TGIF!

I reached the train station so early today. At 8.10 i was already there when i was supposed to meet Andrea at like 8.20. She reached like 10minutes late. The train had some stupid issues and hence there was a delay. We still took the train till potong pasir and we couldnt stand it anymore because the waiting time was too long and we were already almost late for class. Texted Miss Melissa about us being late in case she marks us as absent. Decided to cab down to Jitterbugs instead. Our first two lessons of the day would be held there every Friday. There were no taxis at all!!! When both of us were stressing about being late, Andrea suddenly just "eh you wanna eat currypuff?" because infront of us at that time, was Old Chang Kee. LOL!!!! Made me laughed so much.

We were 20minutes late for class. Had body conditioning for the first lesson. My arms ache so much man. My triceps might actually just become harder after afew months. Hip hop was next. Did the 6step across the floor, left and right side. My left side sucks so badly... I blame myself for only practicing the right side last night. I was so happy that she said i had a great improvement on my right side. My hardship didnt go to waste.. HAHA. Of course i didnt do well for my left side. After that bullshit she taught us a choreography that i think was damn dope!

Before the class ended, she kinda grouped us according to our abilities in a way and i obviously was grouped under a not good category. Asked her personally about where i went wrong and she told me what i already knew somehow. She told me i needed more practice on my steps. My muscle memory is still not there yet. I can't get the steps right on the day itself. I have to practice it at least overnight in order to get it. That's how slow i am.... Wasn't affected by her comment cuz i already knew it >< My dear andrea was affected though. Sucks when a friend is upset and i can't do anything about it. Sigh i really suck at consoling people and make people smile. I really wish i was like Jai so i can forever turn a sad moment into a happy one immediately. I remembered how she totally just made me smile no matter how hard i tried not to when i cried. I need to be like Jai!!!! :(

Dancers went to have lunch outside jitterbugs while me and Andrea went to buy gongcha. Passed by adidas shopped so i went in. YAY i love cathay's adidas outlet! So big!!! I saw 2ne1 faces pasted on the walls tooo! LOVE THEM LOVE THEM YAY! I love big adidas outlets! Vivo city's one is even bigger and i love it even more HEHEHE.

Headed back to Lasalle after that and IT ACTUALLY RAINED. What a rare sight seriously~ Had this improvisation class that was super duper weird and i didn't really liked it honestly. I feel like Miss Melissa doesn't like to work with music. She prefers nature sounds somehow. LOL that's the feel she gives me. Even if she plays music, her music are like not exactly music. It just sounds like sounds.

Had an hour's break after improvisation class. Went to bathe and felt so refreshed! Ate sandwich at 15minutes cafe and then went up for performance project. Presented the research thingy that we were supposed to present yesterday but there wasnt enough time. I still have this fear of people staring at me. While i was talking, i could feel myself shivering. I shiver when i'm on the stage too. It's not a very obvious shiver but it still affects my movements somehow. This has to go. I think i need to do a research on how i can get rid of stage fright. I don't exactly have extreme stage fright but there's this fear going on inside every single time that makes me tongue tied or legs weak or something! Just now i couldnt pronounce the word "compulsory" properly and i had to say it like 3/4 times to get it right. So embarassing.

After all the remaining groups presented, we were given a new task. I had to come up with a composition(not writing composition but ...... just something la you go google it ok!) that have to suit his requirements. He gave us 10 requirements and 40minutes. Completed ours before the time given  and Mr Robert, director of the performance project, and a whole bunch of audience came to watch our composition. Seriously to me it was damn stupid. The whole composition of ours were so stupid but the audience liked it!? LOL made me wow. The group that performed after us had a very similar idea as us. We all went like "ehhhhh it's the same..."

Time flew by and it was already 7pm. Dayal talked alot of the boring stuff and released us at about 7.15. Went to have dinner with Louisa, Priscilla, Cher, Jingwen, Andrea, Edwin, Issac, Shaun, Amesh, Cheryl and Edem. LOL basically the dancers and the performers. The guys were drinking before even eating anything... Ate fried rice and some stupid lemon barley that didn't even taste nice. Totally not satisfied with most of the things i've consumed today. "Stole" a little beer from the guys. Andrea too. HAHA. I still don't think drinking beer can make you drunk. Never. Maybe if you drink like 1 carton, then MAYBE. Otherwise it's kinda hard to get drunk. Alcoholic level for a freaking beer is like only 5%... Cher and Jingwen kept "Andrea drunk already andrea drunk already." I was there like "..... LOL impossible yo."

It was already over 9pm but those people wanted to go back to the studio to practice their hiphop routine. So i followed along because Andrea aegyo here aegyo there tsktsk. Rebecca knew i drink the moment i stepped into the studio. I was like "whaaaaat is it that obvious..." then it strucked me that my face turns red very fast... HAHA. Stayed there for almost 2 hours and i had so much fun~ The hiphop teacher told us next week we are probably gonna do popping so i asked Issac how to learn popping. He's like damn bloody good at popping. Sigh i have too much loose skin HAHAHA.

Went outside and realised Louisa, Afiq, Shafiq and Cher were sitting at the bench. All were listening to Shafiq and Louisa singing. I love to hear live singing, especially when it's such freaking beautiful voices that i hear. Wow really eargasm. & Afiq was just ridiculous. He sings damn well too but he sat there and talked as if he sucked at singing. Luvenia's voice was damn beautiful too! She kept harmonizing with Louisa. It's just so beautiful to hear :') Love Louisa's voice i love her voice!!! Saher could sing damn well too. Priscilla suddenly started singing too and it was wonderful... SO MANY PEOPLE SINGS SO WELL. What am i really. WHAT AM I. Oh my god outcasted. Everything also cannot do. Can't dance well can't sing at all can't this and that and this and that, i don't wanna continue the list. I just don't know how to express this feeling i have right now. Almost everyone i know in Lasalle has something that they are proud of and is not afraid to show. I got nothing to show... Pathetic la really. I feel like i'm at such a different level from them. I need to start finding something that i can be good at... :(

Walked with Luvenia and Afiq and Andrea to little india. We waited for a cab for damn freaking long. Took us like 20 over minutes for a cab sigh. Told the taxi driver to go serangoon stadium area, he heard wrongly and thought i said Hougang stadium. Wtf. The moment he went past Kovan i immediately knew something wasn't right. The whole journey felt so awkward because the roads were so unfamiliar. So i got stressed up because it was dark and i couldnt see the streets very clearly so i kinda gave very nonsensical instructions on where to go. Then i think the taxi driver got pissed and started telling me driving theory. HELLO? I don't drive i don't know any shit he was saying. AND i'm your passenger which is also considered a customer considering the fact that i pay you for taking me to my destination. Customers are always right so what is wrong with his attitude? You seriously won't wanna offend Shanette or else i'll take a parang and come after you.

Reached home with no taohuey again.. I feel so cheated by my father. Don't wanna believe what he say again. This morning, he even told me "Eh i got one thing i say i wanna do but i keep forgetting." I asked him what and he said, "Taohuey! Nevermind i will buy tonight." Make me anticipate anticipate anticipate.... END UP??????? NO TAOHUEY. Angry. Bird. On. The. Moooooooooooove.

Right now, it's already almost 1.30am. I am suddenly feeling very tired. LOL I wanted to stay up. Cuz i ate alot. Think i'm falling asleeeeeeep.........