D-7 till OFFICIAL holidays

Alohaaaaa~

As you can tell from the title, it's D-7 till OFFICIAL holidays. What do I mean? Well... After Yfest, I literally have NOTHING on at all till the 22nd of July. Yup I'm definitely going to danzpeople and Oschool to keep my memory going. I need to keep learning to take in steps faster. If I stop, I'm just gonna suffer when school reopens. I KNOW IT. Especially for ballet. I know like dancing hip hop has NOOOO benefits to ballet but maybe it might help me catch up faster? HAHAAHA fat hope la whatever I just wanted to make it sound like there was a link :B 

Had hip hop rehearsal from 10.30-3.30pm just now. First half of it was cleaned by Liyana. Then the second half of the rehearsal was cleaned by Melissa. I'm sad that even after polishing some parts of the dance yesterday, it still looked disappointing. Felt so disappointed with myself. 

I was happy I got to see this happy side of Melissa that I haven't seen in my life. But at the same time, she slowed down the polishing part a little bit too much.. So much that I didn't even know what I was doing. I had to keep doing like the previous step to know what the next step was. Like i needed a preparation step. I thought all dancers have that problem. But I guess it's only me. Everyone could get it except me. Felt so annoyed and the negativity that I haven't felt in so long came back. Hence I broke down in class. Like why the fuck couldn't I get it?!?! What made me NOT stop crying was because it was a bloody recital piece. Wtf's wrong with me.. Then also some of the details that were corrected were different from what I learnt from Mycs. Totally lost it. 

Not all was bad though.... In the past, Melissa would have already scolded me for being so lousy and shit. You read my posts you know how I said I'm scared of her.. This time she was so nice to me I didn't even know how to respond. She was actually trying to make the atmosphere better OMG. So I stopped tearing and concentrated on doing the damn step. Liyana helped too omg I'm so thankful. No really genuinely thankful. 

She also gave us alil heads up after class about year 2. When she said some people scraped through the year to get promoted I definitely knew I was one of them. Ok no I will not scrape through year 2 lol. Fuck I shouldn't say this too early I am not prepared yet and I'm actually quite scared. She said she's gonna get our jazz teacher to drill us alot on technique. Sigh then what joy would I ever get from this.. I need to find back joy. I need to go to outside classes because it really gives a different atmosphere. I know I say this alot and I know some of you will never ever get it. Like you'll say "dance means dance la you like dance what." I really ENJOY when I'm outside of school learning choreographies. No even if I don't get it I still love the ambience. Like everyone is happy and everyone enjoys what they are doing.

I miss recital days so much... I miss Mycs EVEN MORE T_T Don't even dare to tell her because yeah lol. I wished she was there while we were polishing with Melissa... SIGH MYCS I MISS YOU I HOPE YOU CAN FEEL ME TYPING THIS OUT. 

Ok moving on.. Went to meet my clique at night for dinner and a movie. A pity tiny Andrea couldn't make it... If not it would have been the full clique.. I missed them so much. Sigh so much laughters here and there. Lucky me to have friends that are still the same even after so many years. We still have things to say to each other even though all of us are doing different courses, in different schools.. Jai even came down all the way from Woodlands to Dhoby just to meet us even though it was her exam week. I love all of you... I can never ever be as comfortable to anyone as I am to y'all... Ate at Ichiban sushi and watched Man of Steel. Guys if you haven't heard me say this, I'm gonna say it now. SUPERMAN IS FOREVER HANDSOME. BATMAN TOO. These 2 super heroes... I can never ever stop complimenting them. FOREVER HANDSOMEEEEE! 

Rushed the mrt cuz it was almost 12 already. Reached home super fast wow haha. Alright I'm gonna go shopping with mum mummy tomorrow. Have yet to decide where though... I think I'm spending way too much... BUT IDK ON WHAT. Food I think.... Must be. Sigh I need so many things. First on list is definitely my MacBook. Second would be new clothes for the new semester. Third.. hmmmm money to pay for outside dance classes. This very important HAHA.. Gah ima money spender. Sigh sigh 

Alright gonna end my post here.. IT'S ALREADY 1.25 AYE IM SUPER SLEEPY BUT I FEEL LIKE I HAVEN'T DO SO MANY THINGS.