Back to reality

Hello guys. I am here, to blog, about my last 2 days of visiting.

So yesterday we visited uncle Joseph's house first. He said I slimmed down. Ok lol practically everyone said I slimmed down. I don't really think I slimmed down cuz I ALWAYS check my weight. Seriously. Very depressing but yeah better to face the facts than delude myself. Then again.... I've been dancing alot and also gaining alot of muscles. So my weight not going down might probably be due to muscle mass.

Then we went to visit some uncle that I don't even know. He's the most generous man I've ever met in my life man. It was the first time we saw each other and he actually gave me a $40 angbao. WHAT THE? When I opened the angbao I was just lost for words. My 2 related uncles, the 2 uncles that knew me since I came to this world, gave me freaking $6 and this uncle, whom I've never met my entire life, gave me $40. Look at what kind of relatives I've got. K la this uncle's rich... So that explains it. LOL he has a freaking lift in his house.

Went to uncle david's house after that. I was so tired I just slept for like 20minutes before we left. Hahaa. Went home after that. Gah if I knew we were staying home at night, I would've told my mom to book tickets for ah boys to men 2... :(

This late morning, went over to uncle Edward's house. IT'S NO FUN WITHOUT EUGENE!!! Sigh I thought he would've come back for CNY. Last year was so fun because he was there... Stoned there for like 2hours with people I don't know and then went over to Uncle Heng's house. Stoned again for 2hours or so and went home. Could only managed to do abit of work before we left the house for dinner and then to Uncle Lester's house.

Dinner was so dead. I was in the hyper stressed mood. K maybe I haven't said this in my blog before but when I'm stressed, I have 3 very obvious symptoms. 1. I eat alot. 2. I sleep all my stress away. 3. I become extremely hyper. So i wanted to shout and laugh loudly even though the restaurant was so quiet. LOL. Then my father spoilt my mood. He talked about uncle Edward. So just now uncle Edward asked if I'm in a JC or poly. This mother always don't let me answer. She always helps me answer and her answers are retarded. "Lasalle, Dance!" that's what she said. In my head, I was like I'm sure he don't know what the heck is Lasalle. She should've just said an arts school -_- So I was right, uncle Edward didn't know what she was saying. So she added on, "Studying Dance, not a poly, not a JC! hahahah" Wtf what a WISE way to tell him. So he gave a "wtf" face too and added sacarsm to his answer. "Aiyo! Why dance only! MUST SING! You see those singers sing 1 song only earn big bucks already!" I'm like . . . K. So my dad, the guy who have never really accepted his daughter as a dancer-in-training, asked me, "just now Uncle Edward ask me leh. You after studying this dance, go where ah? What cert ah?" AGAIN MY MOTHER DIDN'T LET ME ANSWER. This mother really last warning. I got my own mouth.... So she said diploma. That's it. The conversation stopped and his face continued sulking.

I hate this. You know what. All these oldies should go and live our lives for like just a week. Just one week. Let's see if you'll survive. Let's say I ended up in NYP. YOU THINK I'LL SURVIVE THRU? You think I'll have a stable job by the end of the diploma? NO? I'm being posted to DIGITAL VISUAL EFFECTS DUDE. Not some freaking business course. It's still freaking "art" in a way. So sick of this shit. These people make me wanna strive so hard. Whoever who look down on me ah, I tell you first next time if I succeed I'll not even look at you.

Yes I do not like ballet as much as other genres but I have to pull through. I die also must pass this sem's exam. I CANNOT FAIL. I CANNOT DROP OUT. I CANNOT!!!!!!! If ballet dancers are meant to be skinny, I'LL SLIM DOWN. I BLOODY WILL. If I have to go through 10 thousand depressions to succeed, SO BE IT. It's not like I'm not already depressed enough. No matter what I cannot drop out. I cannot be kicked out. I MUST SURVIVE THROUGH THESE 3 YEARS T_T I'm not like my partner. Always so happy-go-lucky. Always thinking things will come to him easy. Sigh he's 21 this year..... Can't he be more realistic and realize he's in a freaking art school? His spot is not guaranteed at all! Argh whatever why bother about him when he doesn't even care. Gosh a waste of time.

K gotta pull through February. Horrible february is gonna be over soon! Ok I just need to get pass 18th february and then all's good! Give me as many albert's lessons as y'all want. I will survive that than to do theory stuff. I hate research and writing. Hate art history. HATEEEEEE presentations. ARGH ROAR. Ok.

I am honestly excited for ballet. Excited to get nagged by Elizabeth. Yes i know, hard to believe. I KNOW. & Believe it or not, ballet is way more interesting than Leah's contemp class. Yawnz I miss Susan's contemp class so much. It was just getting so much more interesting and then we're back to basics. Wtfffff SIGH you can nag at me for as much as you want too I just want you back T_T 2 1/2 more months!!!! I can do this right Shanny???? YES I MUST GET THROUGH SEM 2 I MUST GO TO LEVEL 2!!!!!!!!!!!

Yes you bet I'm stressed right now.