A good week ahead

Weeeee it's the start of the exciting week~~~ Let me start off with yesterday..

Met up with Andrea at Bishan to go to Yew Tee to find Shafiq. That stupid place was the most boring "mall" i've ever been to in my entire life... But Shafiq as a gnome looks pretty cute.. :) We kinda wasted our time there because after his work, his boss or whoever told him and the rest that they had to cab to Toa Payoh to return the costumes. It's disappointing that we've travelled so far and yet we can't spend some time together. Oh well of course the typical me would treat it like it's nothing and just smile. :) Actually no. There's just something special about both Afiq and Shafiq. My tolerance level for the both of them is just soooooo high. I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY. I wonder if Andrea and Jingwen feels the same... Hmmm? Afiq came when we were about to left. As blur as sotong, he just followed Afiq after hugging us hello/goodbye.

Went back home, did up my mother's letter and then caught up with my shows and fell asleep at 3ish...

Woke up this morning, determined to not eat anything because my stomach was still very bloated. So yes i didnt eat anything till dinner. I still feel bloated though. Even worse after dinner. I went straight to the toilet after dinner. I think the time of the month is coming. My stomach cannot tank anymore. It's just too big. I will really suffer like so damn bloody much if I ever get pregnant sigh. I don't look forward to fucking motherhood no joke.

Family went to Azur to eat buffet cuz it was my mommy's birthday~~ She look absolutely gorgeous today. HAHA. Ate like a pig that's why i rushed to the toilet immediately after that. Went back home and there's still cake below.... SIGH I actually wanna eat it but I think I'll just EXPLODE LIKE A PINATA!!!!

I'm gonna quote this whole paragraph from Andrea's secret blog. I can totally relate to it because I totally felt the same way.

"I got really into kpop at that time and really drowned my sorrows into
listening to happy kpop songs and spazzing over hot cute and
super good looking people whom i dont even know.
But the best part about it is that even though you're having
a "mental" unofficial relationship with your bias, they can never hurt you!
They say the sweetest things to make you happy, do the stupidest things to make you laugh,
perform their best on stage to make you proud, that is literally the epitome of true love right there!!!!!!
And even though at that time everyone was kinda dissing kpop..
I stood up for it cause it was literally my only reason .. to be happy."

You gotta totally agree to what she mentioned about kpop on top. That's the main reason why I love kpop. You get to be in love with whoever you want and even though they don't really know who the fuck are you, they still love you unconditionally. Yes it's blessful to be in a real relationship. You find the person you love and loves you back, get together and have the sweetest moments you can ever have. But everyone knows happiness don't last. I get scared when I'm so happy all of a sudden. It's just a sign that a big storm is about to come and just attack you from the back. That happened to me afew weeks back. You know something's wrong when all of a sudden things become what you dreamed of. Yes I can somehow predict the future in a way by my sixth sense (and some stalking of course) but it still is quite hurtful.

All those unneccesary drama some create.. I'm really not up for such things. The thought of it gives me the creeps. Yes i know if you love someone, you will go all out for that person. Well at least I'm like that. Even if the person stood me up for the stupidest reason, I think i'll still stupidly forgive the person and let it go. That's why...... JUST FANTASIZE OVER AN IDOL PEOPLE~~~~~~ DON'T FALL IN LOVE HAHAHA

I'm very happy that I'm getting out of here in like 2 days. I can escape reality. Leave whatever issues or nonsense that I have here in Singapore and have 1 over week of bonding time with my family.  Maybe I'm just born to be a selfish person. I just want to be happy. & I know i am when I'm standing alone. Probably another reason why I think I'll be forever alone. LOL I'm always helping people and such..... Who is gonna help me when I'm in trouble then? Myself right? See? I'm just independent that way. (Am i really independent...?)