The gift of giving

Went to school at 11am today. One of the rare days where i get chauffeured to school~ Felt so shiok~ Haha. It was a slacky day until we started a full run of our performance. It was the first time ever that we did a full run. Sigh so tiring. Running around then whole school and doing performances where i look like i'm a calefare. Annoying or annoying!? Harris came down to watch our full run and he's just forever abstract. After watching blood diamonds, he told me and Lavanya that we didn't blend in with the rest and need to stop being selfish. I don't understand wtf he was talking about but I thought it was insulting because I really can't understand what he wants. I tried hiding my emotions but apparently i failed. I only wanted to let Ruishan know what i was feeling at the moment. But Afiq Tinza and Melvin kinda felt my sadness and i don't know what i should tell them. Maybe i really sucked. Oh well

 

After PP, went bugis to shop for white shorts for the fiqs and Andrea. The fiqs being drama mama everytime we do something nice to them... Haiyo~ What are friends for???? Bought dinner and went back to D201 and slack. Practiced Bajidor Kahot and felt so sucky because 1. I can't remember the steps well. 2. Andrea and Jingwen danced so well i look so stupid beside them. 3. Afiq and Shafiq were looking at us... Shafiq kept telling us to do full out and be in sync and what not. Made me felt so stressed because he made me feel like he's expecting alot from us and i was afraid to disappoint him. Like i'm always the 'black hole' of a dance... When they were giving comments to us, i know which comments were true and which comments were made just to not make me feel sad or depressed. But honestly it doesn't make a difference because i kinda know where i stand. Afiq: You can dance this so just put this amount of energy in bloody diamonds!!

 

After that, they started doing ballet and i fell asleep. Until so many other people came in and made so much noise, i woke up. It was Zavier and co. They were all having alot of fun and i started to join in too and Gangnam style started playing all of a sudden and we all started galloping. LOLOL (4 'ands' in a sentence, are you outta breath???~) Other awesome music started to play and we started to jump around like idiots to the beat of the songs. Oh man awesome night until i felt my nerve at my leg area hurt again, i stopped.

 

When we left the studio, Jingwen suddenly suggested we go in and crash their music and start dancing to our "Where have you been" choreo. So we did. Omg halfway through the dance, this Melvin suddenly asked me "EH if you can dance this, then why you can't dance in blood diamonds?!" I'm like "WHAT THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO REPLY????" in my head. Then i messed up the other half of the dance because of him. -_- Stupid blood diamonds. Stupid.

 

Went home and now it's almost 2am. Omg can time just slow down seriously... Thank god school starts at 12 tomorrow~ Can get to sleep in even longer woohoo~

 

I've realised the joy of giving. I'm more than happy to give even if it means getting nothing in return. I feel happy when i see them happy. Never felt such happiness in giving ever, in my life. This is the first~ I love my butterfly babies!! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥