Despondence.

As expected, things were just bad today. The moment i made my first drink, i made a mistake. Instead of normal greentea, i made milktea. Yesterday Kelvyn kept nagging at me. Today Xuejun kept 'scolding' me. Wait she scolds me everyday. Maybe i'm not in a good mood. Maybe it's just me. Andrea and Amanda came today. It didn't make me happier honestly. Lol they and I were like in two separate worlds cuz i have honestly no clue what they were talking about.

I know many people think i'm just a rich princess that gets served by maids everyday. Yes it's true i have maids at home. So?! SERIOUSLY, ALMOST HALF THE POPULATION HAVE MAIDS THESE DAYS AND I CAN GUARANTEE THAT. I just hate it when people say such things to me. LIKE WHY? I'm still a fucking normal human being trying to fit into this fucking ugly world.

I have lots of things on my mind. Like yesterday, i'm still in a mess. I can't understand why no one understands me.

Impossible? Why impossible? You know all you had to do was to ignore her, ignore all her nonsensical teases. You KNOW she's teasing us. Why must you always give such fucking irritating answers that will ruin my day's mood? At that point of time i really wanted to know if you meant it. Like wts? You make me feel like i'm such a fucking loser that you would never ever fucking want in your life. Am i that bad, honestly?! I know i'm not be pretty, not charismatic, dont have the body, but i don't think i'm bad to the extent that you would want be totally out of your life.

Early in the morning, Aglin just randomly said, "I think -that person- has something for you." My head just went blank for a split second and then came back reality, only to realise that what i replied her wasn't the words i wanted to say. What nonsense is going on in my head? Argh.

I'm just gonna be quiet tomorrow. I'm gonna try and ignore the world tomorrow. Just stay in shanny's world. The boss can scold and nag for all he wants, same goes to Xuejun. I don't care anymore.