When i look at you

Ollaaaa. Reached school at like 9.30 today. We had Asian dance presentation today. Sigh I'm such a stressed up bitch... Everyone's presentations were like all up to standard and i felt like mine was just bullshit. Obviously la.. I really can't do presentations. I get all tensed and nervous and shit. I really just can't talk k. End of story i really hate talking. Then Gigi kept pointing out that I needed to have more confidence when I talk and stuff. I really do know confidence can cover up ALOT of mistakes.... I really can't :( I really don't know when I can ever overcome this obstacle.

Had albert's class in the afternoon. I was actually mentally patting myself on the head throughout the whole lesson until he started pushing like a bitch for the center split. I thought I was doing very well for this whole lesson..... All of a sudden subluxation happened. Omg I thank god when it happened, the exercise was already ending and my group didn't need to redo... I had like 5minutes to fix it back. I was so scared that it'd hurt throughout the lesson. Many say Albert will still tell you to continue class regardless of what injuries you have. THANK GOD. K that's not my main point. My main point was.... I was actually shrieking like a baby when he was pushing us down to our center splits. So painful.... I was already feeling painful and I wasn't prepared for him to push me down. HE PUSHED ME ALL THE WAY. Well my body is capable of going all the way. But.... The muscle is super stubborn and it doesn't wanna open up. That's why I felt so pain. Embarrassing shit I am not gonna shriek tomorrow. I AM NOT GOING TO!!!!

I can't believe I'm in the "gossip girl" realm. Lol a girl like me, that doesn't give one shit about gossips is actually being gossiped. I really feel like I'm a guy-gone-wrong-during-birth. Like mentally I think like a guy. Well at least 60% of the time.

I'm very drained out now. Hm gonna sleep early tonight hopefully. Wanted to sleep after I bathe but I thought it'd be too early so.... heheheh. I'm gonna go eat maggie mee byebye