I really wished fairytales happened.

Yesterday was a school day for most of the all students i guess but spencer's school was an exception because his school did well in the O levels and his principal decided to give them a day off. Dad also took leave and mom doesnt even have work, so it felt like i had 3 CNY holidays instead of 2.

Went to visit uncle Joseph. He's related to uncle Edward's wife. So yeah. Did nothing much there. I thought we were disturbing them actually. Sigh i kinda wished i was close with his children. I mean i've known them since i was a kid but i was never ever ever EVERRRR close to them. Oh our age gaps are kinda wide i guess.. 19, 21, 23 and i'm....... 16 not yet 17. I guess i'm just socially awkward... Cuz i dont see how my cousin has problems talking to them like they are of the same age. I still remember all 3 of them kinda like donated their kiddy story and puzzle books to me when i was 7 or something..

WHY. AM. I. ALWAYS. SO. AWKWARD? I can't even talk to my cousins. It feels like i have NO cousins at all. Sigh everytime i see their family bond, i feel so envious of their lives. Being able to hang out with them every now and then.... I want to be able to socialise with people but i feel that they are putting a wall in between me and whoever the other party is. WHY?!

........... I really wish i can rewind time back to 2 days ago. I wanna say hi, but then i think about how the conversation will get nowhere and therefore, i decided to back out. That person's gonna go Europe to further his studies this March and i might not see him in another 3 years. Owelllll. In 3 years time, i'll be 20 and he'll be... 25. LOL ohmygod i'll be an adult by then. Ha ha ha i'll just go where god leads me...

As much as i know about miracles, it happens. 7 years ago i had a crush on this guy. 6 years later we actually went on a date and this year, he actually confessed. Well not that i have any feelings for him, but YEAH.. How could that happen man. I was shocked. Hahaha.

So let's just see who i'm gonna end up with. WHO KNOWS IT MIGHT JUST BE THAT SOON-TO-BE-25-YEARS-OLD-GUY-IN-3-YEARS-TIME~ Bleh k i'm a dreamer. For now, i'll just be sad about it and 3 years will soon fly pass.