Tired

Hello guys. You have no idea how much I hate blogging with my phone but I can't NOT blog so I'm here. Stupid notebook I hate you for always dying on me.

Alright. So the past two days have been.... TIRING? On tues, we had like 2 movement classes in the morning. Basically ballet and OZ rehearsals... Stupid heels made the balls of my feet hurt like crap... :( Plus it was eating into my toe skin because my feet is so wide. Then we had theory lessons in the afternoon. I'm so interested in this sem's Anatomy lessons!!!! It's gonna be interesting I can feel it!! Dance history was just bleh and TPM.... I don't even need to mention anything about it.

Went to Astons for dinner and sat at the frass to slack after that. Shawn came to join us awhile later. SIGH HE IS SUCH A CUTIE I SWEAR TO GOD. He's so serious in everything you can hardly find a guy like him I swear. It's so funny and he doesn't even know he's funny. The way he nagged at Rif... Couldn't contain my laughter. Best part was he kept emphasizing that he was feeling abit tipsy. LOL!!! His tipsy self is actually very cute. Torally brighten up my dull night~

Today.... The Latin shoes really ate my skin and gave me a freaking painful blister on my big toe. Up till now I really cannot have the feel for Latin. Maybe in the beginning when my feet is not aching, a little bit... But once my feet starts to cry, I can't have performance mood on anymoreee. Viewpoints was not so bad. Time flew by quite fast. Contemp was..... hmmmm idk. I think the new routines looked very nice... But I don't know how to do it Susan's style. She's too advanced for me sigh. Worst part is..... I'm so excited to learn from her but she's always giving me the "shanette how many years have you been dancing and why are you still so lousy" look. I don't know how to say la. When you talk to a person one to one, you can feel this very intense feeling from the person... Melissa does that to me everytime and right now I'm afraid of her lol. Wait Elizibeth too. SIGH MY LIFE!!!!!

I kinda know that its for my own good that they keep picking on me.... But..... I don't know what they are thinking.... Like are they testing my patience? Trying to chase me out of lasalle? Its not that i dont wanna think on the bright side... But what bright side can you think of? They are trying to make me the best? They have this certain expectation of me and they think I can do it? Why me? Right?

Elizebeth probably really dislikes me but she just doesn't show it. Edem hasn't been showing up for ballet for so many times last semester. He didnt even really knew his ballet enchainments. & he never ever took ballet seriously. Guess what? He actually scored 2 marks higher than me. Yeah it's just 2 marks. IT'S STILL HIGHER THAN ME. I'm definite his discipline is worse than mine since he has skipped so many lessons. So what is Elizebeth trying to say? She told me I had a tortured look during ballet exam. WHAT SMILE CAN I PUT ON MY FACE? She has NEVER ever encouraged me in ANY bloody way and I was NEVER EVER a very confident girl. How can I smile knowing that I can't do this shit well and Susan's just there looking and judging like nobody's business? Omg she irritates me so much. I really always try so hard for fucking ballet. and she always says it's not enough. Lol. Ballet is just, OMG fuck off

Research and writing was not that bad just now. Got stuck in the lecture room for 2 hours straight. Slept through the first hour and the other hour, I was being so entertained by Irfan's and Jingwen's conversations. They were so funny!!!!! Totally couldn't stop laughing at all sigh~~~

Went to Kungfu Paradise for dinner and walked around Bugis Junction. Saw this extremely cute pink Polaroid.... So bloody pretty and so bloody expensive. Took a photo and sent into to my mom with the caption "Love at first sight". She replied me with the price and I said yeah it was that expensive because its a limited edition color. Then she shocked me by saying that she'd get for me!!!!!!! WTFFFFF I WANT!!!! It's about time to change my lousy old Polaroid cammy already!!!!

Went home after that. Kinda dreading tomorrow cuz I'm gonna be stuck in that stupid lecture room for 4.5 freaking hours, STRAIGHT. Bloody hell.... But I'm excited for hip hop though!!!!! Wonder what she'll be doing ooOOOOoooo~~~