Strong presence

I woke up this morning, sighing and smiling at the same time. Sighed because i woke up from my dream when it havent even ended. Smiled because I dreamt of my ideal man, hyun joong. I keep saying "this dream was the best dream i've ever had." because every dream that i dream about him keeps getting better. SO PERFECT. His presence was so strong, it felt so real even though i know its not... Everything we did felt so normal. He wasnt a celebrity, i was still a commoner. When i woke up, switched on my phone and saw his wallpaper there, i knew i was back to the real harsh reality. He's still a celebrity, & i'm still a commoner. No hope. LOL.

My whole dream felt like the drama "Playful Kiss". Not the part where he kept bullying the lead actress but the part after they just kissed under the rain, confess to their parents, go for their honeymoon etc. I suddenly took over the lead actress' part. What made me felt so happy was that i knew it was reality IN MY DREAMS, but Playful Kiss was just an act, with the lead actress. It felt so good, so warm, being protected and loved by the man of your dreams. HAHA.   

This is so awesome. I need more dreams about you.

현중 오빠야, 너 진짜 완벽한네요. 

I did nothing the whole day. Time just kept passing. Had porridge for brunch, and kept stoning infront of my computer, watching random videos on Youtube. I was too bored, so i decided to look up for new shows. & i found out that Yoo Seung Ho had a new show last month and is still airing, titled "Operation Proposal". Just started watching it 2 hours ago and am only at episode 3. Hehe, it's nice.

Went to the doctor's to get my face checked again in the evening. Waited for 1h30min. God.... So long. My mother went with me. & she was saying that she almost got gastric pains because of the long wait. I can skip a whole day's meal and not get any gastric pains so i was curious why she got it and asked. Her reply was, "You just wait. You keep skipping meals. Confirm get gastric." I'm like wtf? I don't get her. Doesn't she know that the mind is a very powerful tool? If she says she's hungry and MUST eat, she WILL be hungry and WILL eat. Everything's in the mindset. Therefore, i choose to think that I can live with one meal a day and I'm not hungry. I don't see what's wrong with that. -.-

I'm just sitting down here thinking how good it'd be if i could converse in Korean. Then i could go Korea and work and there would be higher chance of me bumping into a celebritity or best work for a celebritity. HAHA. I apologise for my hopeless dreams. WELL! A girl gotta dream big to be successful. Ok I think i should eat back my own words. Actually that's not really true. Words are kinda nothing without actions. 

Gah... I wished i could live in my dreams and never return back to reality. Isn't that like, death? You know, those who die in their sleep probably decided to live in their dreams! I think i make sense here. LOL. Wow i wouldnt mind dying in my sleep if i was dreaming about hyun joong. -OHMYGOD INSANITY OVERLOAD HERE- TOUCH WOOD I WON'T DIE IN MY SLEEP. I must see Hyun Joong with my own freaking eyes and go to his concert and get his autograph and all sort of nonsense fangirls do before i die. That is soooooo on my bucket list.

If you're wondering why I haven't seen hyun joong before, I shall tell you now. I have this weird sad fate with him. He always come to Singapore at the wrong timing. The first time he came Singapore was 3rd December 2010. I knew he was coming and was gonna be in Singapore for 3 days. But i didnt know how i could get tickets to get to see him because it was like an event held by The Faceshop. Plus I didnt know anybody who were friends with me that were as crazy as me about hyun joong. So..... i couldnt see him...

Then the 2nd time he came, was on 17th August 2011. He was also here for 3 days and the event was also held by The Faceshop. 17th August was a Wednesday! I had school! I couldnt go even if i wanted to because it was O level English Oral preparation period! & the day he had the fanmeet, which is 19th August 2011, was the day of my O level English Oral! God i felt so sad, because my new friend told me she had an extra ticket to see him and asked if i wanted to go.... Then dinar kinda made me even more terrible. 

On 19th Aug, he also went to The Faceshop outlet at Causeway Point. I assume Dinar lives around there because minutes before my Oral exam, she ringed me up and said "I saw your favourite idol! He's infront of me!" I'm like "........................" Was she trying to make me fail my oral? LOL.

Sigh. So yeah that's my sad story. Have been a fan of him for 4 years and I still haven't seen him. NOT EVEN ONCE. I still remember in 2009, when SS501 were still together, they gave out news that they were coming Singapore in December. I was pinning my hopes so high i could see Hyun joong. THEN, they just cancelled it. God what kind of fate is this. Sad to the max.

Nah, the next time he comes to Singapore, I'LL DEFINITELY BE THERE. I'll skip school if it's a weekday. I'll go alone if i've got no friends who are fans of him. I'LL JUST GO!!!! There's no way i'll miss you again. NO WAY!!