No idea how tired i am everyday since Monday. Firstly, i can't freaking see clearly. So obviously straining my eyesight will make me more tired. Secondly, i've been working ALONE everyday except for Monday (and Tuesday but blah. newbies make things worse so i end up having to do all the work too). The boss helps out a little but i do 3/4 of the job, ALONE. You know how sad that is? I don't even have the energy to talk or laugh or even smile at the customers. Lol i can tell some of them wants to throw daggers at me. I really apologise. I also don't know what's up with my fatigue. It's just insane. I hate this feeling. Prolly because the world is so blur in my eyes right now and i really HATE THIS FEELING. Fucking can't wait to wear my contacts again.
Usually after my alarm goes off, i'll switch it off, sleep like 5-10minutes more then automatically wake up and freshen myself up. For the past few days i've just been really lazy and tired. So i just go to work like an hour late or something. Haha...
Work was busier than usual today. When i came in the morning, the place was empty and in my god damn eyes, i thought there was no one. But Chris was sitting at the sofa there. I seriously didnt notice until i saw something moved (lmfao he was flipping through a magazine) I HATE MY EYESIGHT!!!! I WISH I HAVE PERFECT EYESIGHT. I told Kel how high my degree was and he was like ' O_O LOL yeah you're really blind. I'm 250 and i cannot even see already lor!' LOL YES feel my pain.
He gave me lifts to the mrt recently too. You know, when you're with people like Xuejun and Kel, conversations will always go on. Either that or they will always start talking first, which is good for people like me who doesn't really like to start conversations unless we're high on sugar or drunk or just hyper. Sadly, Chris is like me. So everytime me and him happens to be on the same train on the way home together, IT'S JUST SO............... ARGH. Hate it. I think tomorrow's gonna have another round of awkwardness after work cuz he's working tomorrow. Sigh don't know. Oh well, on a brighter note, he got a haircut and i think he looks awesome in it HAHAHA.
Alright so dance orientation is in 10 days time. Yes it starts on my birthday. How sad/happy/idk(?!). They make things so crazy. 5 days of 1h30min body conditioning and then another 5 days of nonsense orientation. That makes my orientation 10days in total.... I'm gonna work before going to orientation from 23rd-27th cuz my orientation's from 4.30-6pm. So it's gonna be work and dance work and dance for the upcoming 5days. Oh my holy mama.
If y'all don't know, 23rd's my birthday and on that day, i only have like 6hours to myself to celebrate my birthday (lol wtf can i do from 6pm to 12am -_-) Zzzzzz i just hate birthdays. It's like supposed to be a special day for me but i don't even feel special at fucking all every year and it just irritates me. Why the fuck do we even have birthday celebrations (no i don't have one since 4 years ago). I like surprises and nobody bothers giving me surprises. I like presents but people give me presents that makes me show them the fuck-you face. NO don't get me wrong. I mean if you really remembered my birthday and made/buy my birthday present in advance and plan everything whatever of that nonsense of course i'll be touched cuz afterall, IT'S THE THOUGHT THAT COUNTS. I'm talking about those people who just anyhow do anything then "happy birthday here's your gift(rubbish)", worse still don't even remember my birthday lol. Even a baby knows how to do that. Fucking not special and i fucking hate it. Bullshiat hate birthdays.
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