I... just rewatched The Sound of Music. I can't believe it's been so long since I last watched it but every scene from the movie is still so vivid in my mind. More than a decade ago, I'm sure of it. The only thing different is that, now I know History between Austrians and Germans and the Nazis and shit. It made more sense now. #perksofbeingahistorykidinsecondaryschool (CHEH RUBBISH I CAN'T REMEMBER SHIT.) MAX DETWEILER FREAKING LOOKS LIKE HITLER.

Alright school this week was.... not THAT tiring in a sense that we had lesser lessons compared to other weeks. But rehearsals still killed all of us. I have a knee issue right now and I really feel damn bloody sad about it. Why couldn't it happen like after dip show? Now every time I full out once, it will hurt like CRAZY. I wish I was exaggerating but I really am not. If it's a muscle problem I can still stretch it out and rest and it'll be gone. This is a joint issue and I don't really know what to do. This is horrible I'm not even kidding. Next week is the start of production rehearsals. I really need a miracle to happen during the weekends. I feel so sucky that I can't freaking do full out fak.

Our jazz routine is so tiring.. I think I suck at it so much but I just suck that shit up and do it. Yup I've been sucking too much shit up this week. Albert scolded us this afternoon, saying that we're a rubbish and lazy class and he dislikes teaching us and yeah, we basically suck. This pretty much shows where we're at. To me I feel like during Albert's class my concentration is FULL ON. Yet that's not enough. Why? Because my skills at catching steps SUCK LIKE SHIT. Eh whatever la it didn't really affect me actually.

A really dull week this week. Thank god it's over..  But I really can't wait to perform for On the Edge.. This is like my first official "big" show in LASALLE. Finally a show my parents are coming to watch. I'm kinda sad that my full clique can never be present but yeah ohwells. We're already halfway through semester 1. I'm left with another 8 more weeks of school excluding next week. It was supposedly project week next week. But what bullshit we have rehearsals every freaking day for like 9 hours.

Sometimes I wish I have a robot that would just listen to me rant and that robot can never ever tell anyone anything. It can't even judge me. Or maybe someone whom I can text regularly and won't get sick of me. Omg speaking of texting.. I hate this. I always feel like people hate texting me because they always stop the conversation. Like HELLO why do you even want to start the conversation when you're gonna end it first?! & the best part is it only happens to people that I love talking to. Irritating people never ever stops texting and people I wanna talk to stops too quickly. I don't like :( I'm so sad. It happened so many times I really think I'm fated to be alone (Not relationship or what ah just general). Like no one likes to talk to me. WHY!!!! I can't figure it out. It's not like I never give you something to talk about. There were so many things they could have replied but people just chose not to. I hate the fact that THEY CHOSE NOT TO REPLY ME. LIKE WHY WHY WHY AND WHY

Oh my god i'm so whiny i need to shut up. someone give me a robot. this instant.