Gosh. I've been hearing old national day songs and it brought back so much childhood memories. Like those kindergarten days where we'd sing our national day songs freely and soulfully without worrying being judged. All we had to do was enjoy the companion of your friends teachers and family. Then moving on to primary school, we'd practice singing new theme songs and then making fun of the lyrics of the old national day songs just for joy and laughter.
I miss it :'( I miss being a kid... I miss not having to think of anything but homework and grades. I miss playing catching and running all over the school. I miss primary school so much it hurts. Yeah you guys must think I'm crazy cuz most people would miss secondary school more than primary yeah. Nah I feel like I was more myself when I was in primary school. I didn't even need to think who hated me or who liked me. All I ever look forward to was recess, catching with my best buds, making fun of guys, passing notes in class, copying homework late minute from friends, comparing grades with Dennis....
When the bell rings for recess, me and my primary school group would be the first to run out of class and to the basketball court. Whoever was the last to reach would be the catcher. LOL yeah we don't eat during recess everyday. While others were playing soccer and basketball, we just ran across all of them with all our might just to not get caught. Those pure and innocent days....... I MISS THIS SO MUCH OMG BIG SHOUT OUT TO CRYSTAL CHARMAINE TRUDY CHOOLIN DENNIS YIJIAN NATHALIE SEBASTIAN JONATHAN I WILL NEVER EVER IN MY LIFE FORGET YOU GUYS NEVER.
My memory's so good i can remember things happened as old as 15 years ago. Yeah like how I cried nonstop everyday when my parents dropped me off at the childcare centre even though I knew Fion(Lee) was there. BUT WE WERE IN DIFFERENT CLASSES that's why I was so sad. & I still remember this one time when it was naptime, AND I WAS THE ONLY STUPID KID THAT OVERSLEPT. Like everyone else were eating their teabreak and i was still there lying on my baby mattress..... LOL sigh shan once a pig, always a pig... HAHA please don't find me weird for remembering details on things that happened 15 years ago. I'm not weird, my memory's just super good when it comes to things like this.
I wanna know how my 2 kindergarten best friends are doing but I just can't seem to find them on social networking sites WHICH IS SO BLOODY WEIRD. Argh...... Everytime I reminisce bout the past, I think of both of them because they were part of my life but I just can't seem to contact them!!! Sigh..... No I'm not weird I still contact my kindergarten friends because apparently, coincidences happen especially to me. Met some of them in primary school and we still keep in contact till now. We had so much memories in kindergarten..... Still so vivid in my mind. :'( I did bumped into one of them on the street before.. I WAS SO SHOCKED I couldn't even say hi because I was in the car T_T OH JOO EE AND BENJAMIN WU JIA QI, WHERE ON EARTH ARE YOU I CAN'T FIND YOU EVEN THOUGH SINGAPORE'S SO BLOODY SMALL!!!!
ALRIGHT enough of nostalgia back to reality. (Actually that part up there was written like 2 days ago just so you know LOL)
Had first day of school today. Not officially but still.... Had like 3 hours of contemp sigh what is life. Slacked on the frass and then fell asleep. Andrea had a mini celebration for me and Jingwen's birthday. Well didnt really work out for me cuz only Andrea and hm Luvenia sang the birthday song to me too. AIYA it was even my birthday yet.. So didnt feel anything hm whoops lol. Cuz i wasnt the star. But still thankful.
Sigh had a long tiring day.. Stayed in school for comp rehearsals till about 10. Lol I was obviously not as committed as the rest. I literally gave up on myself after 9pm. What should i do? I really don't know how I'm supposed to get through this. Peer pressure much? Lol I'm just such a person... You have to accept that I dont put myself first in priority and my decisions are always based on the people around me.... Sigh :'(
Had a tough night honestly and even though I felt touched that Shafiq came to console me but I was too like bleh to even respond. Ha what's new right I'm Shanette.
Thankful that mummy fetched me from school. She didnt really make me feel better in any way but at times like this I was glad I didn't have to go home alone. Went home and found out that my online shopping parcels HAVE YET TO ARRIVE. & it has been like 2 weeks I got so pissed off I ended up crying. Fml menses making my mood go crazy. & this was just afew hours before my birthday. Saddest pre-birthday night ever.
The thought of ballet first thing tomorrow morning doesn't help my mood at all. Gosh but I felt happy when Dennis tweeted me ohmygod. Just when I was reminiscing 2 days ago about my pri sch life and my catching buddies, he talked to me. He even wished me happy birthday in such a sincere way I can't even comprehend how different he has become. I swore I stared at the message for so long and laughed. & I was happy he remembers things from so long ago. HAHA DENNIS YEO GOOD OLD TIMES LA SIGH HAHA. Just thinking of it makes me smile. Yes don't find me weird again I remember very clearly when I was 10 he gave me his first birthday present. GUESS WHAT IT WAS?! SESAME STREET STATIONARY SET JESUS CHRIST HAHAHA. Omg old friends are hard to forget really :) Yayyers~
& I probably just had the longest social network chat with Shafiq. Gosh break record man really but yeah.. Why so sweet oh man he made me teared twice in less than 5 hours alamak. Aiya it's just me. I get touched too easily. Cheh heart too soft, someone needs to teach me how to harden my heart.
Also I felt a teeny weeny bit of happiness when I saw that Jonas remembered my birthday. Alright that's it for tonight. Thank you guys I really appreciate thoughts too much, sometimes abit exaggerating ah me but yeah I really mean it from the bottom of my heart when I say thank you.
So I guess I'm gonna spend my birthday in school.. Ohwell... Goodnight people happy birthday to me.
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