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Fucking sad 

Fucking hate drinking like fuck my life all I am thinking about now is him and great it would be if he was up fucking caring about me fucking asking if i’m home fucking taking care of me.... How great it would be if I was hugging to sleep now 😭😭😭😭😭😭

Being strong for the whole god damn week and I’m breaking now because the loneliness is killing me 😭

So fucking empty who the fuck do I turn to at this ungodly hour? Fuxk i don’t even dare to give him a text to say I miss him CUZ HAS HE EVEN SAID A SINGLE I MISS YOU?????? NO!!!!! Every single night he’s out does he even fucking think about me??????...... No.......... 

😭 I’m so sad i’m so sad god help me I shouldn’t be breaking down because he said he will be back.. But i’m so sad because at my lowest at my weakest where is he.... 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

I wanna call him I wanna tell him how I feel I am so fucking sad baby where are you 😭

My head hurts my heart hurts my stomach hurts today is a tough night 😭 I’m so empty and I have no one to turn to.... I remember he used to tell me “call me when you can’t sleep... just drop me a text when you can’t sleep”....... Am i even allowed to now.....? IM SO SAD SOBSSSSSSSS SOBSSSSSSSS 😭😭😭😭😭