Up and down

 

I don't know what kind of day today is. Everything's so up and down up and down like a roller coaster ride.

 

When I stepped into the studio, Luvenia came to me and say "Omg do you know Rosa's quitting school?!" I'm like WHAT THE SHIT. I mean i know she's been thinking about it but i didn't actually thought she'd really quit. Like seriously why is quitting school even an option in people's minds?!?!?!? Ok so that's sad news early in the morning. BUT! Yoga was actually fun for the very first time ever! Very tiring but fun~ So it brightened up my mood. THEN. The moment i left the classroom, Andrea was like "Afiq's upset." . . . . . . . What. The. Heck. & there's this silent war between Jingwen Andrea and Edem so yeah everything seems to be falling apart for them and i'm just like ARGH. You know how affected i get when people around me are not happy.

 

Ballet was not so bad. Had lunch break then rhythm emsemble. Some people got chosen for the performance. Lol stupid way of picking people. The stupid teacher seriously anyhow point point point then get chosen already. Ok can. Mask work was after that and Harris got pissed at the dancers. Argh it's just so hard to act. Period.

 

Accompanied Andrea to Chinatown to get a new fan because Issac's friend broke her previous one. Ate mcflurry before heading back school. We thought we were late so we ran to school. BUT WE WERENT. Nearly half the faculty were not even there yet. Performance project was not that bad. Sigh my group is just full of talents. I have pianists, violinist, drummers, guitarist, vocalists, actors, dancers in my group. AMAZING SHIT i swear. The musicians were the most appealing to the eye because they could just simply play anything you ask them to. It's just amazing..... I really felt damn talentless. They were all doing what they were good at. Then Izzat suddenly say "EH DANCERS! DANCE!" I'm like "shit what no i got nothing to dance." Sigh felt like such a spoilsport but i can't freestyle... :(

 

After class, got very stressed over some school shit that i still can't believe. Seriously don't know what is gonna happen to my future. I'm just so scared right now and i really don't know what to do. Fml. Waited for the performance students to finish their talk with Jenkin and Dayal then we went to buy food together and went back to school. Afiq was really upset :( I could feel it. While we were eating, he was so damn bloody quiet it made me freaking uneasy... I sat quite far from him so i couldnt do anything but just stare and feel sad with him. I was like waiting for Jingwen and Andrea to brighten up the mood but actually it failed. IT'S JUST DAMN FRUSTRATING TO SEE YOUR FRIENDS SAD AND YOU CAN'T DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT OK. Seriously i don't know if anyone of you feel me or thinks i'm over exaggerating but yeah.

 

We were all sitting on the table at first. Me Andrea Priscilla Jingwen Shafiq Issac and Cher. Then suddenly Jingwen and Andrea went to the toilet. Cher went to sit in a corner alone. Issac went to the toilet. Left me and Priscilla, the quiet ones with Afiq and Shafiq. I tried asking Shafiq what happened and you know what he replied me?! "*Shows me 1/4 of his burger* You want????? Can't finish :(" LOL WTH. I tried cheering him up :( I even insulted myself to make him smile but it failed :(

 

They then disappeared for like 45minutes or something to idk where. When they came back, AFIQ STILL WASNT CHEERED UP!!!!! Super eflkjdfnjkecnqfkwej at that moment i swear. Then jingwen started to crack a lame joke AND HE SMILED. Oh my god i felt like the night sky suddenly became damn bloody bright. HAHAHAHA thats damn lame but yeah after that things became good. ALL'S GOOD cuz he started talking and singing to us and YAY everything's good!!!! I love you Afiq! (You won't see this but i'll just write it nonetheless~)

 

Jingwen and Priscilla left knowing Afiq's feeling better. Chilled and talked. I love our talks. It's so unqiue and special. Other than afew of us, no one else knows why Shafiq calls me Bakwa or why we call Shafiq Ketupat. LOL i just love hanging out with them~~~

 

I think Afiq was hungry at that moment. I don't know why he suddenly said my arm looked like hamburger. I thought he was gonna bite me but he ended up hugging me and thanked me for making him smile.(???) I actually did nothing... Boohoo but oh well. I think i need to search up on how to cheer people up when they are upset. Lol no joke. I need to start learning how.

 

Left school at about 11 again even though we planned to REACH home by 10.45pm LMFAO. My mother got my mood down because of her nonsensical texts. Seriously how can she expect me to hear my phone when i left it in my bag and it's freaking on silent mood? She think what? Me and her telepathy issit? She call and i'll know it's her so i'll answer immediately?! Argh. Parents nowadays really need to maintain.

 

Had fun on the way home though. I thought me and Shawn were gonna do the awkward handshake again. So i was kinda giving eye contact to Afiq to show him what i meant last week when i said Shawn and i always say goodbye with formal handshakes. But no! This time he did the cool handshake LOL what the i didn't expect it. First time fail, so we did it again and second time pass! :D

 

That's why i said today's such an up and down day. I really really really REALLY felt happy that the night turned out for the better. REALLY. Tomorrow will be a better day. (I...... HOPE.....)