Immobile

Okay, I got so caught up with playing app games and watching shows that I totally forgotten to blog.

So project week was totally not project week. Well, we do get lesser lessons, we get to sleep more. Other than that it's just equally tiring. 2 Albert lessons = 2 weeks of dancing. My knee was hurting so extremely bad during Albert's 2nd lesson that I made my group redo the exercise so many times because I couldn't do full out. It always hurt like 5minutes and then I can dance again. The pain still lingers but it's bearable.

After so many weeks of not having hip hop lessons, we finally had hip hop yesterday! It was awesome! Mycs did blocking for my group's item. AWESOME I feel so awesome... Except my solo part is abit rubbish. I still don't know how I'm gonna end it. Boohoo my knee started hurting just 30minutes after dancing hiphop. I was just praying for it to go away sigh :'( Improv was insane. We turned so many times it made me feel like I was on drugs. Had a terrible terrible headache after class.

I thought I was gonna be late for hip hop this morning but apparently a miracle happened.  Since when Serangoon - Dhoby Ghaut was only a 10minute train ride? I was so shocked. I looked at the time and went like WOAH YOU SERIOUS BRO. I couldn't believe my eyes. So yeah, was just on time for hip hop. She taught us another choreo. It was so smexayeeeeee. Sadly, my group only had like 1 eight of choreography. I think she haven't finished with our part. WELL HOPEFULLY. Because I think it's really too short.

I had no motivation to do body conditioning. Just didn't bother.... I told Miss Leia about my knee and she knows that we had albert's lessons. Then she said one thing that made so much sense. "Panick makes your mind forget all about your knee and feet alignment. That's why all your knee your ankle or wherever or like that." Contemp was killing my knees and ankles. I don't know what to say anymore. I wasn't even doing full out. I was just eating into the pain doing the routines. After class, I couldn't plie properly anymore. I was trying so hard to protect my knee, I probably used the wrong muscle to plie so now my groin hurts so badly too. F M L FUCK MY LIFE

This is driving me extremely mad. Asking your friends for help or advice is never a smart thing to do. I don't understand them. I asked if I should see my physiotherapist. They told me coach ling is good. I kinda totally forgot about coach ling so I text him this morning to book an appointment. It was already late in the afternoon but I didn't receive a reply from him. So I was quite sad. This Andrea then told me he might not be able to help me. I'm just like omg seriously? I don't know what's her point in telling me actually. C'mon everything has got 2 sides to it la right? I really don't know what to do tears just came out of my eyes. I really don't wanna know what's going on with it because I am afraid it'd be serious... I don't wanna sit out of lessons. Can I have a new pair of legs? :(

The thing with me is I always think my injuries are not serious and I don't need to do anything about it. Most of the time I just let it heal by itself and I survive what! But this is not happening to me. I am just getting worse day by day. I hate to exaggerate my injury. I just don't know how serious is it. I always think "Is it serious enough for me to talk about it or do I just shut up and continue dancing?" I really wish I had Jingwen's body... From sem 1 till now, she has never injured herself EVER. I'm so envious gurl

Having my period right now and am eating like a monster. Stressing out over my stupid injury. Lousy body LOUSY BODY GND BYEBYE