Unconditionally

So yesterday Amanda came over to my house for a stay over. Oh well it's actually quite nice to have company at night when I'm in such a wtf state. I think too much I have so many unnecessary thoughts like what the fuck SHUT UP SHAN LOL. I wish i have a room mate… Sometimes it just doesn't feel nice to be all alone in a room.

Okay finally watched Taemin and Naeun's WGM. Can I please just say I am so gonna be like Naeun when I'm in a relationship….?! Not being able to express myself well…. Shy…. Of course I'm not as girly as her and cutesy. But yes I need a partner like Taemin man. It's so childish and like cute and innocent at the same time. Then at some random point of time there'd be cheesy moments. I love it omg so my kind of love HAHAHA. I can't believe people were actually bashing Naeun LIKE GURL ARE YOU SERIOUS... I am happy that Taemin's found his soulmate. They are so real wtf it's too obvious hello~~~~~ It makes me cringe but I find it sooooooo damn cute and they make me smile so much sigh~ That's how I got through my day. Watching people fall in love~~ I guess that's really one of my fave things to do in life. I mean if you can't fall in love, you watch others fall in love! HAHAHA they are such a cute couple together sighs I'm quite sad that they just announced that they are no longer gonna be on the show!!!! Argh but I'm sure they'll still talk OFF the show like they already have~~~

Haha things felt different this morning. Wells. I think I no longer expect anything already I'm too used to it. I wasn't even supposed to expect anything. Argh really don't know where this is heading to. My confused mind is just never gonna stop being confused. I'm so confused. CONFUSED!!!!!!! :( I'm sad that I feel like a burden all of a sudden. Like "ah shit must text her good morning." I don't know la I got that feeling this morning and it wasn't nice. Because he's so busy and all that jazz and I'm just like…. meh

you know what. NO school's a burden. YOU'RE SUCH A BURDEN SCHOOOOOOOL