Infatuation? GO AWAY! I DONT WANT THAT.

Ok i'm in an uber stressed mood now. I've got no one to talk to and the only person whom i thought would listen to me talk, ACTUALLY IGNORED MY MESSAGE. Well, if she didnt reply me obviously she ignored it. That's saddening.

It's 2.10am in the morning on the 25th of January and i'm just, STRESSING OUT! I really don't know what i'm stressing about though.

I slept at 3am last night and got up at 10 in the morning. That's insufficient sleep. & usually if that happens, i'll fall asleep in the afternoon. & that didnt happen to me today. Ok i meant yesterday. & i'm still up so late, fantasizing over some imaginary future. EH?! I gotta wake up from it but i dont know how. I can't seem to distract myself from it. I'm like hoping it'd happen again. GOD i'm not making any sense.

I wanna be 20 soon :( I feel like i'm too young.... Or maybe my group of friends are old. K i don't get it. When i was 13, 17 was very old to me. Like when i hear people say, "i'm 17." My mind would just tell me that she's old enough to do anything she likes. Now that i'm turning 17, i feel YOUNG, because other people is gonna be 20 or 20PLUS. & age gaps are some weird thangs. When i was 13 and hear that my friends are dating someone 5 years older, i'd go "WHAT THE HELL HE'S TOO OLD FOR YA." Now that i'm 17, and if someone tells me she's dating someone who's in their early 20s, it feels normal.

OH MY GOD I'M REALLY SORRY I'M NOT IN A VERY GOOD STATE TO BLOG NOW.

AND I'VE GOT AN IDEAL GUY IN MIND. This is so random but YEAH! & i know i've got stalkers OMG STALKERS HI. AND AND i prefer talking to people IN REAL LIFE than to TYPE TYPE TYPE HERE. Cuz you know why? When you're online, there's this computer language thing. Sometimes people "lol" cuz they are just bored with you, and sometimes because they really mean it. YOU'LL NEVER KNOW UNLESS YOU'RE FRIENDS WITH THAT PERSON FOR A LONG TIME. 

& sometimes i laugh real hard when someone sees my facebook relationship status and thinks it's real. SERIOUSLY I'M STRAIGHT. Hi guyz if you read this, i'm freaking straight so don't assume anything k! Even though i'm not very extremely girly i'm still very extremely straight k. LOL.

I'm sorry i needa stop this random post because fyi it's 2.40am now and. I don't know. I just can't get any sleep thinking about what happened just now. So yeah see ya babies.