I'm doomed.

I don't wanna go to a stranger's house to spend my Christmas Eve!? I don't have an excuse not to go either because I have nowhere to go? Or at least I think I have nowhere to go.

Why is school is burdensome? I received a similar letter I received last year. It really irks me how school is forever spoiling my mood. When do you ever see me happy in school? & it sucks because it's the people in school that makes me feel so sucky. The teachers in particular. I'm not talking about my classmates here anymore because they actually kinda bring a lil joy to my life. But that's not what I go to school for what!! I go to school to learn and enjoy what I'm doing and if I'm not enjoying it, how am i gonna pass?! Seriously this whole bullshit is kicking in again.

I see a very stressful 2014 ahead. & I'm not liking it. I am hoping so much that we'll get Albert for contemp but will we survive the entire semester?! Especially me?!?!?!?! Will I be able to take his EXTREMELY HARSH criticisms?! But I honestly prefer his class to Peishan's…. Then again if I start my year on such a freaking negative note, I'm never getting anywhere. SO!!!!~~~~~ I'm just gonna CHIONG and don't even let any negative vibes hit me. I survived the first 3 months of sem 1 well. Haha ok la mainly because I hung out with awesome people you know who are guys are :') I only started feeling negative during the last week of October… Because fatigue was seriously taking over me… And that was how I even got my feet broken in the first place. I can do it!!! Every semester my tolerance level get higher. This time hopefully I can get thru the whole semester.

Now I'm just worried if my feet is fully recovered… Going to the chinese doctor seem kinda pointless now because he keeps telling me the same god damn thing every week. He has dementia I swear. He doesn't even remember me even though i used to go and see him 3 times a week. Sighpies I guess I'm gonna need to rely on Coach Ling.. I know he will help me!!!! Our LASALLE papa! I think I'm going class this Fri. I am not sure yet BUT OH WELL I MISS DANCING SO LETS TRY IT OUT BABY!!