Because it's you

T_T I love dramas, love lovestories. I'm such a classic fairytale lady. I don't understand myself. I really wish love in dramas are how love really is in reality, which is most unlikely to actually happen. Boohoo, just watched another latest episode of BIG and i'm like just BEWHEWWWWW where in the world do you find such a nice guy seriously?!?!? Wadafuck. Always fucking with my mind and my mentality of guys in reality and dramas. & I always love the sad OST :( I'm so crazy. I love Huhgak's One Person and Because it's you - Davichi. Really it's beautiful :'( Korean sad melodic songs can actually make me cry la.

Ok so i've also been reading 50 shades darker everytime i'm free during work. Like i said before..... Book 2 has more love and less sadism which i really love love love cuz he's just so gentleman and stuff and like the world's most perfect guy (again! yes even books drive me super insane. sigh im just crazy) Must be because of the book, i've had another Kim hyun joong dream last night. SO PERFECT. FUCK my dreams with kim hyun joong inside keeps evolving. I was actually his god damn love of his life and he was talking in English(I THINK? or was i speaking in korean. NAH i was speaking in English) and he was just such a perfect boyfriend. I can't believe we actually kissed. YES FUCK IN MY DREAMS WE KISSED AND IT FELT SO BLOODY REAL. I COULD FEEL HIS GOD DAMN PRESENCE. HIS GOD DAMN LIPS ON MINE. Ok my previous dream about him felt damn damn real too. Sigh HOW CAN DREAMS ALWAYS FEEL SO REAL?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!!!!! (ok cool down i think there's too many words in capslock heheheh....) But really la.... If i can ever meet a khj lookalike in the next 10 years you'll definitely be mine :B Maybe the KHJ in my dream is not KHJ and is probably my future husband/boyfriend/love of my life HAHAHA GOD KNOWS RIGHT?!!? :B omg i'm sorry. Can't stop everytime i talk about him OK.

I woke up at exactly 9 and i went like "OH NO 9?!" Cuz my work shift is at 9. Immediately whatsapp Kel to let him know i'll be more than an hour late. Only remembered that he told me his whatsapp is spoilt when he texted me to ask me where i was when i was on the bus. LOL. My anticipation of Chris' presence were so high. Working alone is really boring :(

My day actually started very well. I feel like i'm very bubbly today. LOL!!! Hmmmm cuz most of the customers were always happy and i kinda communicated alot more than usual. Sufficient sleep is so important, you see. :B I thought Chris wasnt coming!!! He came in so late, like at 1pm or something. YAY at least he came. Whole place became livelier and nonsier. 2 guys crapping nonsense.... Really very entertaining!!

After an hour later, Kel went for a swim and left the both of us in the shop. Chatted and stuff la. CHRISTOPHER IS JUST SO NOT A GENTLEMAN. Somehow or another he kinda has this girl crushing on him and pesters him everyday. Like his classmate and she always texts him the same 2 sentences. "Good morning. Are you going to be late today?" LOL he got frustrated so he ranted about it and then all those sorts of nonsense. Hahaha.... Then i added afew new songs into the macbook. One of them was super junior's new song, Sexy free and single. There's this part of the song that goes like SEXY SEXY SEXY. So Chris was like "Sexy sexy sexy. Very sexy meh?!" Just after he said that, they sang that part again. LMFAO. Joke. Then he continued, "Recently kpop songs very nonsense one. I'm still alive! I'm still alive! Of course you still alive you still singing what." LOL he was talking about Big bang's Still Alive. HAHA. Epic. Bloody lame but epic.

Suddenly there was this malay guy who kinda irritated me cuz he was ordering a drink (must be a first time since i haven't seen him before). He kinda flirted with me and made me dk what to do and all Chris knew how to do was laugh wadafuck. I asked 'sugar level?' He answered, 'can put more than 100% anot ah? like 200%' Obviously i said no then he was like flirty mood on and i'm like lol do you wanna buy not. Pay money also must flirt what the shit irritating bitches. Kept asking for my name and trying to dig for information. Ha ha ha sorry i'm so not a student of your god damn school. K la i know i'm not exacty very attractive but lol every girl has a right to tell guys like them to shoo away. Yesterday kinda happened the same thing but he was entertaining and didn't flirt as much as him so i didnt care.  

"Because it seemed like things would just end like this

Because it seemed like you would just hide
I keep looking, I keep looking at you like a blank fool

I’m afraid of my heart that is growing bigger
Again today, I try to ignore and pass by you but tears flow because it seems like my heart will burst.

Even though it hurts, I smile when I think of you
I can endure it, I can withstand it, I can"

-Huhgak's One Person

Honestly he has got his bad and good points. Sad that we can only be this much. I'm currently on my 3rd month. An infatuation lasts up till 4 months. Yeah yeah yeah i'm not gonna see you after this month anymore. Ha. So yeah it'll go away. Life goes on~ Just always looking forward to Mondays anad Fridays. :)