WHY IS MY TUMBLR SO DEPRESSING oh my gosh. I just went through all my posts. I feel so nakedly bare over there like my feelings are so exposed. Everytime I re-read my own posts I don't even regret reblogging it BECAUSE ITS SO TRUE. And hello you haven't even seen my drafted posts THAT'S EVEN MORE DEPRESSING. Nope you'll never ever see it, it's drafted for a reason yaw muahaha. I'm such a depressed kid sometimes. But hey I can choose to be happy too so yeah depends on whether you're worth it for me to be happy or not.

Really leh I really choose who I want to be happy around. There are just these few people that I can never ever be happy around and some of them I just laugh until I lose my voice. Hahahah & I cherish those moments a lot because I know I'm obviously always sad when I'm alone at home.

Gah guys I'm really on holiday mood already. I can't be bothered to go for morning classes. I know I can't wake up so what's the point. But then don't know what got into me I feel like I want to go for Albert's class tomorrow. A part of me is actually scared because they learnt a new combination and I wasn't there when they learnt it... So I'll die tomorrow. But I want to go. This is unbelievable.

Yesterday I was telling Cheryl my depressing friday pathetic food day. Then at that point of time I was craving for either Green tea latte/frappe. Daddy almost spoilt my craving again because he told me to meet him at Kovan instead of Serangoon. Kovan aint got no Starbucks!!!! So I didn't care I still went Serangoon first to get my doze of craving. BUT GUESS WHAT????? GREEN TEA LATTE/FRAPPE NOT AVAILABLE BECAUSE THEY RAN OUT OF GREENTEA. YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW SAD I WAS. SIGH & Cheryl was just laughing at me.... Laugh laugh laugh. Ok la if I see myself so pathetic I also will laugh.

Met up with one of the pioneer dancers, Goh Lay Kuan yesterday. She was so cute.... She was so passionate when she was telling us her stories and when I looked at her, I was like wow we were talking to someone who has been through World War 2 and all the Singapore riots and stuff like that. Well I never had a chance to actually talk to my grandparents about such things.. We had so many questions to ask her but she ended up answering all of them without us even asking.

Today I went to school and prepared our presentation. Sigh I really want to punch myself. I can't believe up till now I still have "stage" fright. I still tremble. I swear I had all my points clearly sorted out in my head. I knew what I needed to say and I had a lot to say. But when it was my turn to talk I just blanked out. My grammar become anyhow my sentence structure all anyhow like crazy. & then I always feel like I have not enough breath to talk IT'S SO ANNOYING. I don't know if anyone else feels my pain because I think I'm only one in my class that trembles when I talk in front of an audience. I'm so scared for next year's class with the performance students. I'm gonna embarrass myself like nobody's business and seriously what Michelle and Melissa said just now weren't helping at all. "Next year you are going to have this class with the performance students and that batch is pretty talented and hardworking and so all of you got to buck up." Oh like we don't already know..... G O S H SAVE ME.... I'm already so bad in front of my own classmates.... I CAN'T IMAGINE WHEN WE'RE WITH THEM. I seriously can't I need to dig a hole and hide after every presentation.

Went to have my breaklunner with Cheryl after presentation and now I'm home.

I can't believe this. I mean that was the last assessment of the year yet I feel like I still have so much more work left. WHY???? Maybe because there's Albert tomorrow... & Thursday... & I have BTT test on Friday morning which I haven't even studied for. GONNA DIEEEE LOL

I suddenly had this random picture that came into my head while I was heading to the shower just now. I DON'T KNOW WHY SO RANDOM SIGH T_T Aiya not like it'll come true la sigh. I think I suddenly have a lot of time to think nonsense ah. Hahaha oh wells I'm gonna watch Emergency Couple right now.