What is this

I'm gonna be bloody honest with y'all. I have no bloody mood to post at all. But i figured i just had to cuz i feel like it's been quite some time since i blogged lol! PLUS my first 2 days of school werent good at all. Hatin my week already.

Andrea was late for like 30minutes on Monday. We ran from the train station to school because we thought we were late. Turns out we werent because the teacher haven't arrive. Did the qigong nonsense again and had ballet. Teacher didnt point me out as much but hmmmmm i know i kinda did alot of mistakes as usual. Went to bathe after that. Sigh i love music. It brightens up my day i swear. Every monday when we bathe, we'll hear awesome music playing cuz the Dip2s are having Jazz class. I was like dancing to the music myself in the toilet. Happy music makes me happy.

Had rhythm ensemble after break. Stupid class that produces the most noise pollution. Mask work was even more stupid. God i hate Mondays. Performance project was next. No comments. But i have a comment for this one person in my group. "If you don't wanna try and don't wanna help, and all you do is whine and act like a spoilt bitch, i suggest you just get out of the school. Cuz obviously you're in the wrong place."

Went for dinner at the chicken rice stall outside the school with Cher, Issac&gf, Louisa and Sonia. Chatted with Cher on the way home. When we reached nex, we went Mac and slacked. TALKED EVEN MORE. So many things to talk about huh~ Haha..

Today's just another typical day. Ballet in the morning, she didnt really pick on me today either. Lol very weird. Had this group discussion thing after ballet. The musical theatre students were selling homemade cookies and some delicious snacks. It was awesome. & they sang to attract crowd. Sigh they are so awesome :( Make me feel like a loser and shitty. One of them was damn pretty i swear i was damn attracted to her. LOL. Jealous of the performance students cuz they have class with the musical theatre students :( I ALSO WANT!!!! 

Asian dance was kinda fun. Had the 2 theory classes after that and performance project. Surprisingly performance project was fun today. We combined group with these group of music students and we're doing this musical chorus thingy. Damn fun. Although we haven't complete it yet, i'm glad that we're doing something with music involved.

Went home after school. Actually i followed the rest all the way to bugis, then i decided to go home. Shafiq's so irritating today!!!! Small eyes doesnt mean china eyes fuck. I said NO and he said Korean. CAN CAN lol. He likes my cheeks (WHY!?) AND HE CALLS IT CHINA CHEEKS?!?!?!? Wanna box him.. He totally just looked at my cheeks and went like "So cute...... -Does a super weird squishy hand movement-" Sigh but he always brighten up the dancers' sad and boring day... I thank god so much that I got to know him. Haha. I would've been more noisy if i was less tired/more hyper. But i was so dead and sadness building up in me while walking to bugis. & you know what makes me even more tired? The over hyperness of the people around me. God. Before they left, we did the goodbye hug nonsense that we always do. He hugged goodbye to everyone and when he came to me, he said GONG XI FA CAI BLABLABLA. -Inserts a punch emoji- No mood to entertain him but he still hugged me goodbye.

So tired. In those kinda mood where i don't wanna bother about anything. Life sucks. Why do some people try so hard, and they get no attention on them. & some don't even try and they get everything? Unfair life. Why can't we always be happy and never get tired of being happy? Why must we always find something to make us happy? Why can't happiness come find us instead? We can't keep chasing after happiness. I don't have the energy and stamina for that.

I want to make people laugh. When i see people laugh and smile because of me i feel super contented, super happy. I dont want to be an awkward turtle i don't want i don't want. Sigh what am i even typing. Sorry i'm too sleepy goodnight.