Hi guys.

It's been like 3 days since I've been walking around with crutches (excluding the weekend because I just sat in my bed for the whole day). It's so tiring and now both my arms and armpits are in great pain.... Tomorrow is my next visit to the sinseh and I really hope he gives me a smaller bandage so I can fit my foot into my shoes and walk on two feet. Yes it obviously hurts but it's totally bearable. I really think I should walk in case I loose all my muscles. 

I feel like a big fat burden to my father I can't even explain this feeling. He's so busy with work and all yet he has to fit into my schedule. If I could walk on 2 feet he wouldn't need to fetch me everyday to and fro sch. Its a luxury to me but a burden to my father. & I cannot stand it. 

Tomorrow's ballet assessment and I'm obviously not going to do it. Sigh my assessment is going to be pushed back. I'm scared.... I don't wanna do ballet assessment alone. Ok maybe not alone. I feel so mean to say this but there's definitely gonna be failures for this class. (or maybe miss Elizabeth decides to be kind and pass all them ha idk) But omg idk how this is going to work out. I am not confident in ballet at all. If I dance with them I am just going to kill myself. Especially when I know they are people who never ever get enchainments right. & when they get it wrong, I'm a gone case because I'm affected by them. Actually I think this problem of mine already improved by a lot but still it's not enough. Ok what the hell why am I worrying about this now. Wrong timing girl 

Gah just wanna walk again. All that I can ask for for now. I'm already missing out on the sleepover at Laban's house and I'm so sad :( sigh. If I cannot go out on Saturday I'll be even sadder. sigh BOOHOOOOO. 

There's so much more that I wanna say here but....... meh meh meh lets just stop here.