I... just rewatched The Sound of Music. I can't believe it's been so long since I last watched it but every scene from the movie is still so vivid in my mind. More than a decade ago, I'm sure of it. The only thing different is that, now I know History between Austrians and Germans and the Nazis and shit. It made more sense now. #perksofbeingahistorykidinsecondaryschool (CHEH RUBBISH I CAN'T REMEMBER SHIT.) MAX DETWEILER FREAKING LOOKS LIKE HITLER.

Alright school this week was.... not THAT tiring in a sense that we had lesser lessons compared to other weeks. But rehearsals still killed all of us. I have a knee issue right now and I really feel damn bloody sad about it. Why couldn't it happen like after dip show? Now every time I full out once, it will hurt like CRAZY. I wish I was exaggerating but I really am not. If it's a muscle problem I can still stretch it out and rest and it'll be gone. This is a joint issue and I don't really know what to do. This is horrible I'm not even kidding. Next week is the start of production rehearsals. I really need a miracle to happen during the weekends. I feel so sucky that I can't freaking do full out fak.

Our jazz routine is so tiring.. I think I suck at it so much but I just suck that shit up and do it. Yup I've been sucking too much shit up this week. Albert scolded us this afternoon, saying that we're a rubbish and lazy class and he dislikes teaching us and yeah, we basically suck. This pretty much shows where we're at. To me I feel like during Albert's class my concentration is FULL ON. Yet that's not enough. Why? Because my skills at catching steps SUCK LIKE SHIT. Eh whatever la it didn't really affect me actually.

A really dull week this week. Thank god it's over..  But I really can't wait to perform for On the Edge.. This is like my first official "big" show in LASALLE. Finally a show my parents are coming to watch. I'm kinda sad that my full clique can never be present but yeah ohwells. We're already halfway through semester 1. I'm left with another 8 more weeks of school excluding next week. It was supposedly project week next week. But what bullshit we have rehearsals every freaking day for like 9 hours.

Sometimes I wish I have a robot that would just listen to me rant and that robot can never ever tell anyone anything. It can't even judge me. Or maybe someone whom I can text regularly and won't get sick of me. Omg speaking of texting.. I hate this. I always feel like people hate texting me because they always stop the conversation. Like HELLO why do you even want to start the conversation when you're gonna end it first?! & the best part is it only happens to people that I love talking to. Irritating people never ever stops texting and people I wanna talk to stops too quickly. I don't like :( I'm so sad. It happened so many times I really think I'm fated to be alone (Not relationship or what ah just general). Like no one likes to talk to me. WHY!!!! I can't figure it out. It's not like I never give you something to talk about. There were so many things they could have replied but people just chose not to. I hate the fact that THEY CHOSE NOT TO REPLY ME. LIKE WHY WHY WHY AND WHY

Oh my god i'm so whiny i need to shut up. someone give me a robot. this instant.

Just can't stop dancing

Another week gone by... Time flies too fast.

Honestly I was more motivated this week and I felt less tired throughout the week. Main reason was because out of the 5 days, my mom fetched me to school for 4 days... LOL so my overall mood was all good.

I probably felt the less motivated on Tuesday... Lion dance was really tiring. & we had hip hop rehearsals with yenny straight after. What made my mood worst was not that we had rehearsals after that. It was because even though we were so warmed up already, she still made us do her body conditioning warm ups! So torturing!!! I dread her classes because of the warm ups. I

I didn't know Becky and Rif were waiting for us for dinner. I knew Shafiq was waiting for Andrea because her phone and wallet. I was happy to see them but then I was still having my post-yenny-syndrome. So i was still sad and unmotivated and all. While we were walking to get food, Rif suddenly asked me if anything happened in class. At first I thought he was just asking for the sake of it so I asked him why he asked. He kept asking me the same question and I also kept asking why. Finally he told me he sensed that something wasn't right and shitz. Oh my god how right was he. I can't believe it. For that moment he felt like Shafiq. Shafiq senses and predicts things so well it freaks me out sometimes. You might think it was because he saw my expression or what so maybe he asked. NO! Rif was playing some energy game with Fionn and so he didn't see me and I didn't say Hi. So freaky..

The rest of the other days were kinda monotonous and same. I went home super early like at 9pm on Wed and slept super early like before 11pm. What a miracle..

Had our lion dance performance on Friday night. I swear I sweated so much like SO MUCH. I could feel myself fainting because of the extreme heat but I held on. The last part of the performance was actually photo taking. ANY NORMAL LION WOULD TAKE THAT OPPORTUNITY TO SIT DOWN AND REST. My lion head so hardcore and active. This Joey kept on moving and moving and didn't wanna let me rest. Almost gave my life up wtf. But it was an extremely awesome experience. I love Coach Ling. He is so fatherly and loving. Even though he is strict at times, I know it's for our own good. Coach Ling for the win!!!!! (I'm gonna post photos once it's uploaded...)

Today I woke up at 12pm.. Slacked around till about 3 and went to Eunos to meet my fellow classmates. We had a performance at a Community Club for mid autumn. Stage run was at 5pm. The weather was so hot man oh god. Reached there, had our stage run and slacked in the dance studio for like almost 2hours. Took photos with my classmates and had our performance.

I thought the whole performance was great until I stepped on my hair during the last formation. What the fuck and I got shocked for like a split second and because of that I kinda did that part wrongly. Jesus christ.... :( Oh well it's okay~~

Went home after the performance. Sigh sigh everyone else had like somewhere else to go. It made me felt like I had no life at all. Boo... Why doesn't anyone asks me out.... Nevermind the fact that I have no boyfriend but can someone please ask me out and make it seem like I have a little bit of life going on on my weekends???? :( So sad la

Tomorrow's already Sunday and I'm supposed to go on a movie marathon with Jai but apparently she can't make it and yup I'm all alone again. Oh no I'm not even kidding if this goes on I'm gonna go crazy like crazy. Sigh sigh sigh

So nice of her to come down to support us and also help us like clean our blocking and stuff like that. Amazing tiny Liyana!!~

Look at that Leonard who photobombed.... (Such an Edwin Goh thing to do)

Me love Edem

Trying to sweet sweet here with my single partner but look at who decided to spoil our photo

One of my juniors~ Yuhua~

Another one of my juniors Nikki~ She's so bubbly wheeee

One of the most tiring weeks ever since school started..

I can't believe our shagness is so obvious to so many lecturers and teachers and friends. "The dancers all look so dead." "The dancers look so tired." "The dancers look so moody." Oh yeah you bet. Just try out our schedule. See whether you can smile and be hyper and shit like that. Lion dance is no joke.... It's so tiring and because of that I feel like my back is hurting so much recently. WHICH IS NOT A GOOD SIGN. I don't wanna have another injury. Weak ankles and shit splints are enough for me. If I get another injury I think I can think of quitting the dance scene. Sigh. My long torso is not even helping lion dance because that means I gotta bend even more, WHICH IS OBVIOUSLY MORE TIRING?

But I'm proud of myself. Proud that I actually went for every single class and skipped none. Oh well I was late for Thurs' Contemp only because I was trapped in the heavy rain. So many times I feel demoralised. So many times I wanna skip contemp. So many times I just wanna fucking give up. Like what the fuck is this 3 times contemp a week is worse than 5 days ballet I bet my life on this. Even worse when the teacher just can't stop picking on you. Yeah ok the whole world tells me not to take it too personally but SHE IS A TEACHER THAT TAKES THINGS PERSONALLY SO WHAT CAN I DO -.- I'm no robot. I've got freaking feelings, I can feel and see with my heart and eyes. :'(

Jazz kills me every Thurs and Fri. So tiring.... As if the routine is self is not tiring enough... The body conditioning before that is like bloody killer omg. Dread it because of the body conditioning. Too tiring especially when we have tiring classes throughout the week. Not working out man. & I'm also not happy that Yenny doesn't block us. She just tells us to go to any position -_- Everytime. I'm like omg what rubbish is this.

How I pull through the day? The fact that I get to spend time after school with people like Becky and Rif and Shawn and not forgetting my 2 idiots Andrea and Shafiq. This really feels like last year sem1 all over again. "Same same yet different." LOL (some quote i saw from Edwin's tshirt) I'm actually happy with the people that I'm mixing with right now. Doesn't really give me negative vibes.

Yay to the weekends but Saturday is almost over. 1 more day left till school starts, AGAIN. Bleh.... This cycle is never gonna end until Dec.... 2 more months. Actually time passes extremely fast. Like I can't believe I'm already almost 2 months into Year 2. Gah whatever tiring school is tiring.