Annoyance

So the 6 of us went back to Tan Tock Seng Hospital, Tuberculosis Center to check if we were infected with any TB germs. Ok, so i was the only one with a 1cm bump and had to do X-ray to check more thoroughly. Total waste of time i swear. Cuz when the results were out, i had no germs in me but because my results was positive, i was given an option to whether i should be on a 9-mth medication. Doctor said if i dont take, i have a 40% chance of getting infected when i get older. WTF so do i look like i have any choice? Joke.

Had our lunch at 2pm, KFC. Oh god fattening to the max. I only ate pop corn chicken snackers. So full so bloated i could hardly move around. Headed to Orchard after that. Went to Far East Plaza, walked afew rounds and we were outta there in no time. Gosh Far East Plaza is one of the most boring places in Orchard. I dont like that place. Went to H&M. The clothes there werent that much of my style except for some of the winter clothings there. Really wished Singapore had some cold seasons... I'm not even asking for Winter season man. I just want temperatures like 17-20degrees. I'll be happy enough in all honesty.

Too bored in Orchard, and we were all tired from walking and standing the whole day, hence we decided to head home. Yup so that was pretty much my day.

Personal: I put others before me. I dont see what's so wrong about that. I dont think i should get lectured because of this. Putting myself first equals to thinking that everyone lives to accommodate you. Excuse me? I know sometimes even though I think about them first, they dont do the same. Seriously i wont lose an arm for doing such things. They dont have to know what I do. I dont care if they are not appreciative or whatever fuck. Even if i care, i cant fucking change myself. It's just me. I just wanna think about them first before me. Either accept me or fuck off. I get angry easily. I don't know how to show my love for people. I dont know how to show the loving side of me. I JUST DONT KNOW.  So seriously,  whats wrong. JUST LIVE LA. Oh my god man. If anyone of you thinks i'm a real meanie, a person who has a freaking angsty personality and is not a nice person, then just go away la. K. I'm done.

Boom boom pow~

Woohoo~ Yesterday morning i really felt like a zombie. It must be because i havent woke up early in such a long time. I set 3 alarm clocks. 1st one starts ringing at 8.15am and the another 2 will start ringing after 15min. I think alarm clocks no longer work for me. Yes i hear them, but i wont wake up!!! :@ So yeah, Winnie came into my room and woke me up at 9am and I HAD TO WAKE UP if not i'll be late. I was meeting at girls at 10am at AMK. I bathed, wore clothes, brushed teeth, walked out of the house with one eyes closed, hence looking like a zombie. 

However i was still 10min late!!! Dang!! That's all because of bus 136. Really abhor that sickening bus. It takes its own sweet time ugh!! Ok we were going to do some tuberculosis check up at Tan Tock Seng hospital yesterday. My left forearm was injected. After injection, i took the train back to amk to look for the dear Geraldine. She just woke up when i called her! So i just walked to the busstop near her house. LOL she was so shocked that i walked there. 

We planned to watch "一泡而红” (Already Famous) at AMK. We saw Megan Kimiko Eugene Tianquan Jeremy on the way there! They were catching the same show as us~ Hahaha coincidental much~ After getting the tix, we went to have our lunch! That was my first and last meal of the day.. What's wrong with my tummy recently... Even if i want to eat, I'LL EAT JUNK FOOOOOOOOD. That's so bad T_T 

After the movie, Liqian came and meet us at AMK. We were planning to go dance that night. But there was still alot of time to kill, so we went to Geraldine's house to slack. Wow talked about so many things... & to be honest i'm still quite stunned over what we talked. LOL. Left the place at around 7 and went to scape. AND WE REALISED THERE WAS NO DANCE THAT DAY DANG. Ended up roaming around Somerset313. Saw so many things that i wanted to buy from Forever21~~~ Woohooo Liqian ah we're so going back there right~! 

Went home at 9, reached home at 10.30pm. Sorry my face looked like i've drunk alot of beer but i really didnt HAHA. Yay i'll probably post later in the night again~ For now, adios~

Prom Night

HELLO I finally found my USB cable for my camera~! I'm not gonna show all the photos here tho. Heh firstly, this is a picture of how the 7 of us looked like during Prom.

Family photo! Heh... K actually i know we're lacking of someone. Jazreel Loh. Without them, i really dont know how i'd survive sec2 life. 

YAY I LOVE MISS SHANTI! The best teacher i've had! Even though i hate Chemistry...... HIAKHIAK~

YAY the 2 hilarious pabos! Luv them really. Thanks Vasu for always being such a gentlemen and tolerating my nonsensical attitude. Thanks Dinesh for always giving me support during O's~ 

YAY Bellda the dancing machine!!!! I'll never forget the first time i enter the dance studio, Miss Shining paired us up cuz i was lost and needed someone to teach me the steps. Yay gonna mizz all those dance times :')

Geraldineeeeeeee *_* I'll never forget last year, never forget chicken rice, never forget the surprise you and jazreel gave me, never forget CHUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU. Luv ya luv ya luv ya! 

JOEL TSENGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG. The idiot that never stops teasing me with Dennis and Marcus -_- The body that's made up of STONEEEEE :P

Jonas Koh JH~ Eh bradder gonna miss you la idiot. Thanks for being there when i had no one to talk to.

PRINCIPAL OF MY SCHOOL. K actually i think i should've taken photo with Mr Peterson instead... Didnt had the chance awwwwwng :( 

And this means..........

 END OF SECONDARY SCHOOL LIFE.

끝!

Ditch the 2 faced bitches

Wassup~!

I! Woke up at freaking 11.30am today. Okay to me, it is already kinda late ah~ Slacked on da bed till it was 1pm. Finally decided to bathe and now i'm enjoying the cozy weather with a hot cup of milo~ Hehe. I slept at 4.30am yesterday night :( What a tough night yesterday. Totally couldnt sleep. All cuz of some annoying ass that gets so offended over me insulting myself and says its unnecessary. HA joke of the night.

Your fucking lame tweets are more unnecessary than my post. Limits? What fucking limits are you talking about? I think if have petition, i confirm win. Joke sia really. Like what Xiaue tweeted: "Nothing makes your haters more mad than when you have a fucking awesome life." So hate me k? I dont mind. :)

This post is unnecessary but i just want you to see it, stalker. Mess with me? Dont you dare, asshole.

Insecurities

Hello there readers~ You know? Its almost 2am right now. & I have just finished a drama called 'Secret Garden' which was aired last year this time too, i suppose. Its so awesome... I really believe in fate and fairytales. I know normal people would say i'm crazy and its all just in my imagination. But think deeper dear readers. Something similar must have happened to somebody for the director to even have such storylines in their heads. Something must have happened to those authors who wrote 'Cinderella', 'The Little Mermaid', 'Sleeping Beauty', 'Snow white', 'Beauty & the beast' etc. If they can ACT it out, it means there is a 0.0001% possibility that it MIGHT happen to somebody living on earth. Heh~ Nevermind~ I dream alot~ Hence my tumblr's URL is QUIXOTIC~ DREAMS~ Heh!!!!

I had a unforgettable Prom Night on the 21st of Nov 2011. :) Even though i had no date, i had my girls with me. Sorry i couldnt find my usb cable for my camera so i've got no pictures to upload. The picture above  is from Irisa's cam(if i'm not wrong). From that you can already tell how much fun we had huh~ Saw many well dressed people there yesterday~ Beautiful people.

Took a look at those photos that people tagged me in on Facebook. Dang... Yes i know you know what i'm gonna say next. Yes you've guessed correct, it's about me being really darn fat. I dont get it really. My clique is one perfect example of 'hungry ghosts' man. They get hungry so easily i have no words to describe ah seriously. BUT LOOK AT THEIR SIZE HUH. What is this. What unfair life i have. I dont eat, i put on weight. I eat, i put on weight. I exercise, i stay the same. I dont exercise, i put on weight. Eh seriously?! I should just jump down the building and die suan le. Not that i wanna be so annoyed over this matter. But everyone judges. I swear.

People around me can actually say that they are fat when right infront of them, is someone(me) fatter than them. Sorry but i'll think that you're indirectly insulting me. Like straightdown! Or if someone like my size wears a so called revealing top, somebody HAVE to criticize them. I dont know la k. I really wanna be slim. I really wanna look confident. I really wanna experience looking slim for once. Huh. Sobs i'm not even kidding.

I cannot stand competition. I know i'll definitely lose. This is how lousy i am.

If theres a girl fighting for the same guy that i like, that girl would win. I have nothing that a guy would like. Body? Ohmy i think the guy would vomit just looking at me. Face? OH GOD my face has so many flaws the guy would think i'm from Mars. Personality? Ha if i've got no body no face, why the hell would they even wanna get to know my personality? Unless we are stuck in some forced circumstances la, which is unlikely too.  If there's someone fighting for the number 1 stop in studies, i'd lose. I've got no brains. I've got no hardworking genes. I'm just a piece of shit with super low IQ and EQ. Seriously....... How much more imperfect can i get. No one understands this feeling i swear. You guys would definitely compare me with handicapped people etc. Seriously WE'RE DIFFERENT. I'm comparing with PEOPLE WHO ARE THE SAME AS ME. People who has 2 legs 2 hands 2 eyes 1 nose 1 mouth 2 ears 10 fingers 10 toes.

Fuck all of you who says i'm writing this just to gain attention because 90% of you wouldnt even give a shit about what i'm writing so whatever i'm writing here is all from my miserable heart.

Sigh miserable. So god damn miserable.

Here i am

As usual, Sunday is always a no-going-out-with-friends-day. Well, i mean i feel that its only right to stay home at least on the day where both my parents are home. Even though we dont talk every minute, the feeling of knowing that they are home is good. Being home feels good too. :) Right now, i lying comfortably on my bed using the laptop. Isnt life great this way? Heh i'm just lacking of good food. I'm kinda on the plus sized side so.... Guess i should count the good food out. :(

Had lunch with my paternal grandmother, grandaunt, granduncle and aunt today. I'm not very familiar with my relatives. So when i saw my grandaunt and uncle, they were like, 'oh you dont recognise me?' Yeah.... I dont... They live in Sydney for 15 years. So they came back to visit their relatives i guess.

Sometimes when i see old people, i think of how short life is. One day, i'm gonna be as old as my grandfamily. In all honesty i cant believe i'm already 16 years old. I know i'm still very young. You know what? I'm hoping to marry before the age of 30. That means i have only 14 more years to find Mr Right... How is that possible... -_- Well i shall not be bothered about that for now.

Hehehehe so.... Prom's tomorrow. Singapore's Prom is just bullshit ah so.... Whatever. & I'm so gonna look like a flower. Everyone's like expecting me to look like some glam lady wearing some black sexy dress tomorrow huh? NO. I'm gonna look like a flower with long fake legs cuz of the heels. Heh look forward to it ok. My belt's very loose and i'm feeling annoyed about it. No time to look for another belt so i'll just stick to that. Hopefully, JUST HOPEFULLY, my make up doesnt screw up tomorrow cuz if it does, hallelujah~ I'm so not taking photos with anyone k.

Who's gonna do my eyeliner for me?! Who's gonna stick the stupid fake eyelashes for me?! NUGUUUUUUU? (T^T)....

가장 친한 친구s (Best Friends)

Hello how's life? It's been a long time huh? I've been thinking if i should return to blogging. I havent got the time to do such stuff for the whole year because i had to go through with the tiresome O Levels. Now that i'm done with it, I feel so relieved. I might not get the best results, but i know i've tried my best, seriously. Regardless of the results, i should just enjoy my life now heh~

I've been hanging out with my darlings almost everyday. Not all of them, but most of the time its the same few people; Amanda, Andrea, Charlotte, Liqian, Jai, Yvonne.

I feel so thankful that i have these 6 beautiful friends. Honestly, ever since young when i had to go through such miserable life(Changing of environment, changing of friends, everything.), i've given up on friends. There was always this line in between me and "friends" because i know someday, we'll definitely part. & i really hate the feeling of parting. It makes me weak. It makes me tear and stuff. Thinking back, i'm probably the one who always break a friendship. I'm sorry to those whom i've never contact anymore. I sincerely apologise. However these 6 friends made me change my opinion of 'friends' and 'life'. 

Life's just TOO short to feel miserable everyday. Ever since Secondary 3, when i start to get close with the 6 darlings, i told myself i had to have a line. Just in case i get all emotional when we move on with life, which is this period, when we come to an end to our secondary school life. However, I can't. Friends are friends. We're meant to be close to each other. How can i just go against fate right? They tolerated my terrible temper, comforted me when i'm down, entertained me when i'm bored. We did almost everything together. If there is ever a day we're gonna go our own ways, i know i'd be terribly upset but everything is a beautiful memory. It's part of life. 

To the 6 beautiful ladies: I love you. Simple words but I'm typing it out wholeheartedly.