So Fion came at almost 3. We did quite alot of catch up and then took loads of polaroids of the same pose because it didn't came out well. THIS IS WHY POLAROIDS ARE ANNOYING. You never know how the polaroid will turn out. Laughed alot too because of all the ridiculous moments we had. PLUS, i was high on chocolates sigh. Ate too many ferrero rochers.... (I'm still eating chocs right now. HAHAHA)
My clique came at about 7ish? THINGS BECAME AWKWARD. Actually I kinda knew it would happen la, why did I still let it happen?!?!? I actually thought I could breakthrough the awkwardness between Fion and my clique. But those kukubirds were having their own conversations between themselves, EVEN LEAVING ME OUT OF IT. I don't even know how to break it. You gotta think leh, it's like 4 people against 1 leh. Wth.
I got a shock when everyone of them came with a present. REALLY EVERYONE, even Amanda. That was the first ever present I've recieved from Amanda. YEAH IT'S CHOCOLATES BUT......... It's from Amanda. She don't even give presents.. Charlotte's present was the shock-est of all. She gave me a pair of fluffy portable speakers. SHE, HERSELF!!!!! Andrea gave me facial masks but she kinda spoilt it by telling me that it has been sitting in her fridge for almost 2 years . . . She does know how sensitive my face is right...?! & Jai of course, Jai is always giving me gifts lulz.
MAIN POINT IS........ I was in a shock. The year that I decide not to do any Christmas shopping, they all decide to buy christmas gifts and bla. Somemore everything was so last minute. Hmmmm or was it only last minute for myself? Lol. I was trying to recall what presents i gave them last year. Up till now I still can't remember except Jai's.
WHATEVER IT IS..... Thanks for patronising this party every year without fail. & i'll just probably go do some late christmas shopping. I can never stand taking and not giving. It's just awkward for me. Lol~
I was also shocked at my father's and mother's friends comments on me. They said I changed ALOT. So much that they could hardly recognise me. I know every festive season I get those comments but nothing as big as this year's. You know... I was walking up to this uncle, to greet him.
"Merry Christmas Uncle James!!"
-He was looking down and replying me- "Oh oh ya Merry Christmas WA!?"
That was when he already looked up and saw me. His reaction was so genuine I could hardly even forget it.
"Wa changed so much already. I can't even recognise you!" & he looked at my father and said how much I've changed. He told my mother too.
Most of the cases were like saying I've really grown up already... Then when they start observing me even more they said I slim down.... WHICH IS JUST BULLSHIT. LMFAO. This half of the year, I've been eating worse than a pig ok.
Those uncles were just sitting there talking about me, THINK I DONT KNOW... (They are not perverts. I've known them since young.) For a moment I didn't know where to go or what to do. I kinda like stoned in the middle of nowhere for a second. Then uncle Henry caught up with me & asked if I had a boyfriend. LMFAO I'VE NEVER GOT THAT QUESTION FROM THEM BEFORE. That's a first. & he thought I was lying when I said I didn't have any. Told him no one wanted me. Hahaha. IT'S A FACT WHAT. Is it NOT normal to NOT have a boyfriend?!?! Don't be so shocked la aiyo. Me and Fion will die with many cats around us. Sexy cat women... Right Fion? LOL. I kinda never gotten so much attention from my dad's friends before. It was always about Spencer spencer spencer. -.-
Fion left at about 9 and the rest left at almost 11. Dad's friends left quite late. I still feel weird not hugging my friends goodbye. Have I mentioned this before? I'm so used to hugging people now that when I don't, i feel so awkward. What's more is that they are my clique mates. Hahahaha NU we're cool like that. I slept at 12ish cuz I was too tired and suddenly my nose got itchy.
Da crazy pink haired Andrea
Then when i woke up this morning, I was in a shock at this stupid whatsapp group conversation that I have. It's understandable if they don't reply on normal days. BUT IT'S CHRISTMAS. At least have the bloody courtesy to reply a MERRY CHRISTMAS right?! Omg I'm just losing it man. Enough is enough k. If the people don't bother, I'll not too. You treat me like nothing, I'll treat you 10 times worse. Don't play a fool. To me, we're almost nothing without Andrea bringing us together. Really. & I've reached the point where no one in school is more important than Andrea. Everyone in school can just not be my friend anymore but not her. Yes I've finally said this. Out loud.
Feeling shitty for the whole day. Brother's been out. Mother and father having their own couple moments. AND I'M FOREVER ALONE. Fuck. Slept through my whole afternoon because I was that sad. Then my dad came in, I thought he suddenly had plans for us to go somewhere or what, but instead he told me to turn down the volume of my speaker because my music was too loud. WHAT!
MAJOR SAD FACE ON A CHRISTMAS DAY HOW SAD. David Archuleta's My Kind of Perfect has been stuck on my head for the whole day. That's probably my song of the day. I had a weird dream while taking my nap just now. What kind of dreams am i having!!! Tsk...
I thought of school too. Sigh only 1/4 of me wants school to start. I'm not prepared for the stress that's about to come, the unneccesary drama that's about to happen all over again, the demoralization that I'm gonna get. NOT PREPARED TO SEE ELIZABETH'S FACE EVERYDAY, NOT PREPARED TO HEAR SUSAN'S HARSH REMARKS. I just still wanna be in my own world.
Now i'm just gonna end this post, still not feeling any better.
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