Inspired yet sad

Bleh refused to blog because I didn't want my last Mycs post to be covered by this current post... Hahaha oh well life goes on so my blog has to go on too.

I just came back from Bangkok. Before that life wasn't that fun and happy la. Felt very empty at some point of my day everyday... Went to Danzpeople on Tuesday and yup definitely very empty.. There were no more recital rehearsals and worst of all, Mycs wasn't thereeeee. Sobs. Was watching Kayte's class from outside and I really wanna join her class!!!! I will!!! Soon!!! Hopefully tomorrow but idk maybe it clashes with school boohoo :(

Ok so initially, we were supposed to go for Desiree's class. But i kinda felt bad for Andreas BLEH... When he came, he kept smiling at me and Jingwen. LOL he even "yo~" me with his diva-ness. Ok at danzpeople, you have to like write your name down under whoever's class you're going for. Andreas' column was pretty empty. Went into the counter area and he still smiled at us and stuff... Jingwen can't help but feel bad that we're not going for his class. SO... Since I wasn't feeling very jazzy that night, I decided to go for Andreas' class instead. Hahaha.... I really can't get how Andreas always dances like he's flying!!!! It's amazing how light he looks when he dance.

Alright so on Wednesday I finally went out. Went to ECP with Jai~~~ Haha cycled for like 2hours and slacked at the beach for awhile... Beside us, there was this aunty that couldnt stop doing acrobatics. Or was she dancing??? LOL idk. Super funny... Me and Jai kept saying she was the "yolo aunty". I suddenly wanted to dance so I did. YOLO WHAT RIGHT??? HAHAHA. It looked so fun to dance on the sand. I thought it'd be easy BUT IT WASNT. I couldn't do full out because I was so afraid I'd trip. Or fall down or you know miss my step or something. Sand obviously not same level right... It was fun though hehe..

Had rehearsal on Thursday for the NAC performance tomorrow and Friday. Woke up just in time for school. Went to danzpeople first to get Jingwen's adidas bag that she left on Tuesday. After rehearsal, went to have dinner and headed home straight. Felt very out of the world that day. Gah like I said, there were my empty moments at some point of my day everydayyyyy.

Slept for like an hour before heading to the airport at like 5 in the morning... Super tired. Had breakfast at cbtl and thought of Mycs... Cuz before she left, she told me she loved coffee bean's bagels :O LOL random but yeah. So now everytime I eat their bagel, I'm gonna think of Mycs man...

Slept throughout the plane ride. Super duper uncomfortable because I didn't get the window seat. Couldn't lean on the side of the plane to sleep. Was literally putting my whole head weight on that lousy head rest. Touched down and had a super uncomfortable taxi ride to the hotel. What the hell cheat money please. Since when did taxis in Thailand cost so much?! From airport to MBK, it was 1259THB... WTH that's equivalent to approx. 50bucks in Singapore. WHAT THE HECK MAN.

Ok we couldnt have access to the hotel room yet at 11am so we went to mbk to have lunch and walk around. At about 3 we went back to the hotel and slept till 5.30 LOL... Dead tired. Shopped and had dinner after that. That was end of day 1 slacky and relaxing.

The rest of the days were all eat shop sleep shit. So yeah nothing much to talk about. I think I'm pretty lucky this trip considering the fat that I've bumped into afew cute looking thai guys~~~ There was this one person that resembled Kai so much!!! Of course Kai is way handsome but there's still this resemblance!! His voice was super low and it doesn't match his face. Weehee he served me so well while I was at the restaurant HA! But didn't buy much this trip. Boohoo nothing really caught my attention.

I was so deprived of dancing during the trip. I missed dance so much I kept thinking how I can dance more when I'm back in Singapore. Feeling like a fat piece of fuck. Not like I gained any weight while I was in Thailand (THANK THE LORDS!!!!!!) But the feeling of not moving and just eating all day long is just BLEH. I am still so sad over the fact that I have nothing to look forward to after Yfest.... Hmmm this sadness :( Thinking of paying $135 for unlimited classes at Danzpeople. I mean I have nothing to do... No money to shop... All my friends are gonna have school/work... I don't wanna rot at home :'(

Went to school in the afternoon for the NAC performance day 1. Saw my 3 secsch juniors haha.. So i heard they were asking around for me. -Feeling popular for once in my life- Miss Melissa was telling the kids about the career paths of a dancer and networkings and stuff like that. It made so much sense and I thought it was actually helpful. I've never heard her say anything like this before... LOL and I love my seniors' take on a dancers' life. It was sooooooo TRUEEEE. You guys just don't know how we feel as a student taking a dance course. You think what we everyday play play have fun dance dance ah? So easy everybody also become dancer already. We dance everyday yes we love it it's our passion but dance has already become our life. There are days where we question ourselves why we are doing these

Went to have my breaklunner and then to danzpeople. Wanted to go for Kayte's class but apparently her class was cancelled cuz she was auditioning for Rie Hata! Me and Jingwen sat outside and watched the whole class. They are so powerful, so impactful, so swagtastic even when they were marking. Gawd totally in aweeeee. Kayte did so well but she felt so disappointed in herself.... Oh ma god speechless.

Why must Desiree and Andreas' class clash!!!! I would go for both if their timings weren't the same T_T Went for Andreas' class and I felt alittle bit.... LOUSY T_T Andreas has this style of his own that only he can do it so well. I mean I always try to copy him but i'm such an epic fail. Today he did this super Andreas style move and I literally spent the whole class trying to figure out how to do that damn move. Like HIS STYLE. -Fail- But overall it was still okay I guess.. After class, had like a short bonding session with Andreas haha. Went off when he told me Jingwen was waiting outside.

Bleh making me feel so sad right now cuz I'm travelling at the wrong time. AYE no not the wrong time it's just..... TOO MANY THINGS HAPPENING AT THE TIME THAT I'M GONE. I wanna watch the battle of the choreographers... I would've just gone for the Rie Hata's audition just to have a feel of what it is. (I know I'm not good enough yet anyway) I wanna watch their showcase too. I wanna watch this ballet/contemp show that Jingwen is in... I would just go for the sixteen challenge audition too for the fun of it... I wanna go for Kayte's freaking class!!!!!!! FAAAAAG STUPIAK LA. Desperately searching for events that would happen in July but nothing's up yet.

K i'm gonna go eat apple now byebye.