"Do you know what I mean when I say that sometimes I don't have any feelings or emotions? I'm not in a good mood, or a bad mood. I just sit there, by myself, and think. I overthink sometimes. I think about what has happened, what will happen, and what could have happened. I think about what's wrong with my life, I think about how I can get myself out of this stage, I think about why I got here in the first place. I think about everything and anything."
Went for operation smile yesterday. It was amazing. There were a few groups that really inspired me. Well in the past UTG didn't really caught my attention because TNT's stage presence was waaaay higher than UTG. But yesterday they were awesome!!! Especially the 11 year old boy. Omg I only saw him practice before. I didn't know he was THAT good. I should be utterly ashamed at myself.
Yoga was tiring today :( Hmmm. My focus level for ballet was top notch today I swear. Awesome or awesome? Everyday should be like that! Went to eat lunch and had boring rhythm ensemble. Animal work was alright.. G201's floor needs to be thoroughly cleaned man. It's the dirtiest studio I've EVER been to in my entire life..
I was upset for Asian dance. Today was the first time I did full out throughout the WHOLE lesson. I was even enjoying it so much. Then she started to teach us the ending for the dance. So i just marked through, and got scolded. (Fyi that was the only time that I marked through) WHAT? I hate it when things like that happen. The reason she scold me was obviously valid... But why was she so irritated? Everytime when I'm NOT doing it right, I don't get scolded, don't get picked on. Everytime when I put in full effort, CONFIRM GET SCOLDED. I swear it was only that step that I was marking. Omg I can't believe how life is going on these days. Just making me wanna isolate myself so badly. I'm probably already well known for always getting scolded in my class.
Can't live with such life I swear to god. This is too bloody unfair. Every class that I go to, not just lasalle, other class or even in secondary school, I try my best to be someone the teacher doesn't take notice of. BUT WHY?! EVERYTIME?! THEY'D?! NOTICE?!?!?! MEEEEEE??!?!?! HUH and it's not like I'm being called to be complimented. It's always something bad. I hate this I hate this.
Went home straight after school. Just finished watching Beyonce's performance at the Superbowl. She's such an awesome pawsome ohmygosh~ I'm forever jealous of her flawless legs. So long, so proportionate, so sexy, so fit, SO FLAWLESS. Rihanna's legs used to be like that, until she slimmed down and became so shag. You must think i'm crazy right. I'm not a fan of skinny chicken legs. I love females who have this V shape legs. It's so nice!! That's why I can never understand those girls ah.... Legs already so small, don't even have shape, and still dare to say they are fat. -_- Lol go eat bamboo k.
Heh feeling so good right now. I'll forget all my troubles for now. Yay SHINee for the win. My babies babies babies OHHHHH~ <3
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