Ding Dong

Argh. To be honest, i was preparing to go to sleep already. But then i suddenly had so many things to say. So i'll just blog. Damn I have so much to say right now. & i still owe you guy's yesterday's post. Sigh i hate queuing posts up.

 

Let me first say the thing that's frustrating me now.

 

Okay so I have this Christmas Party on Eves every god damn year in my entire life. When i was younger it used to be very fun, duh. We were so young and we could even play catching in the house. How can it not be fun? It was something that i always used to look forward to because I get to see friends that I only see like during festive seasons. But as you grow older, things start to get duller. So I stopped inviting people since 2 years back because I don't know how to entertain them. It's not like my house has a big pool for them to chill at or pool table for them to play pool. There's no turkey or teen games for them to play. It's just all very adult-ish and whatever.

 

MY POINT. I don't wanna bore them. So i don't wanna invite them. But they all are just asking for their own deaths. They come to me and ask me if they could come to my "party". Lol wtf. Ya serious? I'm dying to do something interesting and fun and exciting and there they are, asking if they wanna come to my lame party. Oh my god. Every year also same problem. I'm getting sick of this. It's not gonna get any fun unless 10 handsome princes turn up at the party k.

 

My initial plan was to just suffer throughout the night alone in my room, surfing the net. You know..... It's either I have fun or I don't entertain at all. Now i'm NOT GONNA HAVE FUN and I HAVE TO ENTERTAIN. Fuck my life. How am i not pissed? Also, I didnt do ANY christmas shopping at all. NONE. No presents for ANYONE because i didn't invite ANYONE. Lol come to think of it I don't think I should give. I'M ALWAYS GIVING AND GIVING AND GIVING AND I'M ALWAYS GETTING NONE BACK. Even if I've gotten anything, IT'S NOTHING FROM THE HEART. Bloody hell. It's so frustrating. FRUSTRATING!!!!!! It's like, I put in so much effort in a card or whatever i choose to buy for each friend PERSONALLY, and then they turn up at my house giving me chocolates. BLOODY HELL GO BANG THE WALL. NOW.

 

(Yes Christmas is the joy of giving. Yes I'm not complaining about GIVING. I'm whining over the fact that I don't get back the same amount of sincerity I'm getting from people & i'm upset about that.)

 

Other thing. If y'all don't already know, my clique has this CNE group on Facebook. So you know, if I have anything to share or any funny videos to share, I'd post there first before anything. WHAT KIND OF RESPONSE AM I GETTING? NONE. & Facebook is fucking turning into another whatsapp. I can bloody see who's seen the damn post. It pisses me off so much when I post something and NO ONE RETURNS A REPLY. IS IT SO HARD? TO JUST TYPE AFEW WORDS? Don't fucking understand. It's not only them ok. You know who you are, those who don't bloody reply. These are the tiny things that makes me shut myself away from people. I'm trying to share some joy with y'all and I get no response. OK FUCKING CAN. Next time when no one replies you, no one response to you, DON'T BOTHER ASKING WHY.

 

Argh angry bird. I'm so temperamental today.

 

Ok so on Saturday Me Andrea and Jingwen went to the Night Safari to visit Afiq the Kangaroo. Oh my god you have no idea how mesmerised I was with all the characters. They are all so cuteeeee!!! What's better is that they are the people I know!!! How awesome!!!

 

Didn't know what to do after that. Decided to go home. But when me and Andrea reached amk, we decided to eat again cuz Andrea's hungry. Went to KFC. Aw walking by those routes gave me so much secondary school memories. & Delin memories too. LMFAO hmm.

 

Had a h2h talk with Andrea. Lol no everytime we talk, it's always h2h. Hahaha. Talked so much and we kinda forgotten about the time. Left kfc at about 11plus and went back home.

 

Today, I went back to school to dance with Liqian. We did the Keep your head down's warmup and we almost died. HAHAH so awesome that's the best warmup exercise ever i swear. It trains flexibility too. Awesome? Yeah. We danced till about 4pm and we left. Did Hung Up and Jump before we left. Made me miss secondary school dance alot... It was so easy and there were no first position fifth position and whatever nonsense to follow... Sigh i miss those days so much i almost cried. I miss Miss Shining and her warmups... I can't believe Liqian remembered everything. I couldn't!!!!! But after awhile it came back~ Haha.

 

Went to somerset. On the way there, we bumped into this ex convict that was so irritating. Argh. The way she spoke to us was very rude and irritating. It was something to do with donation and nonsense. I don't mind if i get to choose any amount i want to donate you know. BUT THIS WOMAN. She was like "Y'all can share $5 each or $10 each or something." I'm just there like WTF FUCKING RIPPER. Obviously you can't do anything in such situations. I think my entire life I've been cheated of almost a hundred now already man. It's called DOING A GOOD DEED RIGHT? (pui.)

 

Had dinner at Pastamania and we sat there for 2 hours talking nonsense. Haha. Walked around and left for home after that.

 

Not looking forward to tomorrow. I think next year I'll have to learn how to lie.