knew, we were right infront of the stage. Awesome music was playing and I don't understand how everybody can be so still on a freaking dance floor. OMG.. Ya i know they are all waiting for the show to start but still! CAN GROOVE WHILE WAITING WHATTTT. But everybody was as stiff as a log so I had no choice but to restrict my movements.
Show started at almost 10. All the performances were spectacular!!! Except for the crumping people. Crazy how is that even dancing?!?! My eye was very glued to this particular gay guy that looked like Christopher. He danced so damn well and so damn sexy oh my god. Almost died ok. I tried imagining Chris do it but i almost laughed my ass off. Told Kel about it and he was like "TAKE VIDEO OR PHOTO!! I'LL SHOW HIM!!" Of course this dude was way sexier, way more handsome, way buffer than Chris. Saw familiar dance teachers like Bryan and Fredy and Nash and Zaihar and Xuehui. MYCS PERFORMED TOO!!! I think she performed like 4 freaking choreographies!!!! SUPER AWESOME.
The whole event ended at 12. We cabbed to Andrea's house and the timing was all just right. The moment we got out of the taxi, Afiq and Shafiq were walking toward's Andrea's condo. Haha! Took turns to bathe and had spaghetti again for SUPPER!!! SO DELICIOUS I REALLY LOVE IT!! -heartshaped eyes- Of course... Andrea and Shafiq shared one bed and me, jingwen and Afiq shared one bed. This Afiq really trying to piss me off everyday. At first i thought i was gonna get the whole bed to myself. Omg -_- Initial plan was that me and Afiq on the bed, Shafiq and Andrea on the bed. Jingwen on the floor cuz she said she didn't mind. I kinda felt bad somehow. So instead of sleeping straight i slept in the landscape way. So the bed could squeeze 3 people. Jingwen was on the floor with Afiq. Both of them didn't wanna come up at first but of course Jingwen still did. Afiq was so stubborn and it really pissed the hell outta me. Everybody was telling him that there was enough space on the bed for him to sleep but he insisted to sleep on the floor. Deserves a whacking man!!!! I got irritated so i didn't bother calling him up. If he wanted to sleep on the bed, he would. Of course he did in the end. STARTED SNORING THE MOMENT HE JUMPED ONTO THE BED. Oh my holy crap. Couldn't sleep for like 30minutes so i was like busy looking through twitter and other apps. Shafiq was so lame.... He was on the other bed using his phone too and he replied to my tweet even though we were in the same room.. LOL a minute after that, he and Afiq were competing who snored the loudest. Freaking orchestra going on... I kept waking up in the middle of the night because either Afiq's snore was too loud or Jingwen suddenly have body spasm. LOL. Omg i'm really thankful to god for not giving me any weird sleeping habits. I think i do snore but it only happens when i'm extremely extremely tired. It rarely ever happens.
Woke up very early because of the alarm. I didn't know Afiq and Shafiq had to reach school at 8.30 if not i would've woken them up. They woke up at 8am and started panicking. Lucky they were boys, super fast in preparing. They managed to reach school on time. The 3 of us continued sleeping because we decided to skip Pilates (as usual). BUT WE STILL OVERSLEPT. We woke up at 10 when our class was at 10.30am!!!! Cabbed down to Jitterbugs and hip hop exam started. Sigh rubbish I was totally not prepared for it.
Mycs kinda made me sad a little.. After doing the choreography for three times as a whole group, she split us into 3 groups. By seeing who's in what group, i already know how she chose the people. The first group who went up obviously scored the highest because it consisted of people like Cheryl, Andrea, Luvenia and Jingwen. Joey too. I belonged to the second group. My name was called the last. So I'm gonna assume that I actually belonged to the last group because she hesitated before calling my name. FUCK MY LIFE? She said i improved but she was gonna almost fail me again? Is she kidding me? Depressing but who cares I don't care anymore.
Had Starbucks for lunch L O L . . . I know i know i know we're ridiculous but cravings~~~ Hehehe. We were all sitting side by side at an awkward table. Did the remaining few journal entries for improv and rushed back to school cuz we were late for improv. LATE DAY!!! Always late!!
It was such an emotional improv lesson. She told us to bring a personal item. I didn't because I kinda forgot about it. I used my phone instead. It's very precious and personal to me!!!~ We sat in a circle and took turns to say why the item was personal to us. After that we started doing improv to the emotions that the item has given us. Like the memory of the item. The first round was not very successful. I kinda didn't know what to think. I got very into it for the second round. One memory led to another... I started to think of so many things. I felt like I was very me when Melissa told us to be in our own worlds. Very negative, very sad, wanted to cry because even my parents couldn't understand me. The story i told to the class had something to do with my mother. It's not THAT emotional but as i've said, 1 memory led to another. Then Melissa told us to go into other people's world and mix around. I started to change. I started to hold everything in. I started becoming who I always am infront of my friends.
After that, we had a debrief about it. Everybody was so emotional. I had so much impulse to say about how i felt. But i didn't dare. LOL this is my problem. I over think so much that my mind can't even form a proper sentence. I wanna say this I wanna say that this that this ah fuck forget it. Always happens. That's another reason why I'm always quiet when it comes to opinions. I've got loads to say but idk where to begin. I would rather write down or something because that gives me time to sort out my thoughts.
After class, slacked at the frass. Fell asleep for afew minutes until Andrea told me Shafiq's stomach hurt and he was on the floor. HAHA DRAMA BOY. We went up to find him and he didn't eat anything. OF COURSE HIS STOMACH WOULD HURT... -_-
Had rehearsal from 4.30-6.30 at H102. Melissa polished up our hip hop routine. Sigh felt very demoralised. I just don't know. I'm not good enough, no one notices me, i just blend into the air. SLIGHTTTT improvement also don't have? Argh fml. Felt so sucky throughout the whole rehearsal. FUCK MY LIFE.
Caught Bangsawan at 7 plus. It was performed by the level 2 performance students. SUPER FANTASTIC AND SUPER HILARIOUS. I couldn't stop laughing!!! They are awesome talented people!!! Waited for Shafiq and Afiq for dinner but apparently they had freaking Sarpinos waiting for them and they didn't even tell us they Harris was gonna treat the whole performance students. We waited for almost an hour for them FOR NOTHING. Oh my god so mad. Went to subway to have our dinner and headed home.
Need to write a 1000 word essay for Rhythm Ensemble.... Sigh i feel like i'll do badly for it. WHY IS IT SO HARD TO WRITE 1000 WORDS FOR THAT BUT THIS BLOG POST HAS ALREADY EXCEEDED 2000 WORDS??? Ha of course it's my life story HAHA.. Alright guys i'm tired but my brain can't stop thinking of nonsense... Sigh goodnight!!!
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