Forever haunting me... Weight issues

Hello babies. Do you miss me? Yeah i miss me too. Sigh I've been terribly sick for the past 3 days. Yes including New year's eve and day. I really got a fever. Couldn't eat properly, my taste buds were just everywhere, making good food all taste like shit. Kept wanting to vomit everytime i eat. Hid under my blanket for the past 3 days and I really slept like the whole day. How scary... I think out of 24hours, I'm awake for like less than 10 hours. Well, today i'm feeling better. I can walk around and everything. It's just that my headache can't leave me alone!!! Right now as i'm typing this, i feel like somebody's using a hammer to hit my head. BOOHOO.

Alright I'm very depressed over my weight right now. Ok I don't really know if it's fats or muscles. I kinda think it's fats because.... These few months I've been eating so fucking much I can't even believe myself. I've been drinking fizzy drinks and eating so much chocolates and other unhealthy snacks... Of course so much fast food too. FUCK MY LIFE I CAN'T CARRY ON THIS KIND OF LIFESTYLE. Too unhealthy. Then I keep looking at myself in the mirror, I don't see that I've put on SOOOO much weight?! I can't even tell?! Sigh I can't believe some people even said I slimmed down. YOUR EYE COCK SIA. Wtf.. Sigh i really think I have that fatty genes inside me. I gain weight TOOOO fast. I kinda lose the excess weight quite fast too BUT STILL THE AMOUNT OF WEIGHT I GAINED IS JUST TOO SCARY.

Yes after seeing my horrible weight, I've decided to lose it all before CNY. Don't ask me how but I've lost like 3kg ever since 2 days ago. Lol but then it's currently not going down anymore AND I'M SUFFERING TO SEE THAT HORRIBLE WEIGHT ON THE WEIGHING MACHINE. Fuck no more chocolates no more snacking no more fatty food no more fast food. JUST NO MORE. I gotta see that weight lost by cny or else I'm just gonna cry like a baby i swear :( Yes i can do it. I did it last time and I'm gonna do it again. FIGHTING!!!!

School's gonna start in... 3 days!!! Lasalle's Open House is in 7 days!!! I'm so excited for school somehow. I don't even know why. Maybe cuz I can finally be active and not be a sloth at home. According to my timetable, I don't have ballet for the first 2 days. So many OZ rehearsals. I don't even know what's that. I can't believe we only got ONE lesson of hiphop to polish our routines for OPEN HOUSE. We're screwed. I'm just scared and we're just horrible dancers and we just keep spoiling Lasalle's name. Sucks to be us. :(

Sigh alright I shall end my post right here.... Need to lose all that excess weight need to need to need to!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!