So you know what. I feel like this Semester feels like it's last year this time all over again... It's so similar yet so different. Such a feeling that I really need to get used to.
Nothing much to say about school. I was practically worrying about Dikir Barat performance for the whole week because it took me so damn long to remember the lyrics. I literally remembered everything like on the day of performance. Yeh yeh I work well under extreme stress. So i was so upset that I did better during the last rehearsal than the performance itself. I made so many mistakes that I've never ever made during rehearsals. I was so mad at myself I was so afraid Miss Melissa would scold me or something. But she didn't... I feel so happy like really happy that I finally stopped getting the she-hates-me-she-wants-me-out-of-the-programme feeling from Miss Melissa. I feel so good. When i talk to her I actually feel like she likes me now. This feeling.... I can't even explain I swear. I told her my back became a little stronger than before and that I could get back up from a bridge. She was actually proud of me!!!!!! Guys just feel happy for me please cuz this feeling to me, is overwhelming.
But when something good happens, the bad comes after. My motivation for contemp is NOT THERE AT ALL. Yes to the extent that I even like ballet now. I hate 8.30 lessons. It's really not productive for me at all. Last year, ballet was always the first lesson and I know my brain was just sleeping throughout the lesson. Now Contemp's the first lesson of the day... This is not happening guys I can't survive 8.30 lessons.... Every one of us were jumping with joy when we all knew that last Friday, classes start at 10.30.... My body only responds to earth at 10 the earliest. Anything before that.... I'm really just sleeping with my eyes opened.
Just finished with Season 2 of Teen Wolf. It's so addictive goodness gracious. It's just a disturbing show in a way because it has alot of gory scenes and shit and I can't take it at all. It makes me squirm. But..... The storyline and everything has so many surprises here and there. It's so unpredictable it makes you just wanna keep watching it!!!! I was just being my typical emotional self while I was watching the ending of S2. Like what the hell toying with my feelings this one. I always think like oh he's a good person and then he becomes bad. Oh he's a bad person THEN he becomes good! GAH but I don't care. One thing I know for sure, Derek is a good person. Not very excited to wait for episodes again after i complete the 12 released episodes of S3. Bleh me just don't like waiting for episodes.
Love you guys till the next time
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