Hello Tuesday.

I had a rather.... meh weekend. But all's well now.

My Monday was awesome. My CrewB went to AWWA in the morning to teach autistic kids how to dance and move and such. Basically gonna spend the whole over there. Went to school after that for a feedback session with our ballet teacher.

Went home with Luv and Jingwen after that and we had long talks about many things... I love talks like this it makes me feel like I'm not the only one facing what I'm facing. Also being able to hear what other people think about it and stuff like that. 

I just cannot stand one thing though. & that is the people around me will always tell me how I cannot NOT put feelings into things. I myself know that. No matter how much I try to be cold hearted and shit, I just cannot. I told Jingwen that I am trying to block feelings out and stuff. She told me "what for? it is you and that's what makes you you." Becuz luv was trying to be all "you just need to learn how to switch fast enough. Learn how to put feelings into it when needed and then pull out if it's too much." Jingwen immediately "NO SHANETTE CANNOT. WHEN SOMEONE'S SAD SHANETTE WILL DEFINITELY BE AFFECTED AND ALL THAT" I was like ARGH THEN HOW.

I'm annoyed with this side of me. Why can't I think of myself first? Why do I feel like if I put myself first, I'm being selfish? Why do I based my happiness on others? This was what I was annoyed about the whole weekend. Always putting others infront of me. For what!!! Haiyo shan HAIYO

So yeah we had sooo much girls talk going on till like 6.30 and we left the house to Chompchomp for dinz. So crowded we had to wait for seats. Andrea and Laban were taking forever to reach so we ordered food first. Gosh my mouth was burning with all the spice but the food was all too good to be true so I didn't care. Ate till my heart's content. Hahahaha. I knew my dad was at his usual pub. He texted me right after we finished our dinner at almost 9 and told me that he could fetch us home. Woohoo so we got a ride home. 

All of them stayed over at my place~~ It was such a noisy bimbotic night.. But I definitely enjoyed the company~~!! Didn't sleep well though. Firstly because the people in my room made me increase my aircon's temperature. I didn't want to because if I up it it'll be very warm and stuffy. If I don't it'll be like freezing cold. If I have to choose I rather it be cold duh. Lol sorry I'm a polar bear. But I still up it anyway since they were guests... -_- I really couldn't sleep man. I woke up in the middle of the night just to change the temperature while they were sleeping. & Andrea shared my bed with me and was being all "don't move the blanket I don't want cold wind to come into my feet." So because of that I could hardly move. AND MY BACK AND SHOULDER WAS SUFFERING LIKE CRAY!!!!!! Then..... Luvenia was being cray early in the morn. Like making so much noise and trying to talk to us when we're all obviously sleeping. What man I need my sleep gurl... All of them woke up before my alarm even rang. I mean I would've woke up automatically at 7.30 if I didn't had such a bad night of sleep...

Woke up this morning and it's been soooo long since I remembered what I dreamt.. Sigh why must that stupid person come into my dream. It felt so real and I really wonder how this person's doing sometimes. Oh my god you stupid kuku. T_T so sad save me. 

Daddy brought breakfast for all of us.... Awww~ <3 Hahahaha but it gave me a tummyache because I hardly ever eat breakfast. Went to AWWA, had lunch at Nex and went back to school and sleep till 5 because we have to watch the Actors' show "Romeo and Juliet" A part of me is really hoping that bunch of people would come. But nah. I don't think they will.. Unless their lecturer makes it compulsory for them but I doubt it hahaha. 

Tomorrow's my filming day.... I'm really not looking forward to it. Gonna be stressed as hell again and then make myself look like a fool again. SOBS!!! On the bright side, it's gonna be over by tmr night!!!!! & Somebody's gonna be uncontactable for the next 3 days!!!! Oh nuuuuuuu