Bleh

Hi everybody.

Woke up this morning (wait, i meant afternoon) and it was already a bad start of a day. After i bathed, put on my clothes, and wore my belt, i realised how loose my belt has gotten after wearing it so many times. It was irritating me. Nina, one of my maids, was stomping around the house like an elephant and it was pissing me off even further. 2 hours before I went out, i realised my EZlink was lost, AGAIN. It was definite that i lost it at home, because i didnt bring it out at all for the past few days since i was at home. I asked Nina if she saw it because most of the time, she cleans my room and arranges my stuff. All she needed to say was "No i didnt see it." or "Yes, it's there/here/wherever it is." Instead, she gave me all sorts of crap excuses to make it seem like i lost it on purpose and it's not her fucking fault. WHAT THE HELL? Her voice annoys the hell outta me and seriously, SHE SHOULD JUST STOP TALKING SO MUCH.

My mom knew I lost my EZlink and saw Nina trying to help me find my card. When i stepped out of my room, she came nagging crap at me saying how i always misplace my things and how i always ask Nina to find it out for me. NO I don't always ask her for help BECAUSE SHE IS ALWAYS OF NO HELP. All these shit just spoilt my early afternoon plus the weather wasnt helping much either. It was pouring cats and dogs and when i was about to go out, it stopped, causing the entire estate to feel so humid ARGH.

Reached Orchard around 3pm. Met Geraldine there to watch Woman in Black at Lido. There were only 2 timeslots available; 3.20pm & 7.20pm. We were thinking if we should eat first or watch the movie first because when we were buying tickets, it was already 3.20pm. So we decided to catch the 7.20pm show and went to Heeren's Jack's Place to have lunch/dinner.

Talk a whole lot over there and walked around Somerset area till the movie time neared. I drank Coffee Bean and THEN, Gongcha. Wtf I can't believe myself. This whole week is such a fucking sinful week. I don't even dare to look at the weighing machine right now. I'm so desperate to slim down. AND I HATE IT. Because the more desperate i am, the more stress i get. The more stress i get, the more depressed i am. The more depressed i am, THE MORE I EAT.

After the movie, was supposed to meet Jonas cuz Geraldine was supposed to meet him, but cancelled. Nahz i've got no fate with this dude so..... Whatever~ Went home instead.

Mother came to pick me up. She got so fucking irritating in the car. Seriously can't she just cool down and have some chillax time with me? I've got so many things to tell her but because she can't control her PMS/pre-menopause shitass attitude, i decided to shut up and let her scold. Sometimes i really think she doesn't know how to appreciate me. Hence, the idea of going overseas to study so she'll keep missing me and when i'm back home, she'll not pick up a fight with me and treat me better. Argh. If i do well for my dance diploma, i might just consider going overseas to get my degree. Who gives a fucking shit about Singapore. Bloody sickening place. 

So, i've been thinking about what i'm gonna do the next 5 months. Yes i plan to work. I've just submitted a job application and hopefully i get that job. I need the money. I just spent so much today, ON FOOD WTF? I hate spending money on food god.

As for fun, i'll wait till June. If i'm not wrong, i'm heading to the US during the first week of June. Hopefully, i get to go Korea after my US trip. I. WANNA. GO. KOREA. DAMN. IT. I need to see my ideal man. I'm gonna stalk the hell outta him. I'm still thinking about it. Sigh i need people to go with me. But June is peak period and the plane ticket is so expensive. So i was thinking if i should go in July. Hmmmm i should consider asking that dance friend i made in Lasalle to go with me, since she's also having like holiday. Also, Alexander Lee Eusebio is coming Singapore in July. FINALLY. Somebody heavenly that i like is coming to town. Heh i'm trying to make myself look forward to things, so i won't wake up everyday thinking "Why am i awake? There's nothing to do. Let me just die."

I'm gonna pick up Ballet lessons too. & i'm considering Yoga LOL..... Keep fit keep fit keep fit.

Must slim down.

Must not eat rice.

Must not eat oily food.

Must not drink gasy drinks.

Must not always eat fast food.

MUST EAT VEGETABLES.

LIKE MY IDEAL MAN.