I'm trying.

Ballet was not so bad today. Muscles still aching like mad. Viewpoints was such a weird class. We just walked around the room in different ways and tempo. I felt like we're in some mental hospital. I mean i feel like we look like retards. -_- Had gongcha for lunch(hahahahaha) and then went to H102 for this debrief thingy with Miss Melissa. After that was contemp with Kuldip, a guest artist from the UK.

His class was very interesting. So interesting until he told us to do jumps/gallops. That made me stressed. WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Something's wrong with me and jumps. I need to get rid of this 'fear' of jumping in me seriously. The choice of music he picked were awesome. Note to self: I need to stand closer to people who would practice with me during contemp. Lol.

After class, everyone went into the toilet to change/bathe and almost all of them went like "THIS WAS THE BEST CONTEMP CLASS EVER!!!" I couldn't feel the same joy as them because i wasn't entirely enjoying the whole lesson. I got my reasons.... I don't know why i'm so lagged behind. The teacher went so fast and everyone could catch up in a speed of light. I just get so stressed up cuz everyone gets it so fast and the teacher would just continue on and on. I'm so used to my teachers redo-ing the movement again until we all get it. Sigh i need to let go of this stress i have in me. What's wrong. Nah it's just me. Hence... My emotions kinda got a little cocked up after contemp but all's well all's well...

Initial plan was to go up to the library and print our pictures for performance project. We bumped into Issac and Ruishan on the way up and Issac told us that the printer wasn't working. So all of us have to like go all the way to Peace Center to print it. Put our bags at D201 first before heading off. Edwin and Issac followed along because they wanted to get taohuey.

PERFORMANCE PROJECT WAS BORING!!!!!! I hate this shit i hate this shit. I almost fell asleep in the frass no joke. Ruishan just kept on talking and talking and talking and i was there like, "shit i can't even open my eyes entirely already how do you expect me to think. brain dead." Went back to D201 after our discussion and then everyone went to the toilet, leaving me alone. I was so dead tired i can't even be bothered to realise that i'm actually in a big room alone when everyone else were in groups. I just sat there with rebecca's jacket, attempting to sleep. Louisa suddenly came up to me and had a mini chat with me. Hahahaa cute moments.

Yay class ended at 7plus. Went bugis to have dinner with Cheryl, Priscilla and Jingwen. Was contemplating on going home but i didnt eat the whole day so... Decided to. Jingwen's forever hyper!!!! Where do these people get the energy to be so hyper oh my god. I think even though i'm 17, i have a soul of a 70 year old... I get tired so easily. That's so sad. HAHA..

While i was walking home, my mother suddenly asked me "You know tomorrow's the start of ghost month right?" I told her idk and then in my head i already knew what she was gonna tell me. She's gonna start nagging about what time i should be home and all that sort of nonsense mythologies that the Chinese believe. Seriously how much earlier can i be back? My school ends at 7.30... It'd already be dark by then. So to me, if i'm home by 8.30 or 9.30.. NO DIFFERENCE. Jingwen and Louisa were coincidentally talking about things related to ghost too this afternoon when we went to Peace center. I was honestly freaked out by Louisa's stories. If i were her i would have screamed like mad already. If i ever see someone that i do not know at all in my damn house at an extremely weird hour, i think i'll faint seriously. Seriously extremely spooky and freaky.

Tomorrow's performance project is 4hours . . . I really don't know how i'm gonna survive. Think i'm gonna buy some candies to chew on tomorrow lest i fall asleep.