Dance for life life life!!

SUP PEOPLE~~~

So I woke up at 10 on Tuesday, stayed home till about 3, couldn't take it anymore so i went to school. Unlucky me, I was stuck at dhoby mrt for a good whole 10minutes. Stayed in school for almost 2hours. Went to find Andrea and somerset. We were heading to Oschool. Alright so i stood outside Marche for like 5minutes while i waited for Andrea. & this other guy also stood there for quite awhile already. I didn't really know who he was I only thought he was familiar. Then when he looked up, IT WAS ALEX. (A schoolmate) I was like shit I didnt know it was him all along. Oh well~~~

Died in Allegra's class. Alright my standard's proven to be too low for oschool. This sadness is so overwhelming even up till now I'm still thinking about it. I mean I have NEVER came out of Allegra's class going "YAY SUCH A GOOD CLASS YAY I GOT EVERY STEP AND SHIT" Never. But that was before I started dancing regularly and stuff so i guess it was understandable..... But even up till now I'm still so........ lousy? Bullshit. The thing I don't like about Oschool is that there are tooooooo many good dancers. Almost everyone's good. There is this very strong atmosphere that makes me so stress like if i dont do it well i'm gonna die. I don't even know how to say it. I mean it's good to push yourself and all... But i think im not cool enough for oschool lol pathetic shit.

Meh while walking home I didn't even put on my earpieces because I was lazy. So thoughts came rushing in and OH NO i didn't like it at all. This is so bad now everytime I do hiphop I'll think of Mycs. WITHOUT FAIL like without fail. It's ok Mycs I love you and I'll always miss you until i see you again~~~

Met up with Yvonne on Wednesday~~~ With my apparent secondary school senior called Rauf. Yup I don't know him at all. I've never even seen him in my life! LOL. Initial plan was to catch now you see me/pee mak. But there werent good timings... Yvonne thought the Engwah cinema in Suntec was still there so we walked all the way there but Suntec was renovated and stuff!!! SO the cinema was gone.... So oh well. Rauf left after that. Me and Yvonne went Sakae Sushi, only ordered very little things because there were very limited sushi bluek. But we sat there for hours just talking and catching up~

Sat the train to Caldecott MRT to find Andrea. We were heading to support Louisa at The Final 1! The area's so deserted and quiet omg.... I don't understand why my mama wanna move there. I don't want!!!! SO INCONVENIENT FOR MEEEEE. Good for her and my dad both got car. I DON'T. Bleh. Nah uh uh i'm gonna convince her to stay at Serangoon LOL.

Saw Pris and Cheryl there! Yup of course they were there they are hardcore fans they go every week HAHA~ Amirul Afiq and Ariffin there too! I honestly think all the contestants sounds so much better live. Like live live, not TV live. There really is a difference. Never held a board for somebody before so awkward HAHA. But she sang Love Me by Collin Raye and I was really like awwww it's amazing~~~ Judges thought otherwise but yeah la I'm not a voice expert or what la can't judge. I just love how Louisa love oldies like me. Her ipod has so many awesome songs I can't even!!!!!! Farisha was awesome too her fans all hardcore (Afiq) HAHAHA.

Spent today's afternoon with Yvonne again~~!! Caught Now you see me and it's so confusing I don't really get the show but it's alright. Maybe if I watch the second time it'd probably make more sense. The ending was such a big twist I swear nobody would've expected it. I definitely didn't. Went to school to dance with Yvonne!!! Taught her Allegra's choreo. TELL YOU SOMETHING I AM AMAZING BECAUSE I'VE GOTTEN IT? Now i don't understand why I was suffering so much in class. Wadahell it's actually so simple? See it's definitely the vibe oschool gives you. Too stress.

Jingwen came after that and we just slacked in the studio till about 7 and we left for Danzpeople. I miss danzpeople so much you don't wanna know how much k LOL. Especially after confirming the fact that I'm not an oschool girl. Went to Jootz class for the first time today. Hahahaha he's a cute teacher. So shy and all but yeah because he's shy he's cute!! I HAVE FINALLY GONE TO KAYTE WILLIS' CLASS!!!! I am so in awe by her awesomeness and everything. After going to her class, my love for her just went up by SOOOOO MUCH. No no there's more to it..... SHE RECOGNIZES ME?!?!?!??!?!

Alright so she was playing the music and we were getting used to the music and all. Before she started teaching the next set of steps, she came to me and said "Why you so long never comeeeeee" -insert kayte's sad tone of voice- I got shocked for a second. I thought she was talking to the wrong person.... So i huhed her HAHAHA but she repeated and question except this time she said "Why you so long never come for classsessss" I told her I was overseas that's why i couldn't come. I know she said something at the same time as me. I think she said "Busy ah?" So when she heard me say overseas she went like "Ohhhh overseas -tap tap shoulder- and continued teaching class LOL omg -dies- (PS: I have not been to Kayte's class before and today's my first time so I'm so shocked she noticed/knows me hehehe)

EXCITED TO GO FOR HER CLASS TOMORROW AGAIN. But i'm pretty sure there's gonna be alot of people because..... Tomorrow's a Friday... WHATEVER~~!!! Yay Kayte ftw~~~

Yfest

"Cause sometimes you just feel tired. You feel weak. And when you feel weak, you feel like you just wanna give up. But you gotta search within you. You gotta find that inner strength and just pull that shit outta you, and get that motivation to not give up and not be a quitter no matter how bad you just wanna fall flat on your face and collapse." 

-Eminem, Till I collapse

Hello guys. Yfest is over and I am so sad because there's nothing else to look forward to anymore... Ok I need to get my head in this post because right now my thoughts are everywhere and I haven't sort it out yet. Like there's so many things I want say I don't even know where to start.

On Thursday, I had rehearsal at school for yfest. It was supposed to be the day where we go to the Esplanade outdoor theatre to do our spacing and shit. But the haze was so bad it got cancelled. So we ended up rehearsing in school for like 5hours straight. For hip hop, my soul won't die. 

On Friday, I went to catch World War Z with Jai and her sis. Her sis so funny. She reminds me of myself when I was young. When I was young, I needed to have this like "warming up" thing before I start talking to people. LOL when I just saw her she was so quiet and all but after awhile she started talking and making us laugh :') Because I felt like I was seeing myself, I tried my best to be someone that I would want others to do to me. I felt weird that day because I was the noisiest. K now i know... If someone is even more quiet than I am, I'll probably be the one making noise. 

World War Z was awesome!!! I mean I know Brat Pitt's awesome and all but yeah overall I thought the movie was good! When it comes to movies ah.... I'm more of the suspense, zombie, shooting, vampire kind of watcher. Not action and sci-fi kind of person.. 

Went to Thomson for taohuey!!! Been so long since I went passed that area (My secondary school area) It was somewhat nostalgic even though BPS looks as pathetic as ever.. WHOOPS hehehe. 

On Saturday morning, all i did was stare at the PSI rate, whether it was going up or down. Really felt like I was looking at stocks... If it was higher than 200 by 3PM, Yfest would be cancelled. So i was praying so hard it wouldn't be cancelled... God was indeed on our side!!! At 2pm, it went down tremendously!!!! So Yfest was still on. We went back to school at 4.30pm to had a last rehearsal and headed to Esplanade after that. I FELT GOOD AFTER PERFORMING. I don't really know if it was neat or what but I really felt good. I could feel everyone's energy and all. You know if you can feel the class' energy, nothing else matters!!!! Shafiq, Afiq, Ariffin, Amirul, Shawn and Rif were there!!!! Met them at KFC and we were making a din outside KFC LOL. WHY? Because the three chipmunks couldn't stop tease-praising me. & they imitated me like so extreme we all couldn't stop laughing. So funny omg almost died. I can't remember when was the last time that happened to us. Owell it was a nice short gathering anyway. 

Sunday was the last day of Yfest. I wasn't feeling as excited as I was for the first day. And after rehearsal, even worse cuz it really looked messy... I wasn't doing really well either. Confidence level dropped so much on the way to esplanade. CL's baddest female remix helped me alittle but still not enough. I felt like I gave my all during performance but when I watched the video it looked so horrible.. :'( Mycs still said we nailed it...... Don't know to believe or not but :( Compared to the other groups we're like . . . . . AYE bleh i need to stop comparing really but I NEED TO ok shut up shan 

I loved how we bonded with the seniors so much. Ok maybe not with me but as a whole we're kinda able to talk to one another now and stuff like that. They are nice people, really. :) Also, I think i really need to thank Miss Melissa for always giving the weaker ones in Dip2s chances. I would've been out a long time ago if she didn't gave us chance. I think the dip2s finally feel belonged in School of Dance. Or maybe it's just me LOL. . . 

I am excited for school to start but at the same time, I'm not ready for the stress and shit. I kinda have no more performances to look forward to until Orientation day which is like early August.... But.... yeah it's in school not very exciting. The next one would be the diploma show probably. Maybe a tad exciting because we get to perform jazz I think and we would be performing in the flexi(I THINK... LOL some theatre space in sch) Of course not forgetting all the asian dances that we would be collaborating with the performance dip2s. Hmmm~ Heheheh. 

I really hope I can be in Oschool's recital. It'd be an amazing experience i can foresee it. Well there are auditions and it is not easy to get in. But i guess no harm trying right..... Never try, never know. I am still not very happy that I have like one month of break with no plans. I CAN'T STAND IT. Ok maybe today I don't find it boring or what but I'm sure by next week I'm gonna complain non stop. GOODBYE I'M GONNA GO HEAR TILL I COLLAPSE AGAIN (such an awesome song)

D-7 till OFFICIAL holidays

Alohaaaaa~

As you can tell from the title, it's D-7 till OFFICIAL holidays. What do I mean? Well... After Yfest, I literally have NOTHING on at all till the 22nd of July. Yup I'm definitely going to danzpeople and Oschool to keep my memory going. I need to keep learning to take in steps faster. If I stop, I'm just gonna suffer when school reopens. I KNOW IT. Especially for ballet. I know like dancing hip hop has NOOOO benefits to ballet but maybe it might help me catch up faster? HAHAAHA fat hope la whatever I just wanted to make it sound like there was a link :B 

Had hip hop rehearsal from 10.30-3.30pm just now. First half of it was cleaned by Liyana. Then the second half of the rehearsal was cleaned by Melissa. I'm sad that even after polishing some parts of the dance yesterday, it still looked disappointing. Felt so disappointed with myself. 

I was happy I got to see this happy side of Melissa that I haven't seen in my life. But at the same time, she slowed down the polishing part a little bit too much.. So much that I didn't even know what I was doing. I had to keep doing like the previous step to know what the next step was. Like i needed a preparation step. I thought all dancers have that problem. But I guess it's only me. Everyone could get it except me. Felt so annoyed and the negativity that I haven't felt in so long came back. Hence I broke down in class. Like why the fuck couldn't I get it?!?! What made me NOT stop crying was because it was a bloody recital piece. Wtf's wrong with me.. Then also some of the details that were corrected were different from what I learnt from Mycs. Totally lost it. 

Not all was bad though.... In the past, Melissa would have already scolded me for being so lousy and shit. You read my posts you know how I said I'm scared of her.. This time she was so nice to me I didn't even know how to respond. She was actually trying to make the atmosphere better OMG. So I stopped tearing and concentrated on doing the damn step. Liyana helped too omg I'm so thankful. No really genuinely thankful. 

She also gave us alil heads up after class about year 2. When she said some people scraped through the year to get promoted I definitely knew I was one of them. Ok no I will not scrape through year 2 lol. Fuck I shouldn't say this too early I am not prepared yet and I'm actually quite scared. She said she's gonna get our jazz teacher to drill us alot on technique. Sigh then what joy would I ever get from this.. I need to find back joy. I need to go to outside classes because it really gives a different atmosphere. I know I say this alot and I know some of you will never ever get it. Like you'll say "dance means dance la you like dance what." I really ENJOY when I'm outside of school learning choreographies. No even if I don't get it I still love the ambience. Like everyone is happy and everyone enjoys what they are doing.

I miss recital days so much... I miss Mycs EVEN MORE T_T Don't even dare to tell her because yeah lol. I wished she was there while we were polishing with Melissa... SIGH MYCS I MISS YOU I HOPE YOU CAN FEEL ME TYPING THIS OUT. 

Ok moving on.. Went to meet my clique at night for dinner and a movie. A pity tiny Andrea couldn't make it... If not it would have been the full clique.. I missed them so much. Sigh so much laughters here and there. Lucky me to have friends that are still the same even after so many years. We still have things to say to each other even though all of us are doing different courses, in different schools.. Jai even came down all the way from Woodlands to Dhoby just to meet us even though it was her exam week. I love all of you... I can never ever be as comfortable to anyone as I am to y'all... Ate at Ichiban sushi and watched Man of Steel. Guys if you haven't heard me say this, I'm gonna say it now. SUPERMAN IS FOREVER HANDSOME. BATMAN TOO. These 2 super heroes... I can never ever stop complimenting them. FOREVER HANDSOMEEEEE! 

Rushed the mrt cuz it was almost 12 already. Reached home super fast wow haha. Alright I'm gonna go shopping with mum mummy tomorrow. Have yet to decide where though... I think I'm spending way too much... BUT IDK ON WHAT. Food I think.... Must be. Sigh I need so many things. First on list is definitely my MacBook. Second would be new clothes for the new semester. Third.. hmmmm money to pay for outside dance classes. This very important HAHA.. Gah ima money spender. Sigh sigh 

Alright gonna end my post here.. IT'S ALREADY 1.25 AYE IM SUPER SLEEPY BUT I FEEL LIKE I HAVEN'T DO SO MANY THINGS. 

New zealand 2013

OK HI GUYS I'M BACK FROM THE AWESOME NEW ZEALAND. 

Alright actually I didn't do much things over there. BUT THE MAIN POINT IS....? I get to get out of the extremely hot and extremely air-polluted Singapore. & enjoy freaking 0-5 degrees every single day. 

Sat for like almost 11hours in the plane. Slept for only like 2hours and couldn't sleep after that... Daddy la... Suddenly shook my leg or something so I woke up.. Reached New Zealand at 5.30AM SG time. It was already like 9.30AM over at NZ. The air over at NZ IS AMAZING. I can't even explain how PURE it felt. So good I can breathe in for forever HAHA. Went over to this place called Antarctica. We sat on this ride called Hagglund. SUPER FUN AND JERKY BUT FUN HAHA. It's this car-lorry looking vehicle that drives up all the bumps and slopes and even in the water!!! & it goes super fast. SO FUN. It was almost like a mini roller coaster ride except they didn't prepare our hearts for the sudden drops and shit. & then I experienced this snow storm!!!! OMG It was so cold I almost died. They provided us with jackets la, but..... STILL FREAKING COLD HAHAHA.. 

Went to see birds after that. ER DONT EVEN KNOW WHY LOL. All the birds were so FAT FAT FAT AND FAT.. Basically all the animals I saw over at NZ were all freaking fat. The sheeps there are SOOOOOO BOUNCY AND FAT AND ROUND. Goodness I got to touch them and feed it. Freaking amazing how fat they were. Fattest sheeps I've seen in my life! These 2 Labradors that I saw were freaking fat too. Gosh~~!!! I mean I know they living thru winter so yeah it's fat but..... Not like I've not seen other dogs and animals in the winter country. NZ's animals are FAT. 

Saw loads of beautiful sceneries and  lakes and stuff. SUPER BEAUTIFUL. Basically this whole trip we didn't spend it near the city area. We were always near mountains. Well we were at Christchurch for 2 nights... I felt like I lived there because we were strolling in gardens and watching NZ students having PE in the cold weather. Then we even went to a FREAKING HUGE supermarket (definitely bigger than the big Giant in SG) to get some food so we won't get "killed" by western food. I've come to know that I'm not a western food person. I mean yeah maybe I can eat it from time to time but if I eat it everyday.... I MIGHT DIE. 1. Obese. 2. BREAD BREAD BREAD AND MORE BREAD. Fish and chips are everywhere. AND THEY ONLY HAVE FISH AND CHIPS. 

Standard of living's really high over there. One sandwich can cost up to about $7 and I'm not even talking about those fanciful sandwiches. Just normal sandwiches. Fish and chips ranging from $10-20. NOPE NOT FANCY PRETTY FISH AND CHIPS. Literally just one fried fish and ALOT of fries. 1 bottle of mineral water cost up to about $3-4. MINERAL WATER. One KFC Burger costs like $9!?!    Starbucks there is cheap though. I think it's like a buck cheaper or afew cents HAHA. While we were at queenstown, lucky us because it's a tourist spot so there were many different cuisines. Korean Chinese Indian Thai everything LOL. A packet of fried rice/fried noodles can cost up to about $20. Bascially we didn't eat any western food while we were at Queenstown. HAHA except for breakfast... Which we skipped a day. So sick breakfast's the worst. Everyday same thing. Different hotels yet they serve the same thing. Bluek. 

Something that I found fascinating was that... Along the roads there would be alot of grasslands. The place so big, but there are no houses around like no one lives near those grasslands. Yet there are SO MANY random sheeps and cows and pigs and deers everywhere. Like I don't get how they survive! Literally one patch of grass, and they are there. Feels like the PSP game that I used to play... Erm It's called Harvest Moon. HAHAHA BUT Harvest Moon you still need to feed and stuff. This one?! LOL eat grass. 

OH THE BEST EXPERIENCE EVER... A cat came to our hotel's balcony at one of the nights. It was so FAT!!!!!! It was so huggable and shit I didn't bear to let it go. Daddy fed his KFC burger to her! So we let her into the room and closed the door. But after awhile she wanted to go so we let her... But she came back!!! She stood outside the door like she's scared but after awhile she just came into the hotel room willingly!!! Spencer put the extra woolly blanket beside our beds so she could sleep. HAHA definitely enjoyed her stay in our room man this cat. I had this special connection with this cat. HAHA I sound stupid but really. Her gaze was so freaky. It was as if she knew who I was. She got so comfortable with us in such a short time I felt so happy :') What are the odds of having a cat in your hotel room!?!?!?!? AWESOME!!!

Sigh sat on the plane for another 11hours to fly back to Singapore. So uncomfortable my head kept dropping. Yeah smartypants me put my head rest in the luggage. HAHAHA... Our flight was 10.50am in the morning. Reached Singapore 10PM NZ time. But Singapore was only like 5PM. Oh my god we lived through an extra 3hours yesterday. The moment I stepped out of the plane, I could already feel the intense heat. I think the airport's supposed to be colder BUT I COULDNT EVEN FEEL ANYTHING. All I felt was humidity and YEAH HOT. Plus I was wearing a hoodie-like pullover. GAH. Stepped out of the airport I ALMOST DIED. WHAT KIND OF AIR IS THIS WHAT KIND OF WEATHER IS THIS. LOL Stupid shit Singapore you suck you better move yourself to a better location. I appreciate that Singapore is very small and like everywhere is so convenient and all.... BUT NO THE WEATHER IS HORRIBLE NO WEATHER IS VERY IMPORTANT TO ME. 

Photos are so ugly I can't even.... Who's the photographer? My daddy. Sigh he just anyhow snap only. I picked out the few that look not so bad. Still thinking if I should post on Facebook. I think no need la not like anyone will see. My blog's for memory sake so I bother posting. HAHA Eh rubbish this is the first time I actually post my photos :B 

Better quality photos are taken by camera. Lousy quality photos are taken by my phone HAHA.

FAT BIRD. 

Pretty solo swan owning the pond swimming up and down where there are people. 

Lol this bird attitude ah LOL 

   

This fatty labrador loved daddy so much he kept following him around HAHA 

Random deers. 

It's called Cemetery road because there really was a cemetery there.

PRETTY OR PRETTY? 

Look at daddy's epic fail shots of us.... 

 

What the hell... LOL 

Our backshots ended up looking better. 

Luge ride in the extreme cold!!!! DAMN SHIOK. AND CHEAP

 

So many ducks~

FATTY SHEEPS!!!! SO FAT AND ROUND AND BOUNCY!!!

This dog's personality reminded me of Latte so much!!! 

Daddy and spencer feeding ducks LOL

IT'S REAL I DIDN'T TAKE THIS FROM GOOGLE HAHAHA

  

WHEEE Spencer makes me feel so small (when in actual fact I'M NOT LOL) 

The kitty who paid our hotel a visit at night!!!! SO FAT AND CUDDLY!!!!!