Non-existent

Friday the 13th is just a bad/okay day. I obviously had a bad night considering what i posted way early in the morning. Then, i woke up 1hour late because my alarm decided to take decisions on itself and not ring. I got a freaking shock when i saw that the time was 8.20am because i was supposed to meet Aglin at SIMEI at 9.15am. Gosh... Hurriedly bathed and stuff. When i was about to rush out of the house, i realised my mom didnt leave me allowance. She told me she was coming back home from breakfast already and told me to wait so she could fetch me there. -Heaved a huge sigh a relief-

When i reached Simei, my stomach hurt like a bitch!!!!! I couldnt even walk properly. Went to find a toilet and camped there for so long. LOL. Waited for Aglin at the busstop and we went to Simei ITE to meet our boss. We're gonna be working at a bubbletea shop at the school effective from Monday onwards. :) You know what? Simei ITE looks like a very nice school. Like seriously.... The workers there were entertaining. Jotted down some notes that i needed to remember. There is ALOT to remember. The boss told us to try making our own bubbletea so we did. The number of orders were really overwhelming and that really stressed me out alot. Left the place at 12 because it was time to go meet my NYP orientation groupmates.

Headed down to Cityhall to have lunch with my groupmates, saw someone that i didnt know. Apparently he is Andre's secondary school mate. So yeah, kinda made another new friend today. After lunch, we went to find Jun Xiang because his phone had no battery and Andre told him to meet us at the MRT, so all of us assumed he'd stay there till we come find him. All of us got a shock because Andre, Junxiang and Anis were all wearing red checkered shirt, UNPLANNED.....

We played 2 rounds of bowling! The guys were really good... :( Andre and Junxiang especially. LOL Junxiang was like praising me how well i was bowling because I was the best among the girls. I'm like "........ then what kind of scores are those???? -points to the insane guys scores-" Well, did not bad for the first round but got worse for the second round cuz i wasnt concentrating anymore. After bowling, we played pool. Oh my god seriously i improved so much. I'm so proud of myself. Hahahaa. The thing is! I NEVER EVEN WON A SINGLE ROUND. I dont know, it's just not my day to win anything man. I was always left with the black ball or 1 ball. So I was left with a black ball in one game, and the opponent had like 3 balls left. I kept hitting the black ball, BUT IT JUST DIDNT WANNA GO IN. & there was another when both black and white balls went in. I'm like "shit la what's going on."

After pool, they wanted to go slack at Esplanade. It was about 7pm that time. I was already 100% dead no joke. 4 hours of sleep is not enough for me at all okay. So i decided to go home. On the way home, i thought i was gonna faint or something. -_- What the hell? I just had the very faint feeling, like everything around me started turning. But duh, i obviously got back home safely.

I think i'm gonna get something sinful to eat after writing this post. I'm just not feeling good at all. Actually, there is one Leo characteristic that I 100% agree on. "Leos love attention." I realised recently that when people gives me the shanette-doesnt-exist feel, i just get all moody and irritated and i just lose myself. Seriously...... I exist. Sigh i'm so big in size and everything, but sometimes i'm just like a transparent wall. I DONT EVEN KNOW WHY AND HOW. When people think i'm invisible, i use the time to think why other people can have so much fun and laughter while i'm just sitting alone, feeling non-existent. I hate this feeling i hate this feeling I HATE THIS FEELING!!! I hate it when people compare me and someone else and that someone else has to be better than me. I feel overwhelmed. I feel like everyone doesnt like me WTS. I dont want MAJOR attention. I just wanna know that people know i exist. That's all lol. I've been feeling like this the whole day and I'm just in a fucking bad mood right now.

There will be more photos added over here once Andre posts it up on Facebook. Now, let's just deal with one just this photo because this was the only one which was taken by my phone.

Da checkered boyz

When i see this photo, i realised how well i can fake a smile.